I read the text and sighed. It had been four days already since we barely talked with each other and everyday he had the same excuses for being busy. I could understand that he went home and that he definitely had a life with friends but still it upset me. He wasn't giving me time and I didn't like it. And also I wanted to clear things with him about us but we were not getting the time. Or to be precise, he was not getting time.

I thought about talking it out but I was at the edge of almost changing my mind. I had started to sense something wrong. Maybe he wasn't as serious as me. Or maybe I didn't mean to him as much as he did for me. Maybe it was only me who was planning about going forward with each other.

My heart ached as I kept on thinking about different possibilities. I had the tendency to overthink things but I couldn't help it. I was serious about him and I was just scared of getting hurt. So I decided to wait for him to come back no matter how long he took.

And he took a lot of time. He came online at one in the morning. I had a test the next day. I was drowsy and almost passed out and...I was mad. I didn't want to be mad but I couldn't help myself. It was just frustrating how I was overthinking things although I knew I was overthinking and it was making me angry.

Mr.k

Omg, you are still awake!

He texted. I waited, speculating what to reply back. I just wanted to burst out my madness at him but I held back because even though I wanted to burst out, I didn't know what to say. I felt myself burning up furiously.

Two minutes had passed and I hadn't replied yet. I took a deep breath in. My petty ass even thought of exiting and going to sleep to let him know that I was mad. But then I knew I would feel bad later and that it would make him sad and I definitely didn't want to see him sad.

I sighed out loudly and ran my fingers through my hair.

My phone started vibrating. My heart dropped. He was calling me.

I picked it up and cleared my throat.

"Yeah?" I greeted. My voice had gone hoarse from not speaking for so long and I was thirsty.

"Hi." He greeted in a small voice.

"Hi."

"Why are you still awake?"

I rolled my eyes. Wasn't it obvious? "Nothing. Just couldn't sleep."

"Oh...okay."

I remained silent. My heart was heavy for some unknown reason and I had no idea why I was feeling that way.

"How was your day?" He asked after a few moments.

"Fine. Yours?"

"Yeah, good but tiring. It was fun to hang out with friends after so long but it gets so tiring for me. I haven't even rested well these days. And time just flies when I am going out like this."

Little did he know that it wasn't the same for me. Time was slow for me and the wait to talk to him was aching my heart.

"I see." I said.

"And I don't know why but sometimes I just want to disconnect with people I know, I mean my friends."

"Why? What happened?" I frowned, genuinely concerned because he was someone who would never say something like that.

"It's nothing big but maybe I am just overthinking about it."

"Tell me." Damn, I was thirsty. My voice came out even more hoarse.

"Umm...You must be sleepy. I will tell another time."

"No. No. I am not sleepy." I lied. "Go on."

He hesitated. "Okay. Just tell me whenever you want to go to sleep."

"Sure."

So he started to narrate how his only best friend sort of betrayed him during his exams for some girl. By the end, I was really sleepy and didn't have any more energy. He kept on calling my name in between to make sure I was there but well, I couldn't hold on anymore.

"So yeah, let's see how it goes. I have been giving him the silent treatment ever since but I guess he haven't noticed yet." He ended.

"I see." I closed my eyes.

"It's gonna be almost three. God, you should sleep. You have school tomorrow." He said.

"Yeah, right. It's Saturday tomorrow. I have a test."

"What! Why didn't you tell me before? Sleep, sleep."

I smiled drowsily. "What are you doing?"

"Oh."

"What?"

"I haven't even changed! I just realize that."

I chuckled.

"Now I feel lazy man. Guess I will sleep without changing."

"Hmm."

"You sleep now."

I didn't answer. I waited for a moment to think what I wanted to say.

"See, now you will fall asleep gradually. So better say goodnight and sleep peacefully." He said. Yeah right, he would never say it first.

"Hey?" I called.

"Yeah?"

"I am not giving up on you so don't give up on me." I murmured.

I heard a light gasp on the other side but he didn't answer back.

I was too drowsy and my eyelids were super heavy. And without knowing myself, I drifted off to sleep.

The next day I woke up by the alarm that every hostel had. It was so loud and annoying and it would continue to ring straight for five minutes. My head felt heavy. I opened my phone and texted him a good morning. Since our waking up time was five in the morning so I slept only for two hours. I sighed as I went to wash my face. My eyes were puffy and I was still sleepy. But I had to get ready for the day.

Following the schedule starting from physical exercise in the morning, followed by self studies and then breakfast, it was time to get ready for school. And my problem with getting ready was that I could never find my tie by myself. Never. I would always forget where I placed it last. I sat on the bed and stared at the ground. I had taken a cold shower to wake myself up completely but I was still drowsy. I grabbed my phone and found two text from him.

Mr. k

Goodmorning sunshine.

Best of luck for your test and yeah, I am not giving up on you too:)

Well...thank you. Anyway, I have something

to say. Let's talk tonight.

If you get the time then.

I texted back and stared at the phone screen. I opened his profile picture which was a picture of his shadow with his hands up, making a love shape in the sky under the setting sun. I sighed in disbelief. I had never seen his face and yet I was so in love with him. I wanted to see him but I also wanted to respect his decision to keep himself anonymous. He said he was five four, a little short for a guy. But I found it cute. I was six. Maybe a little too tall for him. Maybe we would look cute together.

I found myself blushing by just thinking about it. I smiled, imagining how it would be like when I would meet him for the first time. What would I do? I would feel so shy. Maybe I wouldn't be able to even talk well.

I was so busy with my thoughts that I didn't see that he had come online and texted.

Mr. k

Oh okay. Actually I have something to say too.

I will definitely make time for you.

Don't rush it. It's fine if you are gonna be busy.

It's saturday night anyways. Have some fun.

Aiy, I am not going out or

doing anything today. I will stay in my room n

talk to u. And also, I have missed you a lot for

the past few days so let me just be with u.

I blushed so hard. I couldn't believe he was flirting with me. It was so unlike of him to say anything flirtatious. I quickly grabbed my earphone and plugged them on. I pressed the call button on the top and waited for him to pick up.

"Hi." He greeted.

I grinned and stood up from my bed. "Good morning."

He laughed. "Good morning. Are you okay? You slept barely for two hours."

"I am fine. A little sleepy but fine. So ah...what were you saying?" I asked, walking to the window and gazing outside.

"When?"

"Over text."

"Oh." He laughed. "Why? You want to hear it?"

I flushed, feeling all my blood rushing to my face. What was with him morning morning?

"Yes." I said.

"Hmm. I forgot what I said over text."

"Aha? So, maybe you can read it out."

"I can? Hm let me see. Ow, it's deleted."

I smiled. "Feeling shy to say it out loud?"

He took a moment to answer. "Yes." he said nervously.

"No problem. I will say it since I am shameless. I missed you. A lot." I held my breath. For someone like me, saying it loud was no problem before but suddenly in that moment, my whole body burnt and my heart beat fastened. My hand started to get cold and I got nervous. I had never felt that way before.

I heard a loud gasp, not from the other side but from behind me. I turned around and saw a wide eyed Arom staring at me.

"Bro." Arom shook his head.

"I missed you too, Kwan." He said over the phone.

I was shocked. Arom just caught me. He probably heard our conversation. Damn, that was embarrassing. Now I had to say something back but with Arom standing right there, I wouldn't be able to say anything.

"Kwan?" He called.

"Hey wait a minute. My friend is here."

"Omg, okay."

"Yeah?" I smiled at Arom.

"Bro. You are dating! You lied to us that you weren't!" He said loudly.

"Shh. Keep it down man." I hushed him even though there was no one else in the room.

"I am going to tell other friends. We will have a talk after school." He glared at me. "And here is your tie." I caught the tie he threw at me. He walked out of the room without another word.

I exhaled loudly and shook my head.

"What happened?" He asked quietly from the other end.

"Ah nothing. My friend caught me." I said, making my tie.

"What are you going to do?"

"Nothing."

"Huh? I mean he probably heard the conversation. Are you okay with people knowing?"

I shrugged. "What's there to hide? If I am seeing someone, it's up to me if I want to talk about it or not."

He sighed. "Yeah, you are right but just be careful."

"Yup. So enjoy your boring day without me. School gets over at twelve thirty today then let's go for a date in the evening, okay?"

"What!"

I laughed. "Surprising huh?"

"What do you mean date?"

"Phone date." I grinned.

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