chapter 18

Y/N POV

**Flashback**

Yoongi:*swings the door open looking pissed*

Yn:*looks at him with wide eyes* Y-yoongi?!

Yoongi:*leaves slamming the door*

Me and Jimin quickly get dressed and I help him leave out the back door as we hear Yoongi stomp to his room.

**End of flashback**

It's night now, a few hours after Yoongi caught me and Jimin. I've spent the afternoon locked in my room silently crying but not because we got caught. No, it's because of the emotions in Yoongi's eye.

Anger, hurt, sadness. I felt awful knowing that I was apart of the reason he was feeling that way yet I was so confused as to why he felt that way.

He had told me just a few weeks ago that he was just drunk when he told me he liked me so why was he like this? Is it possible he lied?

What if this whole time I spent thinking he didn't like me was just built on lies and I really hurt him?

I wipe away my tears and subconsciously walk to his side of the house. I know it's forbidden but I can't stop myself. I want to, no 𝑛𝑒𝑒𝑑 to know that he's okay.

The long hall is plastered on walls of wood with dim lighting and black marble floors. There's an expensive looking vase on a table at the end of the hallway and 5 doors.

I hear faint noises coming from behind a black door and near it. The sounds turn out to be soft weeps. Weeps of the man I 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒. A tear makes it's way down my face as I finally realize.

𝐼 𝑑𝑜 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 ℎ𝑖𝑚

This wasn't just a crush, this wasn't just a phase, and I might have ruined any hopes that we could be together.

I find myself crouching down and leaning on the door my own tears being heard as I litsen to his.

How could I do this to him? How can I hurt the man I love like that? And more importantly how do I make it up to him and tell him that I love him?

I stayed there for hours untill there was nothing but a depressing silence. Assuming he fell asleep I get up and go back to my room.

I toss and turn in my bed trying to get comfortable but sleep still doesn't overtake me.

I don't know why but I decide to go back to the dim hallway. My feet stop in front of his door and my hand hesitantly reaches out for the knob.

After having a silent debate with myself I push open the door slowly and poke my head inside the doorway.

I make my way across the room and find myself standing before him admiring his features.

"I'm sorry"

I silently whisper as I stare at the sleeping teenage boy's face. I turn to leave but my arm is pulled and I find myself under Yoongi as he pins me to the bed.

Yoongi: I thought I told you that you're not allowed to be over here?

I gulp. it's as if my mind has gone blank as I stare at him. His hair is slightly disheveled hanging over his face like a draped veil. His non-existent shirt reveals his muscles and abs that flex as he hover above me. My eyes travel to his grey sweatpants that hang on his waist perfectly.

He says something inaudible and I finally snap out of my trance.

Y/n: H-huh?

Yoongi: Why are you in my room? I made it pretty clear what would happen if you don't litsen to the rules. Besides, I don't want to see you right now.

As he say the last part I feel saddened. A tear makes my way down my face as I mumble.

Y/n: I know... I'm sorry for hurting the one the I love

Yoongi: What did you just say?

He gets off of me and walks over to the fireplace across from the room laughing.

Yoongi: You love me? I'm sorry but usually you don't whore around with the guy you supposedly "love's" best friend.

I get off the bed with tears in my eyes and speak in low meek voice.

Y/n: I didn't think that you would ever love me and Jimin was just rejected by his crush so we did those things to try and forget the pain

He comes closer clearly upset and frustrated.

Yoongi: But I'm assuming it happened more than once right?

I stay silent not wanting to answer him and he takes my answer as a yes. He steps closer.

Yoongi: That's alright

I flinch a bit when he lifts my chin up so that I can meet his gaze.

Yoongi: I'm whiling to forget about it.

I look at him as he continues his sentence.

Yoongi: Because I love you more than I can explain. I don't know why or when it happened. Maybe it was always there, all I know is that I'm not perfect and I can't expect you to be either.

I look at him in search of any sign he is lying but all I see is seriousness and sincerity.

Yoongi: I love you Y/n, and now that I know you love me too I'm not going to let anyone else steal you away from me

He places his soft lips on me. The kiss is gentle and he tastes of mint. I kiss him back and he wraps his arms around my waist hugging me tightly before pulling away.

A/n: I know I said I wasn't going to update until the 8th but I felt bad for not uploading for two weeks and then making you wait another week so here's the chapter you've been waiting for!