ME

SKY'S POV

I woke up this morning feeling weak,I looked out the window and light rain was falling, the sky was dark the atmosphere was gloomy and all I just wanted to do was go back to sleep,the weather was just a reflection of what I felt.

I hate my birthdays I wish I could skip this day but I can't and like always I have to stay strong or at least pretend to be strong in front of Melissa and Andrew, they'll as usual give me a surprise gift,they are so happy right now, Melissa lost her memories, Andrew was too small back then so no one remembers our parents except me,I told them our parents died while making up stories of how they died it's better this way I know they deserve the truth I'll tell them eventually but not now I want them to have a normal and growing up experience, I've already payed a heavy price for this little amount of freedom we have,they think we're free but we're not,I hate the fact that I can't escape his grasps after all these years and I also hate the fact that he is the only one that can protect us,can you imagine the shock I got when I found out that my kidnapper was my protector,I was beyond shocked....

well that is in the past as at this moment all I want to do is to sleep and stay away from the world today....oh today...my birthday....a day i dread,my birthday always brings bad luck,I could do nothing about my heart aches .

I went through my activities for the day with a cold expression,I went grocery shopping after having breakfast Mel was so chatty today,yeah she was.....or am I just too moody today. I did not contribute much to her conversations only Drew payed attention to her.

All through the way back home I was quite,the cab man tried the start a conversation I could hear him but my brain was running on at a speed of 500kmph, it's unrealistic I know but I could almost hear the sound of wheels spinning in my head,I couldn't register what the old man was say but I could hear him perfectly fine he kept on speaking from time to time but I was still sitting calmly on my seat like I was a doll. The weather was still so gloomy though the rain has stopped the sky was still very dark l looked out the window and all I could see was how people lived there lives in a happiness and without fear unlike me that was filled with so much fear for the things I know and a greater fear for the unknown,all I could hear were the voices of kids, women,men,young adolescent of varing age's,sizes and color laced with laughter as they creat memories with each other,I could sense people living their life as carefree as possible,I closed my eyes as various emotions flashed through them,I tried to control my breath that was getting heavy,.....

"I need to let go of my fear, I need to live for me,I need to make amazing memories, I need to breath"....I suddenly found it hard to breath, I'm tired of this life, I felt sudden pain in my chest,I placed my left hand on my chest gripping my shirt hoping for the pain to stop,i was running out of breath,drops of sweat we're present on my forehead,I felt pain in my head I couldn't think straightly I was getting less aware of my surroundings,my breathing was now laboured my skin felt cold.

I was sinking deeper into an abyss, this had to stop I can be happy as well,it wasn't like this before,now I can't even think of any happy event or occasions,I can't even picture myself happy,I tried taking deep long breaths hoping for this circle to end."it ok, it's ok, it's ok..." I kept repeating to myself,"I can do this,I can do this" I repeated over and over again,it doesn't matter how long it takes I will break this circle ,I am tired of this,I can't keep doing this,

I am a big girl,I am not that little girl anymore I make my own decisions, tears rolled down my cheeks.I kept on taking deep breaths and soon every thing calmed down except now I was plagued by an annoying pain in my head. I kept my head on the head rest and closed my eyes as I listened to the song playing on the radio, soon I'll start school and my disguise will be needed again I sighed this time it's gonna be different I hope I'm not found out. The driver said something that pulled me out of my thoughts only then did I realize that we were close to my house,I paid the driver no attention as the car stopped when the traffic light turned red I looked out the window again and the windows of the next car was rolled down the couple inside looks unhappy,the lady had tears in her eyes and I could see her shake slightly though the man was calmer his eyes were red and he looked quite unhappy he looked over at me for a few seconds,I couldn't understand his gaze but it made me feel like I was invading their privacy i looked away but I could still feel his eyes on me I was beginning to feel uncomfortable I looked back at him after sometime,as our gazes met I was literally blown away he looked so handsome I couldn't help but smile,he looked at me for few seconds longer before nodding his head as a form of greeting with a smile that made him look so angelic before I could register what was happening the driver drove me away at that very moment. His face was imprinted in my mind,his smile was so beautiful I couldn't forget it subconsciously my lips curled upwards.The drive got me to my home safely before leaving he surprised me

Driver: "you look more beautiful when you smile so smile more often, life shows everyone a different face of it's self,facing life with a smile let's us see a different face of life that looks beautiful."

Sky: "_"

Driver: "Everyone faces challenges on a daily basis,how we react to these challenges is what makes us different, smiling gives us strength in ways we can't fathom."

with that he drove away, I saw my reflection on his window and I saw a trace of smilng I was speechless as I watched him drive away.