Lost hope but a miracle happened
It was a pleasant evening today, the environment is new to me yet the surroundings are astonishing. I was seating on a bench beside the road, The please is more like an open park. The sunset over the river edge is giving a peaceful sensation to me. The vehicles are moving from back and a blowing wind coming forth. It is a relaxing please for a normal person's but to me it was different today .I lost my one and only hope in the morning. There is no place for me now. Still I don't know whether to cry or not but as you know adults don't cry even if the situation is worst of all. People aim for the best of their knowledge to achieve their dream but the circumstances won't let them do it. There are some people in my life who deliberately insulted me and tried to make me down but I didn't pay any attention to them. The reason I neglected them because, I was focusing on my dream. I had tried.., tried... tried again and again to be a better Artist but nothing happened in the end .my work, projects and presentations are turned down by different organizations. Now I ended up being in a different country yet the same thing happened here too. if I have to begin with, my story has started five days ago...
Today I woke up early in the morning to complete the new art book. I had struggled more than enough to complete this one. It took me more than two years to complete but I don't know how the publisher will react to this. Holding up the thoughts I had started drawing and writing the manuscript.
My name is Shiva, 24 years old graduated student.i had completed my degree in designing and animation. Most of the time I used draw whatever I like. Form the day of childhood to adulthood there are plenty of things I had learned about drawing. Since I'm an orphan, I used to live in a single room with enough furniture. After completing the education, I had started working from home. While I had created more than twenty stories for publishing, but guess what all of them turned down one after another. Not only in my region but also different countries had rejected my work without any valid reason. But I had never lost my hope. I continued doing illustrations for the next three years. This book is my final one, if the book didn't recognized then it is the last one I'm drawing.
After finishing what I had started, I made call to the publisher for a appoint and it was a success. Freshened up fastly, locked the door, catched a public bus, dropped at the destination. It was all happened in a sequence of steps. My hands are still shaking not from the cold atmosphere but from the tension whether the book is accepted or rejected. As you know some fates can never be changed no matter how much you try. The same thing happened again. My book was rejected even before looking at the cover page. I thought this is the end for a person who undeniably tried to become an artist. My foot is crumbling to make next step out. Out of nowhere, an Email had popped up on the window of my mobile phone. It was the response to a book that I had drawn one year ago.
I was shocked more like frozen in that instant just after looking at the message. The message had stated the people in their organization are looking forward to cope up with me and also they will appoint me as a full time illustrator. There is also information mentioning to submit the details in their country. I don't know when I had submitted my material to Japanese organization but currently going to Japan is a big thing to me. Its not about the legal formalities. Once I had step my foot on Japan then I had to spend rest my live there only. I was thinking what to do, neither to accept nor to reject. I came back to the room; I was thinking same the entire day. Meanwhile my friend arjun called me. I met him one day at workshop and he attached to me so much. He is an employee in finance organization and a hard worker compared to me. If you believe in true friends then he is the one for me. We discussed about the message a lot during the night while having the dinner outside. After completing the food arjun suggested me an advice. Shiva let me tell you one thing after this it's up you to decide. When I first joined the finance company I thought of having a good salary and benefits but even after five years of experience nothing has changed. Today you got an opportunity for your hard work and dedication. If the money is your concern then don't worry I can arrange it for you. If you lost this chance who knows what might happen next?
I got a clear cut meaning of what he said. The following day I went to the airport, arjun had taken care of the travelling expenses. He also arranged a room for me to stay. It was near to the organization that I'm going visit. He introduced one of his friends who are currently living in Japan. Arjun had done some much for me but I don't know how to thank him so I promised one thing. Next time we meet our fate will be different. By giving a send-off he left the airport. The journey was long lasted. I was in the dilemma of what should I had to do next. I don't know Japanese language, their traditions and culture etc., how can I manage all of these things?
The flight was landed at Last. I thought of finding the address in this country is difficult but luckily arjun friend Kanna came to the airport to receive me. He is a nice person just like arjun. We roamed around the city for a while. He taught different kinds of things about how to behave. In the evening time he dropped me at the apartment and went to home early. He was married person; he had shown me his daughter picture. She was beautiful like an anime character. He also said about visiting his home on the following day to celebrate the occasion of new post.
The current room was same as before, there is no change at all. The things had happened one after another as a flow of river. I couldn't be to sleep at night since I had high expectations for tomorrow. At last the day has come, I went to the art company by holding the manuscript in the hands. I was nervous; the people are looking at me just like a foreigner. Walking step by step I went inside the office. As I said before some people fate never be changed. I was shocked, more like a dead person by hearing those words.
They claimed the message was true but mistakenly sended to me. I was frozen like a statue not speaking anything. The manager of the organization had apologized to me for causing the unexpected trouble. He also mentioned I was willing to pay all of you travelling expenses. What can I reply them, should I say you people are playing with me or it's always happens to me. I came out of the building without uttering a single word. After walking a distance with heartbroken attitude unknowingly I had stopped at the bridge hearing the waves. With a sudden anger thrown the manuscript into the river and shouted just like a mad dog. My knowledge, creativity and experience everything rejected without testing their performance. I'm vowing now, from today onwards art is the only thing I hate in my life forever.
What I know is different from the reality and the reality always rejected me. May be seating on this chair and watching the sunset is the best thing for now. I don't know whether you believe it or not but the bad things happen on the worst moments. This time is I got a call from arjun. Speaking with him at this time gives a Console feeling but how can I reply him after he had everything to me. I was talking to myself in English, should I pick up or hang up. I was shouting different kinds of words about our friendship. The people are looking at me as crazy person but I didn't notice them. When the call dropped itself one woman came to me. I looked up to check who it is. Her appearance was like a job holder. But who is she? Why did she come here? Am I troubling her? My brain is filled with several questions. The woman was younger and beautiful, she is somewhat different compared to others. Suddenly the phone started ringing again... Im completely diverted the subject because of her presence. While I was wondering about the call she said a word which stroked through my heart. Those are "if you have any trouble tell me, I'm right here to help you"....