Why? -pt9-

I woke up with puffy eyes from all the crying I did last night. I looked over to see Tae sleeping soundlessly while still holding my hand. I smiled to my self and gently stoked his hair. Wait what? Why am I stroking his hair? I don't like him do I? No! I can't let myself fall for my own kidnapper. I hate him because he's the only soul on earth who can make me feel weak. What the hell is wrong with me? After I stopped procrastinating, I quickly drew my hand away from his hair, gently let go of his hand and stood up.

I silently walked over to the other side of the bed to wake him up. This is his property how am I supposed to know what to do after waking up? I gently shook his shoulder while whispering:

'Tae...Taehyung?'

'Wake up Tae it's the morning.'

He made some sort of alien noise and pushed me away, replacing the position his head was in. I tried again a little louder:

'Taehyung can you wake up now?'

'Tae?'

He sat up looked and looked to the ceiling.

'Arghhhhh' He sighed.

He looked at me annoyed and said:

'What? Why did you wake up?'

I didn't reply just looked at him frowning my eyebrows. I was trying to work out if his split personality had kicked in and if he was himself.

Then out of nowhere he fiercely stood up and walked towards me very intimidatingly.

'Who are you frowning at?' He said with a dark tone.

'Nothing... I- I was just-'

'You was just what huh?' He interrupted.

'I was just wondering if you was still yourself'

I looked to the ground in fear and confusion. I couldn't tell if he was himself. Is he naturally intimidating?

He started laughing uncontrollably. Getting louder and louder, scarier and scarier.

'Tae stop laughing , what's funny?' I questioned.

He immediately stopped laughing and looked at me coldly.

'Oh I'm definitely myself hun' he responded.

With saying that, he grabbed me by my neck kind of strangling me. He tightened his grip around my neck and forced me backwards into the wall behind. I coughed a little rolled my eyes and looked at him darkly.

'Tae, you already know this won't hurt me.' I bravely replied. I felt all sorts of happiness flowing through my body while watching someone try to hurt me. I giggled in his face.

'Oh yeah I forgot, you've been a prisoner your whole life haha. Did uncle do this to you too?' He said with a vile smile on his face.

Out of everything he could've said he had to bring up my past. That was just out of order. There was no need to hit home or come for me so strongly. I know we were fighting but still, what he said actually hurt. Tears began collecting up in my eyes. I didn't want him to know he hurt me so I slapped him in his face and ran off.

'Shit that bitc-' I heard Tae curse as I ran off.

I had no idea where to go but I kept on running with the tears falling down my face causing my vision to blur. As I kept on running I fell to the floor after bumping into someone. I immediately look up and shout:

'Watch it next time!'

She didn't care about my raised voice and calmly replied:

'Where's Kim Taehyung? Why were you running and why are you crying?'

I gave her a dirty look and wiped my tears.

'That monster you call Kim Taehyung-'

Before I could finish, she interrupted by saying:

'Monster? Oh no'

She quickly started running back in the direction of the room so by curiosity I followed her to see what was going on. We ended up back at the room. It was completely trashed. And Tae was kicking the walls in. I stayed by the door peeping in while the girl ran in looking at the mess Tae had made.

'Kim Taehyung calm down okay?' She said gently.

'Calm down hahahah''I've never been calmer' he replied.

She walked up to him and hugged him tightly.

'What the-' I quickly covered my mouth before I could finish my sentence as I didn't want to be noticed. I continued watching the romance scene in front of me. Then as I'm watching, I see the girl lift her head up and kiss him. Kiss him? Why is she kissing him like that? I turned around as I couldn't keep watching that disturbing kiss scene. It was like it came out of a bad movie. But still, who the hell even is she? How did she manage to calm him down by kissing him? Did she have to take it that far? In all honesty I think she over reacted. She didn't have to hug and kiss him. Was it really necessary? I lean my back against the wall next to the door and let out a loud but restrained sigh.

I felt so uneasy. It's something I've never felt before. I told myself it was because I just watched someone kiss a crazy man. Was that really the reason? Maybe I'm jealous. Wait! Jealous of what? He's crazy and I want to leave this place. I slap my cheeks trying to bring myself back to reality and knock some sense into my head. I couldn't let myself get attached so I had to move heartless. I had to keep telling myself not to care about anyone or anything. I had to make a plan to leave or to kill everyone here and escape. I heard Tae and the girl coming closer to the so I walked a few steps away from the door and began walking towards it again to make it look like I had just arrived. Tae looked at me so I returned the eyes. The girl just walked off without saying anything.

'Ria let me explain'

'Don't bother, I already know. You had an outburst and you couldn't help it. Oh well' I said heartlessly.

He just looked at me in shock. I guess he was expecting me to at least listen to him. I felt bad but I had no choice. I couldn't let myself get attached to him just in case I didn't want to leave him. It would be a toxic relationship anyway. I gave him one more look before brushing past him walking back into the room. I shut the door behind me still hearing nothing from Tae. I leaned my back against the wall and took some deep breathes.

'It's okay Ria you did the right thing.'

'You have no other choice.' I whispered reassuring myself of the decision I made.

'Ria, I know I make it hard but please don't push my away.' He said through the door. I turned to face the door and placed my hand on it. I didn't reply. I let tears build up and fall as I starred silently at the door.

'Don't fall for him Ria don't do it.' I told myself.'

I heard him walk away and I let out a breathy cry. Could I really be falling for him? Why him though, why him?