Chapter one:

I never did think I'd be pushing my boyfriend off me, suddenly not wanting him near me. Ron was in his own world again, seemingly, one that was only him and his supposed 'needs'.

"Ron." I snapped and he stopped kissing my neck, I couldn't help it, he'd been groping me the entire summer before.

"Yeah?" He asked, his voice husky.

"I don't feel comfortable." I answered. "I'm nervous."

"What's wrong Hermione? Is it me?" He asked.

No it was me...

"No not at all. I'm just not in the mood" I said.

"You're never in the mood" He snaps. "All summer you were like this, what is up with you?"

"Listen, let's go have dinner. We can continue after." I say, hoping to please him.

"Promise?" He asks.

"I promise." I say.

Since the war ended, Hogwarts was rebuilt. Everyone came back yesterday. The Slytherins are just like everyone else, we are all equal now I suppose.

Ron and I walked hand in hand to the great hall. When we arrived, Ginny and Harry, were sitting together. Dinner was just starting, when I looked around at all the old face.

I looked back to my boyfriend and two best friends to see them discussing Ron's latest homework assignment.

"Ron, this is your last year and I will not have you mess it up by not doing your homework" Ginny scolded Ron.

"Ron she's right, just get it over with" I say, while putting food on my plate.

"You're meant to be on my side." Ron complained and Ginny smirked smugly. "How do we have homework already? We only arrived yesterday."

"I always agree with the educational point of view." I say and Harry rolls his eyes. "And it's not my fault that, the teacher's got straight to it."

"Are you guys ready to go back to the common room?" Harry asks, after we all finish eating.

"Yes we are." Ron answers for me and I glare at him. "Right?" He looks at me.

"I suppose" I sigh.

We walk back to the common room chatting to eachother."Password?" The fat lady asks.

"House unity" Harry answers, and we enter the common room, oh how I missed it.

The common room is lively, full of people laughing and smiling. I'm glad that everyone seems to be getting along, maybe this will be a normal year after all.

"Follow me to my room." Ron whispers, stroking my cheek affectionately.

"Wanna do something fun together?" Ginny asks and I shake my head.

"Ron and I are gonna hang out" I say, and try to calm my blush.

"Ew. Well I'll see you later." She says and walks towards her bedroom.

"You are going to sleep aren't you?" I say.

"Yup" She replied, sending me a cheeky smile.

"Hermione!" Ron yells, and I huff.

I walk up the stairs and into his shared room when he suddenly attacks me with kisses. It felt all strange again.

He leads me towards the bed and immediately I wanna chicken out. I didn't want this.

He tries to pull off my robes and I slap his hand.

"Come on you promised." He whispered and attached his lips to my neck. I moaned and immediately pushed him away from me.

It just felt so wrong, but nonetheless I tried again.

"I'm sorry let's try it again" I say and lay down on the unmade bed.

He lays down on top of me. I felt that familiar redness come to my cheeks.

"You okay?" He asks.

"Yeah I suppose. It's just that I'm kinda uncomfortable." I say and he brings his lips to mine without listening to me.

His lips move furiously against mine and his tongue tries to get access to my mouth but I don't allow him.

He frowns against my lips but I start to kiss him without moving my lips.

He pulls away from the kiss and I ask. "Did that please you?"

He gets off me and says "Well you better go off to bed."

I do a double take and ask "Really?"

"Yeah sure. See you tomorrow" He says and turns away from me. I walked out of the room feeling really confused, but pleased, I didn't know what was wrong with me.

He seemed so sure on wanting to do Ron seemed determined the entire summer to get me into his bed, but with his family around, I always found ways around it.

I walked through the common room and said goodnight to Harry and went up the stairs to the girls dormitories, eager to get to bed. I was really tired.

Ginny is asleep and snoring lightly in the bed beside mine. I think to myself and get ready for bed.

I felt frustrated at myself, for not just letting it happen with Ron, but at the same time I was relieved.

What was wrong with me?