Chapter - 23

We all face some kind of difficulties in our life, listing each of them will be quite boring and hectic for me to write and for you to read as well. So I am going to cut it short, overall the type of difficulties that we come face to face are usually physically but have this ever occurred to you or you might have felt that you are suddenly too much exhausted, tired or fed up emotionally/mentally.

And in such situations we behave differently or do overthinking, for instance, some days you will feel as if there is no one for you or you should just stay in your room. Or you just want to run away somewhere where no one could find you, one day you feel as if you have my things to say and other day you feel like to stay quite. Though the main problem is you don't know how to do this, or ways of doing it are unknown to you.

In situations like this, we try to find someone with whom we can share everything but we fails because either they don't have time for your or you don't know how to be yourself and express yourself. And this turn out to be a difficulty which make us loose the battle of being yourself. 

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I wake up hearing a bang sound, without thinking about anything I leave the room run towards granny room from where I am hearing the loud voices of someone's crying and shouting. As soon as I reached near the granny's room I see my Aunt crying there in front of granny and saying some words which are not audible properly because of her crying but some words that I was able to understand.. 

"how can she talk to me like this? he is my husband, who say things like this? isn't he is my brother also"

And assuming that something must have happened between mother and aunt, I directly walk towards mother's room. As I reach their I found the door slightly open, so without knocking I enter inside the room calling her out...

Me: Mom!

Mother: (Coming out from the washroom) yeah Siya!

Me: What happened to Aunt? What scene happened today?

Mother: Ohhh that was just her usual drama nothing serious.

Me: But at least me tell what happened?

Mother: Your father come home early today to pick up something related to his work, we two were just having teasing or I should say joking session. During that time only aunt come, from our conversation she assumed that I am saying something bad to father and she speak in middle of us saying..

"who talk to their husband like this? is this the way to behave with him? how could you laugh at him like this?" 

and I didn't liked it, I mean who is she to speak in the middle of husband and wife so, I replied to her that.. "he is my husband, I know what and how to talk to him." After this she is behaving like this, what can I do? You too know that she just like to do drama.

Me: Okay

I choose to speak nothing, start walking back towards my room as I am completely fed with these people because all they do is to ruin the peaceful environment of the house. Like, seriously since childhood I heard my grandfather telling me that, 

"females are someone who made house living like, she should know that and must learn to behave in that manner. And this is not a today's thing but it has been going on for centuries, that a woman can make a house liveable and she can also destroy it. As the world is getting modern women started studying, earning money and honestly, there is nothing wrong in it but with this they should also keep one thing in mind that they have to be a creator of a new life, a house and a family. As this is how things are written in our Shastras also."

While thinking all this I entered in my room, still able to hear loud crying and shouting voices. I close the door, then directly walk towards my study table, pick up my headphones start hearing the music at its maximum volume because these loud voices are spinning my head.

As the music start playing, I feel myself getting lost in it with closed eyes and after a minute or two I can feel the loud voices getting disappeared. However, soon my trance break as I hear my phone started ringing, I open my eyes and look at my phone screen... Vihaa's name showing. Immediately I answered the call,

Vihaa: Hey kiddo!

Me: (Tried to be as cheerful as possible) Hey

Vihaa: See you in the park after ten minutes.

Me: Okay.

With this she hang up the call, I start getting ready and as soon as I finish getting I leave the house after wearing my shoes. I start walking in the direction of the park, soon Vihaa joined me too and together we start walking inside the park. After likely our second round of the park, we settled down on the nearby benches and Vihaa initiated the conversation...

Vihaa: I very proud of you kiddo, finally you did it. Now you will be going to do post graduation.

Me: Thank you, you know when I learned about the result. I was shocked plus surprised as well. Umm, I wasn't expecting to pass it honestly but I did it and its all because of you. Thank your for being there for me when I needed the most.

Vihaa: No need to thanks me because you are more than a friend to me, honestly, in this short period you have become a family to me. My small sister.

However, leave all this and tell me why you are looking so exhausted, irritated and tired?

Me: Nothing new, same old fights, I don't understand why these three women can't live in peace and don't let us live in peace too. Today also they fought on small topic, aunt is crying and creating a scene.

Vihaa: See, it is very simple to understand. All three of the women belongs to three different generations, they have live their lives in their own styles and all of them have their own share of difficulties and when they come or live under the same roof then it is obvious for them to have clashes.

Though, except your granny the other two can remain calm and maintain peace sometimes but they don't really care because their vessel of patience is so much full that is ready to burst anytime.

Me: Yeah I can understand it but the thing is those loud voices or cries, make me feel uncomfortable. It increase my headache, I feel like to make myself deaf so, I won't be able to hear it.

Vihaa: Yeah it can be quite exhausting. But do one thing lock yourself in your room, listen loud music at that time or sing loudly. Basically, just make sure that your voice or the sound of music should be loud enough to block other outside noise. This way you will be able to have a easy escape.

Me: Okay I will do it.

Vihaa: Good. Now tell me how are you going to prepare for the entrance exam?

Me: I haven't think about it anything. Do you have any idea how should I go ahead with preparations?

Vihaa: (After thinking for a minute or so) Yeah, I would suggest you to study about every subject in psychology like a overview.

Me: Explain please.

Vihaa: Simple, you should know about, cognitive, developmental, clinical, abnormal, counselling, statistics, assessment tools etc.

Me: Okay got it. By the way how are you doing?

Vihaa: All is okay, I am trying my best to live a normal life with him and thinking about our future, hoping it to be good.

Me: That's cool. Now, get up we should walk more rather than sitting and talking.

Vihaa: (Frustrated) Huhhh

Though, we both don't want to stand up and walk but still we stand up and start walking in the park again while talking about some small as well as big topics. Just like this our forty minutes passed, around seven fifteen in the evening I walk back inside my house only to find pin drop silence which means "This is the calm before storm"

Ignoring all this, I took off my shoes and start walking towards my room only to be stopped by Aunt voice coming from granny's room. And right away my mind told me...

Here comes the storm bro!!!!!