Chapter 25: Midnight way home...

It was just as I thought. My 56 is truly the second lowest in our class...but I bore my failure with pride...and promised myself to improve...whatever it takes.

The lecturer didn't roast me. Rather he told us all what we did wrong in general and thus answered my questons. And he bluntly told my proud-butt to go ask for help when I need it.

Well. Couldn't be more on point than that! Can it now!

I am at the bus stop near my apartment now...on a Saturday afternoon. Going for grocery shopping because my mind couldn't do data analysis a minute longer. I decided it to give it a break- worked out- and came out to shop.

12 hours ago this place had been full of drunk, half naked, loud and lousy teens. The were all going to a party dressed with pretty dresses and full make ups on...and the boys...in their everyday T-shirts,jumpers and shorts.

Now that I think about it...That doesn't seem very fair...does it?

Or is it that girls just like to play dress up and try to feel pretty and all? Could girls go to the parties in their shorts and jumpers and still get laid? nope. I don't think so!

...anyway...that's not what I wanna talk about today.

Just wanted to let you know that after 44 days of my stay in a country called X in Europe, and 33 days in campus...and for the very first time in my life....I went out and had fun with my friends.

Could you believe it! Me! I went out and had FUN with a couple of FRIENDS.

You might be wondering how that happened....

because...that doesn't happen to me.

It didn't untill now anyway.

It all started yesterday morning- when after studying some 30 percent of all a course content and realizing that I couldn't actually cover it all before the exam started at 8 pm...I decided to have a shower and eat breakfast before it began.

Then I found a message from one of my friends back in Asia saying that all the salary money that wasn't paid to us during corona because we had gone back home(and had an epic fam time while everyone else was suffering alone underquarantine-because...well...we as a nation couldn't afford to stay at home and starve and die-it's not like the government would give away money for the next one million years) was about to be sent to us ...

Which, in normal situation and to a sane mind , should have been the news to trigger a happy dance and an occasional roll and power pushups in the room...but I, who wanted to be really really smart, couldn't get that 56% out of my mind...and was thinking of how to Ace the exam, did not spare it more attention than the bird looking at me from my window.(dk what the beak he's curious about!)

I just wanted to prove myself good enough for my teachers...and my classmates. I just wanted to make a statment that said I was not an imposter...because I kept feeling like one everytime I see my classmates.

Oh yeah...I just saw two birds sitting on either side of a park bench in the rain. There was a banquet of flower on the bench, right between them. They looked sooo adorable, and it was such a nice , romantic scene...had there been anyone to notice it...it was just the kind of scene at the end of a movie where two lovebirds break up and make up in the rain as the dood kneels on the mud and proposes to the girl and the girl says yes and marries him only to wash those muddy jeans the rest of her life.

Annyyy who..

As I was saying....

what was I saying....oh yeah...

I had to send a message home and ask my parents to send me my bank documents...because ...well...like hell I was gonna turn free money away! But then I dived right back to my study and did the exam in 2 hours and 40 minutes( feeling dumb again because the teacher said people had finished the exam under 2 hours before... )

It might also be worth to mention that the exam had 7 fill the blanks, 20 multiple choice with 6 choices each and all choices that are actually full sentences, 5 short answers with 4 abcd each, of which some requested a diagram to be drawn, and 3 essay questions.

So. Yeah.

2 hours.

Did I give my self a break to think that what the teacher said might be unreasonable?

Nada Nada!

Just went on thinking that every one had already finished and that I was the dumbo.

The I submitted the exam and hopped on a bus and went to class...

That's when I see a chat in the class room chat group where my classmates were asking how in the hell did the teacher thought that we would be able to finish everything in 2 hours.

And I teared up because that made me feel so ...undumb.

I mentally clapped for all the reasonable people on earth are confident enough think something, judge it positively unfair and were unafraid to say so. I would have clapped outloud but i didn't want all the people in the bus think me loco.

....then we went to class...where I just stared at the projector screen blankly ...then went up to our fam office to chill with kids for a bit then go home....

but...I found out...ALLLL my other classmates were still working on their exam....making a full use of the actual deadline...instead of the one that the teacher said.

Thus...I felt a different kind of dumb and started working on the Exam again...