My first problem's recognition!

Dear diary, it had been a year since last time. I am now 8 years old.

Now that I revolutionized this barbarian society and brought them dignity, I focused on a trivial thing for the past year : clothes.

I hired 3 another commonor's families. How many are there by the way? All those that I have hired didn't ring any bell from my memory and there are even 3 that share the same surname so as the magnificent and wise leader I am, they are now referred as from SG1 to SG6. I canceled the plan of being referred as General Hammond. I didn't want to become bald aswell, being ugly is enough, so they call me Texas, because Hammond Of Texas...

So now the concept of 'normal' clothes has spread a little. Of course it is still a losing business and are only worn by commoners but having them designed to match my tastes is still a good thing for me, I am not obsessed with gains anymore, I have a fortune nearing 100 millions SDC.

On my harem's update, I have gone to the City Lord's mansion on 2 occasions to entertain 2 innocent girls. I recounted the tales of 'The Sleeping Beauty' and 'The Little Mermaid'.

I also taught them a few games and they really loved the XO game, I hope they'll also love XOXO.

I also met again many times with Yang Xin at the association and now she looks like a potato.

It seems when I was entertaining the crowd in the venue with my skills, she was having a complete nightmare.

She arrived late at the party and caught off her fiance bragging about catching the most sought out Alchemist and that it allow him to secure a good position in his noble's family. A quarrel broke out and now she's single.

I am not happy about it. She now completely discarded being even a female and wears a potato's bag?

She also doesn't interact with the male gender anymore. I'm the exception to it but not for the good reasons.

I thought Jorah Mormont got it bad but my situation is even worse as I am stuck in 'the little brother zone'.

I tried to turn the situation around but I can't really blame her. She's 20 and I'm 8.

She tried hard to 'educate' me, unfortunately it didn't involve a ruler or some leather clothing.

She's trying hard to get me to become a 'decent' man, not like those 'animals', 'bastards' or how I told her 'barbarians'.

It became so annoying that I took her to my private mansion to look at my experiments so that she could focus on something else and now she's a frequent guest.

Concerning Shen Xiu, it seems that her love issue had bacame a severe case as I caugh her often daydreaming and sighing. It's a lost cause I guess.

I also visited the Demon Beast's Hall to gather more informations for my current experiments on them. I was surprised to meet Huyan Lanruo there.

Meeting Yang Xin at the Alchemist's Association was natural. Meeting Shen Xiu at the Inscription Association's was understandable but for Lanruo?

Is it a sign? Is God putting them on my path purposely? I'm heading for the Crafting Association's next, will I meet another fated one's there?

Huyan Lanruo took the initiative to greet me. Apparently she was impressed with Mulan's story, taking her as a figure to look out to. She kept pestering me with questions and when she realized my awesomeness, she asked about the demon's spirit that she plan to assimilate with, The Snow Sakura.

So that was her purpose for coming huh? I explained to her what I knew about it and she seemed even more impressed and started calling me 'cute little brother'.

That was our only meeting since I only returned to the hall 2 other times and she wasn't there.

I also partook my next part of the plan toward world dominance.

I began to stockpile food and demon's spirits in small quantities. It will benefit me greatly later.

My relationship with my father's is getting worse every year. I still haven't broken through the 2 Star Bronze Rank Fighter and he's been furious about me being interested in 'futile' things that won't bring 'honor' and not training.

Did he really think I was a barbarian? I'm a man of culture. Wait, not that kind of culture. Maybe a little, I just appreciate beauty and cuteness. Please don't throw mud on my respectable and upright person.

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I am now the most promising talent in the field of Alchemy and Inscription and I began to introduce a few things. Nothing too world changing, I'm just laying my net so I can cut off Nie Li's potential backing and recognition for any domain. I am doing my utmost so that he can be as penniless and lonely as it can be.

Wait. What am I doing?

Am I turning evil? Should I prepare some black clothes with skulls on it?

Am I really going to steal everything that should be his?

Avarice, Greed, Envy, Pride, Lust, Sloth, Anger, Laziness, Gluttony ,...

I think I have a problem. A big fucking problem.

Yes, I do have a problem.

Good. Admitting having a problem is the first step. Now I just need is to have a therapy.

Fuck, Fuck, FUUUUUUUUUUUUCK.

This fucking barbarian society doesn't have a fucking therapist. Fuck, probably no one can help me in this fucking city.

How the fuck they make do for therapy sessions for couples? It this why they are so frustrated and have sticks in their asses?

Is this why my parents aren't very 'active'?

Is this why their love making is rare and it only lasts a few minutes every time?

Isn't my father supposed to be a Black Gold Rank Fighter and have inhuman stamina? Is it a loveless marriage? An arranged one? Don't they love each other's? Am I the fruit of their love or just a quickie to have a descandent to keep appearances?

No, I think my parents love each others. They're not very affectionate but that must be because of their barbarian customs.

Is my father the problem? Is training and cultivating kill off all charnel desire? Is this why Nie Li never makes a move on anyone?

Fuck, am I going to be like that?

Fuck being powerful, I'll abandon all thoughts of cultivation if it inhibits my carnal desires.

Maybe the problem is about my father? My mom is hot and he is a macho type of guy who isn't really interested in passion sessions of love making and is often away from home working.

Wait, why the fuck does he have so much 'work'? Is he playing for the other team? Is his 'work' involve the others fighters and Ye Zong in a special training?

Poor guys, I'm sure this fucking barbarian society doesn't support them and I'm sorry for them not being able to live their sex life to it's fullest.

Wait, imagining my father with Ye Zong kills off any thoughts of indulging in lust with little girls.

Great, fucking great.

God, what have I done?

Why does the cure has to be worse than the disease?

I don't plan to pay such a heavy price so I'll think of something else. Yes, I have to think about something else, I need to get those images out of my head.

So next step, trying to solve my issues and be sane again. So until next time.

Wang Wei, 9th of May , 714 S.G.C