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Everything was calm. It was a long time ago, since I slept this peacefully. That's why I remember what woke me up. I heard some noise from outside. It sounded like someone was there. Maybe the boy is here? No, it weren't him. I didn't know if I should be happy or not about this fact. I got out from the tent and looked around. It was an old lady this time. She looked like she was more than a hundred years old. But I don't hate elderly, so I aproached her. -Uhm, are you lost old lady? Can I help you with something? -I asked this but there was nothing I could help her with. I was also lost. -haha, no, I'm fine dear. I just picking some herbs. Would you mind join me? I can't find a herb called "Lawsonia inermis" it's colour is purple. It's kind of rare..-She said with a sad expression. I won't lie, I kinda felt sorry for her. That's why I decided to help her. -Yes, of course! I think I've seen that somewhere..-I started to look around in the grass. And yeah, I meant it when I said I've seen it. I found it quickly. -Ohh, y..you find it already? Thank you so much!! -she seemed happy. Maybe I did something good for the first time in this world? Who knows... -Please come to my house! I have a daughter around your age..she's sick...I wanted to give this to her, so please come as well! I can give you clothes and warm food...-she was desparete to thank me and I had no reason to decline it, so I went along with her. -Ohh, of course I would like to go there if you don't mind! -I was happy, finally new clothes and warm food. I didn't eat since I got here. She led me to a little chalet. It seemed cozy. Like in a fairy tale and she's the loving grandmother. I never had a grandmother. I wonder how it feels to have one. A caring one. They say those who haven't had something can't relate to the feeling of having one. So, maybe I don't know what I'm missing out. Or maybe I have too much free time to think about useless things. -Anpiel, I'm home! I have a guest as well!-she put down everything in an instant to see her daughter. Well, yeah. Maybe I not only miss a grandmother but a normal mother as well. -Huh? Mom, are you home already? -we went to a small room with lot of windows. I think it was the daughter's, Anpiel's room. There was a bed, a table with chairs and a wardrobe. -Yes! This miss is the one that helped me find your medicine! Ohh, right, I forgot to ask your name..-She looked at me as her expression went from excitment to shame. -Ohh..Uhm my name is Ciel. -It's interesting if I think about it, because the lady at the bookshop seen me as a men, but they see me as a woman now. It's good to be both in a world like this. -Then Anpiel, this lady was the one that helped me, her name is Ciel. -She smiled warmly and she started to boil the herb. -Yes, I'm Anpiel, thank you for helping me and my grandmother. I'm really sick from birth..It's chronic..-She said and I need to agree that she looked weak. -Oh..I get it..I'm sorry to hear that..-I said as I sat down. -Now that I look at you, I think my old clothes would fit you! If you accept them, I'd gladly give them to you, as a thank you gift..-she got both excited and flustered in the same time. Maybe she hardly speak with others. It must be lonly living this sickly in a world like this. And If I think about it, it isn't a bad thing thing to have famale clothes. I'm sure there will be a time when it can help me to look like both genders. -Yes..I would like to accept it! I don't have many clothes that you can see, haha..-I laughted nervously as I only wore some dirty clothes that looked like it was a beggar's. -Okay! I can't stand up, so you can look around in my wardrobe freely! -She said. Now that I think about it..She's not around my age. I think I'm around twenty, but she's more than thirty.. I started to look around in her wardrobe and I fund a green dress with turtle neck. It looked comfy so I choosed that. But if I think about, I somehow look strange. I mean, I looked beautiful but neither like any gender. I think I will need a robe or a hood.. I found one quickly in black colour. -Uhm, can I keep these? -I showed them to her. -Yes! Please try it on as well! You would look so lovely in the green dress! -she was really excited. Like, I'm her doll. She was the tipic "older sister" type. I never had a sister either. It must be good if you have a sister like her.. -O..okay! -I went to the bathroom and tried them on. They were gorgeus! I looked like Rapunzel or Snowwhite...but a maybe a bit stranger than that. I mean I think I could prank someone that I'm a princess, but my behaviour would tell them immediately. I went back to her to show how it looked. Her mother was there as well, with warm soup and medicine. -Oh my God! You're beautiful Ciel! I might fall in love! -She were super excited like a kid. -Nah, Anpiel, calm down. You should be respectful towards her! She's our saviour! But I can't deny that you are very beautiful dear! Like Anpiel ten years ago..-She smiled warmly with tears in her eyes. I think it was from happiness. But I need to say that her daughter doesn't resemble me. She had honey blond hair with emerald eyes that resembled a forest. A perfect beauty. I wonder if she would be popular if she weren't sick.. -Oh dear Ciel, please eat now! You are so skinny...Both you and Anpiel should eat more! -She said and quickly put down a bowl of soup for us to eat. I don't hesitated as well, so I started eating. It was like a salvation! The mushrooms and everything inside in was just a whole other category! -Oh my..Old lady, It's super delicious! Is it mushroom soup?- It was me who got excited this time. Sure, it was over food but well, what can I do if I love cooking and foods? -Haha, please call me Luu, dear! And yes, It's mushroom soup! You know how to cook? -She was sweet. A caring grandma. -Yes, a bit, Luu. -I smiled gently. It was a perfect scene now that I think about it. I mean, a caring family, warm soup, a cozy house. But I just can't belong there. -Haha, is that so? -she said. Time passed quickly. It can't stop after all and it was already next day morning. Time to leave. -Hmm? Why are you packing Ciel? Won't you stay for another day? -Anpiel asked me with a sad expression. -I can't. It's time for me to go. -I said with a small smile. -Oh...really? But...you will come sometimes right...? I mean...just if you want to...-She couldn't look me in the eyes. She was tearing. -Yes. I will come sometimes, I promise. -I smiled and gently patted her head. She somehow looked younger than me this time. I mean, not her appearance, but her inside. Inside, she was a lonly child with no friends. You see, we just met, but she already tearing up as I'm about to leave. -O..Okay! It's a promise then! -She quickly wiped off her tears and smiled. Then her mother came in. She heard everything so she only gave me a basket. A basket with fruits and medicines. -Dear, please accept this. I won't stop you to stay. You must go now right? I understand it...so..please take care dear Ciel! -She hugged me warmly with a smile. I couldn't deny that I almost cried as well. It was long time ago since I was loved. It felt warm and sweet. Bittersweet. -Yes..Thank you Luu..-I patted her back, and with a last goodbye smile, I left. I didn't looked back because I know that I would have felt sad If I did that. It's true that I said that I need to go...But where excatly? Why am I in a hurry? I only wanted to know more...but my purpose for life? What is it for me? I had too much things to think about. I walked out of the forest, and I followed some path in the grund. It's tiring. I mean walking. But thinking as well. I should take a break from both. I laid down next to a tree. I ate some apples and peaches that I found in the basket. They were sweet as well. Maybe that was the reason for me to fall asleep. It was a nice comfy break. I needed this a long time ago.

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