Hi Guys

So, I've been wanting to address this now that things has thankfully calmed down now. It's been a long time since I actually wrote something and to be honest, my love for writing is slowly diminishing. Maybe it's the fact that I'm putting too much pressure on myself to bring out the best chapter I could ever make. You probably have no idea how many times I started to write, only to delete it all because it wasn't up to my standards or weren't showing me the right emotions. And it happened so often that well, it just started to feel suffocating for me. And so, this activity that i once loved to do and looked forward to so much became something i dreaded because it just frustrated me how I can't write how i want it to be written. Every chapter felt like I gave it all the love I could but at the same time, it took away a part of the love I had for myself as the person who wrote it. I grew to love what i wrote but soon hated how I wrote it. It might not make sense to others but it's what I've been feeling ever since this year began and I've been putting it off since because I didn't want to disappoint the people that had been looking forward to every update.

And so, I decided I'll be taking a few more days if not, weeks to rid myself of my own toxic thoughts and self destructive views on my writing. I know it will be a long wait given that my mental health is not the best as most people would believe and I will completely understand if you guys would give up on me and this book but I sincerely believe that I need this in order to grow as a person who loves to write. I am not a writer and should have never inflated my ego so much to see myself as so because it only made me form expectations of myself to be as good as one. I'm not a writer but I am without a doubt someone that loves writing. And so, to fuel my love without breaking my spirit, I'll be taking a long break all the while reviewing everything I have written in this novel. From chapter 1 to chapter 275, I'll once again reacquaint myself with the me who poured all her love into each chapter and the me who was still happy beyond relief despite such faulty writing so that when i return, I'll become a better person that now rekindled the love I once deeply had for writing.