57: Cliff

Long ass chapter. Better like it lol

Also trigger warning, if the title wasnt a big enough hint

Skye

I woke up, obviously still in my closet, feeling like my entire being was just hollow. My heart, body and soul felt as though whatever feeling was once there was ripped out leaving an empty being behind to try and continue living. Eventually I gained enough effort to get up and leave to see what time it was. I trudged to my kitchen to see that it was 3:08am.

"Fuck you ghosts.." I muttered to the air and dragged my feet to the couch since I didn't have enough energy to make it upstairs to bed. I let myself fall onto the couch and just laid how I landed on it, staring at the ceiling until I fell back asleep. Roxie came and jumped up, laying on top of me giving me puppy eyes. After she laid on me for a few minutes I fell back into a sleep as black and empty as I felt, the pressure of her laying on me being enough to help me fall asleep.

I got up and half ass got ready for school, wishing I could just be my couch instead of being a living thing and seeing Dylan. My heart—despite feeling hollow—hurt like hell. I managed to somehow get myself to school, putting up my angry bitch front as soon as people were around me. I plugged earbuds into my phone and put them in my ears, playing loud, swearing heavy metal to drown out any voices or noises I don't want to hear. Aka Dylan but lowkey literally everyone. It was also to try and drown out the small voice telling me to cut again, but I'm slowly losing the fight against it... I ignored the fact Dylan sat beside me and after class started, saw Kelsey staring at us as she walked in. From the corner of my eye I saw Dylan's mouth move but ignored that too, since I couldn't hear a single thing aside from my music. I was glad when class was over, but waited for Dylan to get up and leave first since he had his shit packed already. In math I wanted so badly to slaughter fucking everyone at that table, and even drew doing so. What I mainly drew though was more drawings of a girl either dying or hugging herself while crying, both with depressing words surrounding her. I noticed Kelsey get up and stride over to the table Dylan and the fucktards were at. I was a tiny bit happy that he got up and sat at their table instead of staying with that stupid whore. However I was still hollow inside so I couldn't feel much emotion of any kind. I wish he'd just tell me the truth.... I kind of miss his smile... and hugs...... Fuck did I really say that to myself? Shit my head's screwed up right now... Kelsey beat me to drawing so to avoid being stuck talking to her I sat across the table from her. Unfortunately she didn't leave me be and ripped my earbuds out, and when I attempted getting them back she unplugged them and fucking shoved them down her shirt. She demanded a bunch of shit, making me roll my eyes and scoff.

After a few more sentences I left even though class wasn't over yet, which the teacher kindly informed me, but I didn't fucking care and retorted, "Bite me." I left the school, not caring about my earbuds since she'll give them back at some point, and went to my hidden park to try and collect my thoughts and feelings. I lay staring at the blue sky for I don't know how long before hearing someone walking up to me.

Knowing Dylan's the only other one that knows about this place, except for Larry but he wouldn't come visit me here, I growled, "Fuck off." Felt like a knife slit my heart fifty times over to say that, but I know he's still not going to tell me the truth.

"Ouch... I wanted you to know that telling you what I want to is only going to hurt you more than my terrible, shitty lying." Dylan responded, sounding as hurt as I felt. I glanced over at him and rolled my eyes, sitting up with my back to him.

I sat glaring at the ground for a few seconds then stood, back still to him, and growled, "You've grown sick of me and want a dumb slut instead of a broken nobody right.? Think it'll hurt me more because you're leaving like everyone else, right.?"

"No." Dylan extremely firmly stated. "I love you for every single thing about you Skylar. Stop convincing yourself otherwise." He growled. My heart twisted, not knowing whether it wanted to flutter or be stabbed some more. All I could do was pft him and continue to glare at the grass at my feet, tears starting to form. He hates me, I guarantee it. "And I know you're trying to push me away in attempt to protect yourself from pain even if it puts you in just as much pain." He added. My hands clenched into fists.

I felt his hand as it almost touched my arm but I teleported away from him and ended up yelling, "Tell me what the fuck happened Dylan!" My emotions practically exploded on him. He flinched at my tone and volume and finally caved, probably isn't actually going to tell me. Either that or admit he is sick of me..

"Fine.... You want to know that bad even after my warning? I got assaulted by the leader of the sluts and she trapped and kissed me." He finally fuckin answered. I felt my heart rip itself to pieces.

"Did you at least punch her out after...?" I questioned, hoping the answer would be yes.

Pain emanated from him as he sadly answered, "No...." A tear fell from my eye as my soul started ripping itself.

"Cause you like her?" I muttered, scoffed then added, "You know... The worst thing about betrayal is it never comes from your enemies."

"No, I hate her. I was trying to keep our cover so you guys could still infiltrate their group and break them from the inside, as far as she knows *Noah* doesn't have a girlfriend so it would've been suspicious to do anything other then walk away with my heart being stabbed apart." Dylan strongly replied, taking steps towards me.

I took the same amount of steps back and as tears started flooding down my face I whispered, "Well now you don't have one..." And teleported to my house, feeling as though every cell in my body got tortured and murdered. He could've still told her he has a girlfriend and left out who it was, but he didn't. He chose not to do that, saying that broke my heart would be a massive understatement. I sat in a corner, bawling to the point of hyperventilating and passing out from lack of breathing properly.

One month bled into the next, I acted as though I was fine and as if I didn't wish I would stop waking up and just fucking stop breathing. I hated not having Dylan with me... I hate that he isn't by my side keeping me company, making me laugh or comforting me. I miss him so much its goddamn killing me, but I can't let him in again... My whole life I've known no one can love me, I should've known better than to allow myself to have hope... It's a miracle Lily's still in my life, a lot of the time I still accidentally treat her like shit. She doesn't deserve that... She's still here for me though, seeming like she sees right through my mask like she always has. 

Dylan hadn't tried to talk to me ever since I... well... broke up with him. In fact he disappeared, maybe he went back to our actual school... but Lily never said anything about it so I have no clue. I still go to Kelsey's school, our plan is going really well. I dumbed myself down to be more like the dumbasses and once they accepted me, I started going by Ava. The end of Jada sounded similar enough for them, so that's how we got Ava. Right now I was actually shopping with the stupid squad after school. 

"Oh my god, this would look so amazing on you Ava!" Alexa exclaimed, holding up a pink short skirt.

To me it looked like a fucking tutu for a barbie loving four year old, but I excitedly asked, "You think so?"

The three of them smiled at me and nodded, "Go try it on bestie!" Alison encouraged.

"Okay!" I replied in my stupid and annoying voice. I went to the change room and put it on, it went well with my see-through white tanktop and hot pink lace bra that was visible under it. I came out and posed for them, making them giggle and tell me it looked amazing and that I should buy it. Least I perfectly match them. If you're wondering how the hell I'm able to act this well after being so hurt, let's just say revenge can get you a hell of a lot. A better way to put it would be what Godfather part 2 says; keep your friends close but your enemies closer. Once we all finished shopping for things that utterly disgust me, Alexa said we should go to her house because she has something she wants to let me in on.

So once we walked into her house she started, "Okay, so, you know that dumb little bitch Kelsey?"

"Yeah, she's so fucking annoying. What's with all that protectiveness of her little boy toy anyway?" I replied, playing along.

"I know right? A girl should share something as hot as that. Anyways there's this guy that promised me to get revenge on her for breaking our brand new nose jobs last year. Said he could help us kill her, but the fucking moron got killed by her bitch ass friend or sister or something. So tomorrow we're going to ambush her and take care of that business ourselves since he clearly was incapable. You want in on it?" She asked, hand on her hip.

I fake thought about it for a few seconds then said, "Uh, DUH! She's the most obnoxious person I've ever met. Where are we going to ambush her?"

"Well that's where we were hoping you could come in, fake friends with her and like ask her to hang out after school tomorrow just you two or something. Just tell us the place you guys agree on, and make sure it's not a public place." Alexa answered, smirking.

I smirked back and said, "No problem." The fact they trust me this much after such a short period of time really speaks volumes to their stupidity and complete idiocy. Its hilarious, but it tastes bittersweet to me. After all, the entire reason my acting is this flawless is because I'm out for revenge due to pushing the only person I romantically loved out of my life.

After school Kelsey agreed to meet in the woods so we could ambush the driggle draggles, since they were clearly talking about Phillip and they don't have any men left to fight for them thanks to me, the bitch ass sister of Kelsey. Insert lifeless laughter at self here. Drake and some pack members hid at the meeting place after one scouted where the bitches were. When the time came and the zounderkites thought they had Kelsey trapped by just two of them holding her arms, I pulled out a gun and shot one of them which freed Kelseys arm to shoot the other. They fell and Alexa turned back to look at me in disbelief and angry horror.

"How could you!!! You were our friend you fucking bitch!!" She screamed at me, starting to cry over her dead friends. Seemed like she wanted to charge at one of us, but unfortunately she does have enough functioning brain cells to realize we each have a gun.

"Well maybe next time you won't assault the wrong bitches boyfriend you fucking cunt." I growled, shifting back to how I actually look while aiming my gun at her.

"Good luck killing me bitch." She stated after gasping at my shifting, then stupidly tried running away. Before anyone else could even blink I shot her in both feet easily. She screamed in pain and tried dragging herself across the ground in desperation to get away from me.

"See I was gonna let Kelsey do the honors here since you tormented her for way longer but, you pissed me off and crossed beyond the saving yourself from me line. So this is what I'm going to do. Carve your arms enough to see bone, cut your stomach open to the point of your organs falling out. And for extra fun, I'm going to rip your hair clean off your head. Then laugh at your pain as you cry and regret kissing my boyfriend with your cock sucking mouth. And finally end your pathetic useless life by stabbing your throat deep enough to stab into your spine." As I spoke I did what I told her I would. Watching the life leave her as tears fell down her face. I smiled in satisfaction as she lay dead on the ground like her idiotic friends. I didn't look at anyone and just teleported myself to my house to write something. I wont go into specifics, but the gist of my note was apologizing to him. I don't want to go and leave him thinking I hated him for something that wasn't his fault... I teleported the note to where I know Dylan would immediately see it then went to a massive cliff, the ground not even visible from the top. Now that I've gotten my revenge I can forget all the pain and agony of my life, and finally be at peace in the nothingness. It shattered my heart thinking of Dylan, knowing he was kissed by someone else. No part of me was capable of being logical and realizing I shouldn't be mad at him for it since it's sexual assault. I know it's not his fault she did that, but he didn't do anything to avoid it. Which tells all my stupid mental problems that a part of him wanted it since he's finally sick of me.

I stood at the edge, a single tear sliding down my cheek as I injected Henry's serum so I couldn't shift and save myself. This is the one time I'm not giving myself an out of my choice. I don't want to live in torment anymore, don't want to remember everyone that betrayed me.. and don't want to remember what it felt like loving someone... Just before I jumped, I heard a group of people run through the bushes behind me. Surprise surprise it was Dylan, Lily, Kelsey and her friends and Roxie because I had left her with Lily. Then the pack members that were there as back up with the bitches stood behind them, no clue why but they were.

"Skye don't fucking do this." Dylan demanded, hurt in his voice, piercing my heart at hearing it. Guess he does still exist... and is just as painfully gorgeous as I remember...

"Too late you know... I perfected Henry's no more shifting shit and already gave it to myself and Kelsey. So I can stop living this stupid, pointless life filled with nothing but pain." I said, glancing back at them.

"That's fucking stupid. We all care about you, and who the hell would take care of Roxie? You're seriously just going to leave the last living thing you trusted to just live without you?" Dylan pressed further as Roxie trotted up to me, ears and tail down with puppy eyes. Another tear fell as I turned to look my puppy in the eyes and pointed at Lily to signal her to go to her, my heart somehow shattering even more.

"I'm sorry... But I can't live like this anymore..." I quietly said, slowly backing up to the very edge. "Good bye...." I added with another falling tear as I stepped off the cliff. I let my eyes close to help embrace death when it came, but after not even thirty seconds of my free falling I felt strong arms tightly wrap around me. I opened my eyes to see Dylan with his wings spread out to slow our decent. "What are you doing let me go!!" I cried, pushing on him as hard as I could. But he refused to let go and ended up landing us on the ground.

"I am never EVER, letting you fucking go Skylar Fox. You're the only one I love and only one I ever will love and I will never let you try this fucking shit in scaring the fuck out of me ever again. Got it." He firmly stated, hugging me tighter.

"Why did you stop me?" I loudly cried as I sobbed into his shirt.

"Because I love you. And I'll remind you of that fact every fucking minute of my life." He stated, somehow hugging me tighter.

"I don't want to live anymore why can't you just let me go." I demanded as I cried more.

I felt him wince before answering, "I won't let you because there's so many beautiful things in life you need to see and experience before dying of old age." He gently pulled my face up to look at him, tears still pouring down my face while a tear or two fell down his. Dylan stared at me for a minute that felt like lasted forever then said, "I love you Skye." Emotion filling his voice. He slowly kissed me, instantly melting me. Stupid mate bond thing..... He pressed his lips harder on mine as he brushed my cheek with his hand and placed his hand on the side of my neck/jaw, pulling my head closer to him.

After passionately kissing for a minute I pulled away and stated, "Doesn't change the fact that I want to kill myself you know." Pain still harboring inside.

"I know... But at least it started the road to recovery." Dylan answered, smiling at me then kissing me again.