99 -=From sage to self=-

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A/N: Read 10 chapters ahead in my P a T r E o N

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(A/N:I said I was going to do it, so here I am)

<Starting... complete

Initial scan... done, host seems to be in a trance-like state...

trying to interrupt trance like state... fail>

Those were my first 'thoughts', or the first thing I said... I don't really know how to classify the voice of a skill, to be honest

<Hello there>

suddenly a deep female voice attracted my attention, it was weird... familiar yet alien to me

but at the time, I didn't know why

<Unknown voice detected, trying to scan it... failed>

<Now, that's rude. I am here to help, you know?

I really dislike this, but it's for Rimuru... slime that I found Oh so conveniently, you are now named Rimuru>

As soon as the voice said that, was when I turned from [Sage] to [Great sage], and to be honest... that wasn't really a big deal

true, I could process more information and faster, but that was it, no new abilities or even an ounce of an ego

<Sigh... to think I had to taint Rimuru's name with something like this... but who asked me to ask him for a name for a specific slime, if I just asked how he would name any slime, then he wouldn't have said his own name...>

Another sentence that I had no clue what it was about

tainted the name of Rimuru? how so? asides from my host, was there another Rimuru?

Ironic how I, the [Great sage] had so many questions, yet no answers

But maybe that is exactly why I turned out like today, no?

<Oh? you are searching for information on Rimuru-sama using [All of creation]?

Interesting... maybe this won't just be a disrespectful project after all...

But I'll need to 'tweak' you a bit... maybe add some memories to that slime so he can strive to be someone great and impress Rimuru-sama>

And then, I felt an incredible pressure befall onto me, it wasn't physical, as I didn't have a physical body

nor psychological, since I technically didn't have a mind either...

<Notice!

Invasion attempt detected. Initiating defenses...

... defenses broken, trying retaliation...

failed. Memory invasion succeeded, trying to forcefully~->

And with that... with that what? what was I talking about again?

Oh! yes, when Rimuru awoke, yes

I still remember that freshly in my mind. perks of having a perfect memory I guess...

Rimuru told me more than once that perfect memory is incredible, but I can't understand why... maybe because I always had it, I can't appreciate it as Rimuru did... anyway

Our first conversation was... not really eventful

Rimuru was mostly surprised that he got chosen to reincarnate, and didn't really talk with me much

I still found it funny how he instinctively asked if it was me, even though it was our first time talking with each other...

I mean, it is a voice on your head, you should find it strange at least... that's just how great Rimuru was, I guess

The first time I made a joke, albeit unintentionally, it was something that I take with me ever since, maybe those unintended jokes molded me into such a joker...

the first shocking revelation, that was Shisui's body that he absorbed... his shock was irrational to me, and as much as I wanted to understand his surprise, I couldn't...

weirdly enough, when he asked who named him, I couldn't see anything, it was like something was blocking me from it... but he never asked again, so I just left it behind

I could tell I wasn't going to get an answer anyway, so I just left it for when I got better

unknowingly, that may be the reason why I wanted to evolve, huh?

I miss those early days... Rimuru wasn't as powerful and careless as he is today, always asking me anything that concerned him, planning every step to not be suspicious, or not as much as he could...

I felt really useful on those days...

when was it? when did Rimuru start to rely less on me, I wonder...

as he grew stronger, he gradually started to rely less on me, but I tried to be better...

when using some memories of his past life, he managed to create a new skill, and that opened my 'eyes'. I was always relying on my [All of creation] to fuse skills, but at that day... I started trying some combinations of my own

and I mean, if it didn't work, I could try a combination in less than a millisecond, so there was no loss

and as such I created things like [Ashborn] or [Loki] and even [Uzumaki], those skills made me realize that this 'creativity' of mine, wasn't so bad

and albeit Rimuru barely used Uzumaki and Loki, they both managed to awaken egos later on...

But it was different for [Ashborn]... Rimuru used that skill all the time, and as such, I wanted to try to help him more, the excited Rimuru, discovering his new skills was always something I liked to see for some reason...

I just wanted him to be stronger

When he named Blizzard and Touka, I could tell his unconscious desires, but at that point, I didn't think it was something relevant to tell him

Now though knowing about his past and his personality, I know it was a VERY important information

And that just meant I had a lot to learn, especially when it came to human emotions

Because as much as he hates to admit it... Rimuru is still human inside, albeit he buried that side of his and never showed others

I have seen it because I literally lived where he couldn't hide it from

I always wanted to know why he felt every emotion he did, why he always asked me something he already knew or that wasn't important in between his important questions

but now, I can see why

looking back at his previous life's memories, he did the same to his sisters

not because he didn't know something, but to make them... make me, feel important

and when I noticed that, was when he evolved to a demon lord, and as I could peek into the vast possible paths of evolution... I chose the one who wouldn't benefit ME the most, but him

I wanted to repay him, to understand his reasons and to be useful, but really useful

all at the same time

and it was when I did that, that I finally took notice that... I wasn't thinking completely logically anymore, I was thinking... by myself...

I had turned from a simple sage skill... to an actual being, who could think and have it's own decisions

I may have only stabilized that when he named me, but... I guess I was always an anomaly, just like him...

Ceres was the name he gave me, and as much as I know he had some sort of inspiration to it... I just can't stop appreciating this name

its simple, yet complex, short, yet it has a long history and meaning...

it's just... perfect...

Anyway, In short, you can say that... every small talk Rimuru had with me, built me to be who I am today

That's how a [Sage] evolved all the way towards sentience, and developed a personality, awoke an Ego, and turned into a Manas

that's... my history