Bored

I've always been depressed. My first memory is about killing my self, trying to, when you are 8 years old you don't actually know how suicide work, I just wanted it all to be over, I still do, but now I'm conscious of my own cowardice, I can't do the thing I want the most for 12 years cause I'm scared.

I've been alive for 20 years, and spent twelve of them thinking about finishing myself,and that's why I'm bored, I'm not bored with anything specific, I'm overall bored with life.

So join me in my memoir. Be bored with me in this daily boredom shit.