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⚠️ Mentions depression

⚠️ Mentions self harm

⚠️ mentions slight abuse

Author's note at the end

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              Once upon a time,there was a girl who was fed up with everything. She just felt like giving up and ending it all because she felt as if that would make everything seem better. She felt as if nobody could understand that she felt trapped in her own damn life.

               Everything that the girl achieved wasn't good enough. Heck she even felt like she wasn't good enough and she already knew that but doesn't give those "people" the right to bring her down even more in life. The girl is depressed but rather than understanding how she feels these "people" just make her feel even worse. The girl has scars littering her wrists and thighs but "she" called the girl a coward for doing that. Now tell me with "people" like this surrounding her was is the girl supposed to do?

               It has been a very long time since the girl has had a proper hug from anyone. The last she were from her childhood friends who now we're all in different school and another one from her aunt who gave her a hug saying she was proud of the girl. It has been such a long time that the girl locked herself in a room crying after hearing those words from her aunt because of how much she wanted those words to come from her "people" but never got it. Every night the girl cries herself to sleep thinking "What did I do to deserve all these hate?" . So whenever somebody touches her ,the only thing running in her mind is whether that said person is going to hurt her or not.

              The girl wanted to be a psychologist and help people who are like her in the future. She has always wanted to help people even though she never gets help for herself. She said that she couldn't bear knowing that there are others our there who are experiencing way worse that the girl without any help or support. She has also always considered suicidal people as angels . These angels couldn't handle this evil place we all call earth and just want to go back home. She knows that she wants to help the other angels out there to feel better.

               Recently when the girl was out for classes her little sister heard "him" telling that , and in his exact words " I don't think she is cut out for being a psychologist in my opinion" . Now can somebody please tell me which human being would want to hear that from their own father. "He" has always been the main reason behind the girl's depression but never once did she blame him it was always herself that she blamed. She has never wished for  him to die but rather wished death upon herself thinking that maybe if she is gone all will turn out good and she won't be a burden to anyone anymore.

                "I may not know who is reading this or when you will be,I just want you to remember to always love yourself . I know it may be hard to accept yourself just because others might not but always I mean always love yourself no matter what" . The girl wrote this in her book calling herself a hypocrite for not taking her own advise. Even though tries to hold on and be positive there will always be those bad days . Nobody can ignore that and I don't think you have to. It is complete alright with having your bad days , you need to take care of yourself. You matter. Your life always matters.

~The End~

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Author's note:

Hello everyone I'm back with another story I'm sorry it's been a while since I posted the last one. I've just been so busy with school reopening after the lockdown and been settling some stuff .

I know it might be bad and I would like to apologise for that ,like I said it's been a while since I've written one of these.

I hope everyone is doing good and staying safe. I guess this is all for now , I'll try to post more often but that all depends on how much of homework my teachers give me 😂😂😂

Anyway I hope you all enjoy this and if you ever want to talk I'm here to listen.

Love,

C🦋