6. Tyler

I arrived at the place where Elise and I decided to meet up.

Part of me doesn’t want to see her but at the same time I also want to know how she is. We may broke up two years ago and what she had done to me have left a huge scar that affected me, but you can’t unloved someone that easy especially if you have shared three amazing years together as lovers.

After hitting the gym, I head straight to here.

When I went inside the restaurant where we used to grab lunch before, she’s already waiting at our usual seat. She still looks the same, the long blonde hair, bluest eyes and the brightest smile ever. I don’t know why she’s smiling right now but somehow her presence makes me ache. I’m still aching for her after a year of totally shutting me down.

Even after I found out that she cheated on me and even after she got me really disappointed, I still do love her. I still do want her back.

When I reach the table, she immediately gave me a light hug. I hugged her back longer than it is appropriate, god! I missed her. But sadly she pushed me awkwardly.

“I am not staying for long.” She said right away as we settle back to our seat. “I already ordered you a coffee.”

“Thanks.” I said staring at the coffee she just ordered for me. “How are you?”

We’ve been exchanging text since she called me to ask if we can meet up after I get back from Edmonton for our business together. Both of us runs my own hockey merchandise business but ever since we broke up neither of us cared to manage it anymore, however, these past few weeks I finally decided to get back on the grind without her.

It’s time to get my life back. She clearly have moved on, why can’t I?

“I’m good. Been really busy preparing for the wedding.” She said with a little bit of awkwardness and with the mention of wedding it left a huge pang on my chest. “How about you?”

“Could’ve been better.” I replied, totally lying. Despite of the cheating incident though, I am not better ever since I lost her. “Back on the ice, been really busy doing the usual stuff.”

“Congratulations on winning the Championship Cup by the way.” She said.

“Thanks.”

“And I’m sorry for what Dennis did to you at the bar.” She said apologizing for what his fiancé did to me few weeks ago. One thing about that asshole? He stole my girlfriend from me and he’s the one between us who have the audacity to pick a fight. Clearly my presence still do threaten him!

“That’s nothing.” I replied. I don’t want a fight. I’m sick of it! But he’s pushing my buttons all the time on and off the ice in the past two years. Damn it! How can Elise still love that fucking man? Why can’t she just go back with me?

“Anyway, I’m just going to make this quick. I already have spoken to our lawyer about my investment and shares on the business.” She started. “We only need your signature to make it official.”

“You know it’s no biggie that we still share this business together, right?” I said still hoping that she’ll change her mind about withdrawing her shares on the business. I’m still hoping that she’ll come back to me, maybe through sharing business together we can still work it out.

“I know, but Dennis doesn’t want to.” She replied and I immediately spotted a little edge on there. Of course her fiancé doesn’t want this kind of set up.

“Is he treating you right?” I asked because I suddenly felt really concerned.

“Of course.” She said right away. “This is a perfect decision for the both of us Ty. After the fight few weeks ago, I just realized that it is better that we cut all the connections that we have. And besides, I am also moving to Switzerland next month so I’ll surely won’t be able to help you run it anymore.”

Of course, she’s moving. Her fiancé is in Switzerland working as a Vice-president of the Switzerland Bulldogs, who by the way, our greatest rivalry.

“The lawyer will just see you for the papers to sign next week.” She added while busying herself texting on her phone. “Anyway, I have to go. Dennis is already waiting outside. It’s really nice to see you again Ty.”

“Can I at least do something to change your mind?” I said slowly without looking at her.

She was silent for a moment and sighed. “Tyler, stop it. We’re done. Remember how I screwed our relationship, so stop it. I’m getting married.”

I swallowed the lump on my throat trying myself not to look on her or else I’ll sound desperate than ever.

Yeah! She’s right. I should remember how she fucked my whole life and left me for another man but I just can’t stop from thinking about her and those things that I have looked forward to about us.

She stood up on her chair and kissed me on the cheeks for goodbye. I smirked.

“Closure?” I asked.

“I’m so sorry Tyler.”

I didn’t get to say another word. Because I guess she already made up her mind.

No. Scratch that! She already made up her mind. She’s officially leaving me and she’s about to marry another man who’s obviously not me.

I sighed as I watched her walk away from me and approached her fiancé who’s waiting on the door for her. I didn’t miss the way McCovey glared at me when my ex joined him. Asshole!

Elise and I almost had a family of our own, I was so ready to jump with her into a strange new life of marriage but she ruined everything.

Am I not enough? Am I not yet worthy to be family man myself? What’s with McCovey that I don’t have?

Why can’t she just be contented with me?

Why?