The Echo of My Soul
From my childhood, I was living a mixed life. Was I blessed or was I cursed? I had a contrary view over my life. But I was never alone despite everyone around me abandoning me. Another voice was echoing through me, telling me to not be afraid. At one point, I almost succumbed into a life under the shadow, but someone eventually pulled me out of it and placed me under the spotlight. I thought I was freed forever, but the Echo told me that I was wrong. And it was all proven true on the day I discovered the true face of my beloved, who cheated on me without any shame. That day, I felt my world breaking apart. We were always together, I thought we would be together forever. Like some sort of beautiful fantasy. Silly, yet warm. Somewhere I could escape to. A home. It wasn't too much. But somehow, it all started that day. Or did it start before it? I don't remember. My memories are failing me. He told me I shouldn't stay. He told me I'll only get hurt no matter how I try to please him. He did not lie… Then, why did it hurt so much? Maybe because I truly loved him, seeing him with another had me broken to pieces. It wasn't fun, but… It wasn't the worst. That day, I finally decided. ‘Leave.’ It was as if a trigger had been pulled, and my life moved again in a hectic direction. I've met people I thought I won't be meeting again, and was stranded between so many fights of interests. I could only fight for myself there. This time, not only the Echo was with me. Another person was there, supporting me unconditionally. Giving me the confidence to move. Still, I will forever wonder… What choice is the right one? I guess I'll never know until I reach my destination.
No!
When I slept, I was thrown back to the depth of our mindscape. Everything had stopped for me, I was there but I wasn't.
My voice went unheard.
It was the most difficult experience I had since being there.
Since being there…? Actually, how long have I been here? Since when? I'm unable to remember. What was the deciding factor for everything that led to my own existence?
Those questions were tormenting when everything around me was void and silence. But I managed to somehow pull myself together from those and try to break what chained me down in this place.
What was it, though? I was truly oblivious to a lot of things around here. Haaa… But there were a few chains holding me down, they were heavy yet invisible.
When Alice came to look for me, I was in half-coma. Unable to move, but I could hear everything. I was also able to see what happens around us in the real world.