Confusing part 1

Elias and Arlo were left alone for a few days now, all they mostly did was hunt, play games with sticks and read old books and get drunk from time to time and sometimes they had deep conversations.

Elias

My first goal was to kill them all, get revenge and never look back but ever since this boy came into my life, my mind won't let me think like that, I've never had good friends or friends at all so this feeling is still strange for me. Arlo was sleeping, it was night, I couldn't sleep. Me and Arlo decided to sleep in the same room and in the same bed for the night. His hair was fluffy, I was uncounciously running my hands through it, I loved the way it felt. I caress his check. An impulse pushed me to kiss his forehead.

Arlo

I suddenly feel like someone is getting closer and closer to me, I have a strange feeling as I decide to pretend to sleep, I couldn't actually fall asleep, I just pretended to. At first I thought that this was all in my head until I felt a kiss on my forhead.

I remain petrified, did the girls came back and are they acting like me and Arlo are toddlers? Are they kissing us good night now? If so, pathetic.

I decided to open my eyes slowly only to be surprised by Elias, he was the one kissing my forehead. I was stuned. Just what does this idiot think he's doing? I blush a little as I just look at him.

Elias:

I noticed he woke up as I felt awkward.

"Just what the hell are you doing, you idiot?"

I'm sorry I was just-

He interrupts me abd what he says surprises me.

"If u want to kiss me, at least aim for the lips."

He gets up and gets on top of me, he kisses me and for some good minutes we have a make out session.

A warm feeling goes through my entire body, making me feel good, I couldn't believe whst I was doing. Am I in love with Arlo? Did some days of us remaining alone together really cause my feelings for him. Were they mutual or were they just a distraction for him?

I always thought I liked girls until this boy showed up, he's such a good kisser, I wonder if he has kissed other people before. After the make out session, I was awkward, he was awkward too.

We looked at each other in embarassment, I enjoyed it but by what I'm seeing he enjoyed it too.

What the hell are we? Are we a couple?

Arlo looks at me, it was obvious he didn't know the answer, it was obvious he wanted to say yes but didn't want to rush things. Afrer all he transmigrated here, I didn't, if he decides to be with me, he will have to chose between this world and his world, I don't know if I can choose, I'll one hundred precent choose wbat he chooses. He was scared, I could sense that, scared that if he says yes, he will have to choose, at first I wanted to kill him, I considered him an intruder along with Calista and Rosé, now I don't consider him like that, his annoyong need to always talk bad made me irritated but at the same time that made him attractive, it's true I only saw him as a piece of garbage the first time I meet him but now I'm willing to leave this world for him, I don't know if it's because of my trauma or only because I'm a teenager in love or because love made me blind. But what I know for sure is that he is not my target anymore.

Arlo

"What the hell are we? Are we a couple?"

I tremble after hearing this question, I didn't know what to say, words refused to leave my mouth, why did I even tell him to aim for the lips when I know that of he doea that I will probably fall for him? I'm stupid, I'm very stupid. I so badly wanted to say yes, but the amount of sacrifices I will have to make are making me feel nauseous.

I'm only 15, I shouldn't be obligated to make such a decision, where the hell is Calista when I really need someone to talk about all of this with?

Elias was waiting for an answer, I was waiting for my brain to give me the answer. I couldn't

ĝive one so I went outside.

Why does everything have to be so confusing?