Introduction

I still remember the cold feeling in my fingers. This may be the last time, the last time I may see the sun, the beautiful blue sky. I may have done these actions, but they pushed me to this point. It's alright, though. This doesn't mean much anyway.

The last time I felt the fear of death was long ago. I should get this over with. I did a lot of things to get to this point, and now I shall just redo them. I can do this. I can win.

I look at everything I have done. This was fun in a sick way. Darn, I can even see my long black hair. Wonder how long it's been since a haircut. I drop my weapon. I see her charging at me. It's weird how we were good friends at some point.

I see everyone else looking at me. We were all good friends, we traveled together, laughed, and cried. I did everything I could. All I did the last time was hurt you guys. I am sorry for taking this route. But, I am thankful to you guys.

Out of everyone, I could wish to take my life. It would be you guys. I suddenly feel something, I feel a tear. Why am I crying?

I could see her hesitate, I don't want to see you like this. I take the tip of her blade and stab myself. Don't know why, don't know how. But here I am. In this endless cycle of death, for now.

What should a man like me say to an old friend in his last moments? Why, why did I get this curse. But all I can do is smile. Like how I always done. No matter what, I have to smile. For them.

"Thank you all. I love you."

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I died, and that was easy. At least I died by my friends hands. Wonder what face I did when I died? not important, however. I just want to redo everything. I want to restart.

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This might be my final chance, but fuck it! let's try. I didn't go through all this hell to give up now. I will succeed. No matter what. Even if I lose the leftover sanity, I have left. I will win, I have to.

Not for me, but for them. For all those countless lives were lost and taken by me. I will make a future, a good future. For everyone. And all with a smile on my face, I hope so, at least.

I think through everything I have done so far. I done alright, if I do say so myself! Enough thinking. Time for action. Next thing I know, I am awake in my room.

"Time to restart."