Chapter 31

Camryn's POV

I stared blankly at the chair where he was seated.

I don't know what to think right now. My mind is swirling with so many questions.

Where am I? What happens to me? Why am I here? Who are those people?

And who is he?

"I told you! He's our MATE!" My wolf said annoyingly.

But how? How did he find us? Wait a minute! Why am I able to talk to you this clearly?

"Aren't you happy I'm back?"

Of course! I'm very happy that I could connect and feel you again! That our bond is perfectly back together! But what happen? How did you.?

Abruptly, my hands flew to my neck where the mark should be but I felt nothing.

Again, question after question filled my head. I close my eyes hard to think. Thinking hard and digging deep into my memories.

My only memory that I remembered as to where I was is back in our old house and I was with Uncle Ace and Malka was also there. That he had attacked Uncle Ace and out of nowhere many wolves came suddenly and there was this black wolf that had also attacked Malka and killed him.

Killed him?

That means Malka is dead. He's now dead? Is that why his mark on me was also gone and the bond to my wolf was now back normally?

That should be it! But the question now is who is that black wolf that had killed him? And why?

And after that, I remembered Uncle Ace had dragged me out of there and into the back of the house. I was screaming and pleading with him.

But then that was all I remembered. I don't know what happens after that. I search deep down my memories of what could happen, rummaging inside my brain but I can't remember what exactly happened after that. I don't remember anything.

I can't remember what happened next.

And now I was here. In this room.

I scan my eyes around the room. The walls are all painted in white. On my left is a small couch and beside me is a small table with a vase full of flowers. I tear my eyes away from the flowers and look at the open window to my right. A soft gush of wind rushing inside and saw that it was already getting dark outside.

I sigh. When will these questions get an answer?

"It's a long story" suddenly said my wolf sleepyly.

My eyes widen at what she said.

So you do know what happen? And you haven't said anything to me? I'm already getting crazy here thinking about what happened to me when in fact you know what had happen to us?

"I just know half of it" letting out a yawn "I'll tell you some other time. For now, let me take a rest. Don't think too much, and the only important now is we're now safe. So, rest you crazy mind Camryn" she went back inside her haven and curled into a ball and sleep.

Hey! Don't go yet! I have so many--!

But she was already sleeping. I sigh again. I really want to know what happen but I guess I have to wait.

My stomach suddenly rumbled pulling me out of my thoughts to my unanswered questions. It rumbled again and this time it rumbled louder. I was shocked as to how hungry I was and my eyes flew around the room that someone might have heard my not-so-hungry stomach! And was relieved that I was alone in the room and no one had heard me. This is so embarrassing if someone would have been here with me!

But then I remembered the blue-eyed man was here earlier, I mean my Mate! And had gone to get me some food!

Shocks!

Really? Now I call him my Mate?

I covered my face with my hands when I remembered what happened earlier when he was here with me.

That's so embarrassing Camryn!

How could I even do that!? Crying like a baby infront of him! Getting him heard of my noisy stomach! And worst I had slapped him in the face!

Seriously, Camryn? What happens to you? Have you already lost your mind?

My other self screams at me!

What have I done? I'm so a mess right now! What would he think of me now?

He might not want me and he might not want me anymore as his Mate if he would know about what had happened to me.

He might not accept me and reject me as his mate.

A tear suddenly rolled down my cheeks. Remembering all that I have been through. All the abusive things had been done to me.

I had been wasted. Been used many times.

How would he possibly accept a Mate that had been abused, had been hurt over and over again?

He can't. I can't be his mate. He doesn't deserve a Mate like me. I don't deserve to be his mate.

The throbbing ache in my head is getting worse from all these painful thoughts that were wrapping around my brain.

But when I think about what he did to me earlier. Kissing my hand. Laid a kiss on my forehead. Comforted me when I cried. All he showed made my feelings confused.

It was a great feeling when he did those things to me. I feel safe indeed while I was wrapped up in his arms. When I felt the warmth of his chest, sending chills to my bones. Made my heart bounce with joy.

But that's all a mistake. I shouldn't have let him touch me like that. I shouldn't be talking to him or getting him close to me for I knew, if he would know about my past he would surely never want me anymore.

The door suddenly flew open and abruptly I wipe the tears from my face. He came back with food on a tray. The delicious smell hit my nose and my tummy growled again. His eyes found mine and once again I was lost in those damn eyes! Forgetting all that I had in mind about him rejecting me. When in fact every time his eyes found mine, my body felt suddenly alive and it just feels right.

He feels so right and that's because he's my mate.

I force myself to tear my eyes away from him, shrugging the wonderful feeling I felt towards him.

"Mate!" My wolf suddenly woke up "He's here! He's back!" She giddily said.

He set the food on the table and turn to me with a worried look on his face.

"What's wrong? Are you alright?" He gently asks.

"Huh?" I furrowed my eyebrows at him.

Why did he ask me like that?

Shit!

He might have sensed me. I almost forgot! I have to keep my feelings in check and intact safely inside me somewhere deep down where he couldn't sense it.

I compose myself and abruptly respond to him.

"Ahm.. It's just that I had a headache, I think?" I lied but my head was really starting to get a headache. "And I just wanted to sleep, if you don't mind" I lied again. I just want him out of the room. Away from me.

"You should eat first before taking a rest. I want you to eat all that I had brought here" Then he pick up the tray and went in to sit down on my bed beside me while the tray of food was on his lap.

The rush of heat slowly sparks within me. He was so close to me. His scent swirled around me. Dawning on me, pulling me.

I can't think right when he's this close! All my doubts about me being his Mate slowly melted away.

"What do you want to eat first?" His husky voice filled my ears and I was lost again.

"You! I want to eat you!" My wolf said wantonly.

Thank the heavens he couldn't hear you! You flirty wolf!

I said to her with a huff. I am so annoyed at her. I had never been annoyed like this of her!

Can you please stop this wolf? You're making me nervous!

"What did you say?"

I gasp at his question. He looks at me and tilts his head waiting for my response.

Did he hear my wolf? How could he hear her?

I nervously look back at him.

And when our eyes met, his wolf emerge forward and so did my wolf. They were peeking at each other. Giddily staring at each other, wanting to get out.

And then slowly his face was getting closer and closer. My heart drummed in my ears, and every nerve in my body was pulsing way too fast.

What is happening?

And when our face was just inches apart, his wolf let out a low growl and my wolf purred in response.

What are you doing wolf? Stop this!

She didn't mind listening to me she just kept her gaze on him. My heart beats faster this time. His face was so close to me, I can feel his hot breath against my skin. Making me want to touch his lips.

I swallowed hard at the thoughts invading my messy brain.

Still, my wolf won't listen to my pleas. Until both of our wolves said one word to each other.

"MATE!"

My eyes widen at their words. Shock coursed throughout my whole body but I didn't see him surprise at his wolf's doings.

I think he's enjoying this!

And I don't! I can't!

Please, wolf stop this! You do know what had happened to us! Please, let him go! He doesn't deserve me! He doesn't deserve us!

But still, she was so hard-headed. Lost in her Mate.

"Trust me Camryn, he wants us! He would always want us!"

As soon as she said those words to me, she surge forward forcing me to get closer to our mate.

And then an intense feeling crawled suddenly inside me as his lips brush gently to mine. I didn't have time to react when our lips found each other.

My eyes widen at what is happening!

His hands gently touch my face, caging me in as he kisses me deeper. I was slowly melting inside and out. Melting to his touch.

This can't be happening! Do something!

My mind is screaming to get away from him but my heart and my body are contrary to what my mind wants me to do!

My heart thumped louder inside my chest, my body felt alive! Tingles crawl up to my skin.

My wolf is jumping up and down with so much joy.

The warmth and strange feeling is spreading through my body as he continues to kiss me but I don't know how will I react to his kiss, how will I move my lips?

I don't even know how to kiss!

I saw that he's eyes were shut close and here I am so nervous and stiff while he is kissing me tenderly!

I wanted to pull away but I can't for he was holding me. I wanted the kiss to end but the other side of me wanted more.

He let out a low moan and his kiss goes deeper trying to open my mouth. He was heated and was so into our kiss but I can't think straight, I don't know what to do. I don't know how to respond to this kiss.

Heat slowly blooming inside my heart going down through my core and I need this to end now! Before anything might happen!

He might have sensed that I am not responding to his kiss and I felt stiff under his hold. Slowly his eyes opened and saw my widen eyes. Instantly he pulled away and let go of my face.

Abruptly, I look down not wanting him to see how red my face is but then his hands touch my chin making me look up to him. I bite my lip and slightly shook my head. I hope that he understands what I'm trying to say. But then he just gently smiled at me and slowly caressed my cheek. Sparks spread again inside me under his touch but I force myself to pull away from these different sensations, not wanting to be drowned to him. So I pulled away from his touch and sigh deeply before speaking to him.

"We can't. You don't know me and you don't want to know it. Please, just reject me." I grip my hands at the blanket on my body.

I need to do this, for his sake. I don't want to be a burden to him.

My wolf growled at me.

It's for his good wolf. He deserves someone better than us.

My tears stream down and I tried to stop myself from crying. Not wanting to cry again infront of him.

But again he hold my face up to look at him and saw something in his eyes. The way he looks at me.

Not pity.

Not regret.

But something I can't explain.

And then his words envelop my heart.

"I don't need to know who you are. It doesn't matter to me what your past is." His eyes never falters to look at me while his hands hold my face making him sure that I was looking back at him "It's enough for me to know that you are my Mate."