fifteen

"Nathan, you're a cutie patootie for bringing me here, you sunshine, buttercup and all good things," I said looking at the sea laid in front of my eyes. It was the prettiest thing I had ever seen. The water by the waves crashing against the sand just a few feet away from was glowing like there were little blue fireflies placed in the water.

I never knew the night sea was so damn pretty. It was still breezy and my little white 'beach' dress was flowing and this weird feeling of happiness I was getting here blew me away. I let my hair down and the wind swept them towards one side. This was like feeding my soul. My eyes sparkled because of the beautiful little lights of the sea. I inhaled deeply and close my eyes. I wanted to live like this, on a beach, free, close to the sky and sea.

"I know," he said smiling.

"When did you get this tattoo?" Jake asked from beside me hesitantly touching my crown tattoo at the base of my neck. I smiled at him walking towards the waves.

"I got four new tattoos." I said, my feet now touching the waves quite lightly.

"Really? Where?" He asked twisting and turning both my arms in his hands.

"They're at places not so visible, Jake," I said laughing and he laughed in embarrassment too.

"Jake, here!" Trevor and Kyle wave at him and he ran to them after waving at me.

"What is my kitten doing alone?" I heard Young-Jae's low rasp and the vibrations riled me up.

I swear his voice alone could make me cum. I shivered, silently groaning at how heavenly he sounded when he said that.

"Hey, Jake was with me just now." I said. He quickly look around if anyone was watching and then yanked me towards him, it was not like he was too strong for me or something, I just let him do things.

"Can you please call me Daddy, once? I swear I'll get you two ice-creams."

Food, nice truce.

I looked at the boys having fun while Seok-Min and Nathan were sitting in the sand. I turned so I was in front of him and leaned in, leaving an open-mouthed kiss on his neck then put my hands on his chest kissing the shell of his ear. He was gonna get a taste as to how much of a tease I can be.

"You smell so good, Daddy," I whispered as sensually as possible and he moaned grabbing my hips and slamming them into his. I leaned back, hands on his shoulders and neck now, and bit my lip with a playful glint in my eyes.

"Say it again." He said gulping as I traced his neck veins and collarbones with my fingers.

"Daddy." I grazed his jaw and traced his tummy with my finger.

"Shit, you're gonna get me so hard kitten." That was my cue.

I slowly stepped back, turned around and walked towards Seok-Min purposefully swaying my hips. I turned my head to see him standing there shocked, staring at me with a boner.

"Hi Seok-Minnie, aren't you going in the water?", He shook his head no and I furrowed my brows.

"Why? You good bro?" He gave me a cute reassuring smile and when I sat down he rested his head onto my lap. This was my favourite thing in the world. Nice wind, my people around me and my brother's head in my lap and my hands in his hair soothing him. But This time I was not thinking of Jack or mom or Noah or Jullian, This time when I close my eyes I saw the boys.

I could get used to this or maybe I wanna get used to this.

"Do you want to go with me?" I asked him. He immediately shook his head and turned in my lap so he was facing up at me. I saw him gulp twice and then he opened his mouth.

"I have Aquaphobia."

"Oh."

"Oh! You dumb imbecile why'd you come to the beach if you were aquaphobic!" I yelled at him hitting his shoulders. He held my wrists away from him and winced while rubbing his shoulders.

"Bee, you do know that you're stronger than normal people, right?" He said laughing a little. I scowled at him and pushed his head off my lap. He frowned and then sat up straight.

"Joon said you like pretty things like these. So I shouldn't stop you all from enjoying right?" He said tickling my sides while I tried swatting his hands away. I knew just what to do.

"It's good, get up, let's put on some music, okay?"

"Sounds good to me." We raced to the car and he got in to turn on music and opened the windows. As soon as he got down from the car, I grabbed his hand and pulled him to the rest of them.

"Bee, n-no, we're getting too close to the water," he said trying to pull me back. I turned around and smiled at him.

"We're not going in, just near the rest," I told him and he nodded, gulping a little. We reached the boys and saw them all playing in the water, I took both his hands and spun him around so his back was actually facing the sea and all the boys and the water was in my sight only. I drew him closer and he placed his hands on my waist while mine dangled on his shoulders.

A/N: TRIGGER WARNING (for aquaphobic people.)

"Come on, loosen up. I'm right here with you, it's just dancing," I said jiggling my shoulders. He laughed that squeaky laugh with a cute smile making me automatically laugh. We swayed to the rhythm of the song, slow and nice. I slowly started taking small steps in between dancing so we kept getting closer to the water. I looked at Seok-Min to find him quite relaxed with his eyes closed. The waves touched our feet and his eyes shot up. He looked at me so terrified that it shattered my heart.

"It's just the waves Seok-Min, nothing more. Don't think about it, think about something else. Come on, tell me a secret, a story. Tell me about you," The music was not clearly audible now but we kept swaying in a set rhythm. He nodded taking a deep breath, I could see him struggle and tear up.

"I, uhh, I really love cooking," He mumbled and I rolled my eyes laughing. I reached my hands to his neck and massaged it, why did I keep doing this to people? Perhaps it became a habit over time.

"I know that Honey, tell me something new." I said and he cleared his throat again.

"I- I can't do this Bee, I'm only thinking about the water," He said breaking down. I yanked him down by the back of his neck and he nuzzled into the crook of my neck. I rubbed his back continuously and he tightened his hold around my waist lifting me up from the sand only a bit.

"It's okay baby, I'm right here, your sister's right here. I'll tell you a secret," I said and he hummed out an okay still a little scared.

"You know, Jack, he was just like you. So pretty, so handsome and so caring," He mumbled something I didn't recognize so I pulled away. The boys seemed to have noticed what I was doing so they were all a little far from us right now. He pulled away and I took one more step cleverly. He moved back with me without looking back.

"Was he more handsome though?" He asked, dead serious. I laughed hysterically and shook my head.

"No, I mean who's more handsome than you anyway?" I asked and he proudly nodded. We were ankles deep into the water and he hadn't noticed it, yet.

"Tell me more about Jack, I know you love talking about him," He said brushing my hair.

"Jack was just like your counterpart. The same weird laughs and dumb jokes. Same eyes full of love and so much to give to the world. Just like you." We were now calves deep in the water and this time even I didn't know how we got here but he hadn't noticed which was good.

"You're capable of much love Bee, you don't even know, I've seen people as loving as you, trust me, you're the first girl I've let in so easily and I don't even know why. Things just happened with you. I never have to tell you what's wrong, you just know. You never have to tell us to come by your place or for us to invite you, it's just, it's like it's natural like it has been this way for years. It's really good too, just to be with you," He said hugging me tightly and lifting me into the air to straighten his back.

Why was he so tall?

"I feel the same. I like looking after people, I'm guessing you know that by now. Still, you guys, things came easier this one week in months." I said wading forward into the water. He hadn't noticed it yet. It worked, we were knees deep in water, feet softly brushing in the sand and he was not afraid anymore. I smiled my brightest smile and moved even forward while he shook his head still smiling.

Just like Jack. Just like Seok-Min. They could be the new family I wanted.

I suddenly felt like happiness wasn't such a vague concept after all.