Not over yet
Catching up to Hifumi and matching her strides, the first few minutes of our walk were spent in an awkward and heavy silence…
Obviously, that was my fault. My honest trait ruined it. Reflecting on that scene earlier, I sounded forceful and a little desperate to let her know how I want to stand next to her again. Evidently, Hifumi didn’t share the same sentiment.
If I only stuck to wanting to help her carry her books, it probably wouldn’t devolve into this kind of situation. We’d be joking at this moment and I would be teasing her like last time when she heated up right away. And then, she would be smiling or laughing instead of having this unusual gloom.
Unfortunately, I made that blunder. Speaking up about what’s on my mind and what I’m feeling for her sabotaged that kind of possibility.
But do I regret it? Regrettably, I don’t. Like I said, better to come out clean now than delude myself that I was only being good to her.
I hoped that she’d be as stupidly honest as me.