Who is the Worst

Win still in deep sleep when Bright open his eyes and found both of them still naked under the blanket.

Staring at Win handsome face, and having flashback about last night makes Bright smiling but then that smile slowly faded as he is the one who wanted to make sure about their unclear relationship.

Looking at Win now makes Bright getting confused.

Bright finding his clothes and down from the bed without waking Win up.

By the time Bright leave and close the condo door, Win slowly opening his eyes and staring blankly at the ceiling of his bedroom.

****

3 days later

Win is having his lunch at the nearby restaurants with his friends from college after finishing their class.

"So how busy are you now,star?" One of his friends asking Win

They know his popularity is sky rocketing after the series he staring appears on the television and some internet platform. And they give him a new nickname "star".

"Still busy, doing this and that... Sometime sleep at the 6 or 7 in the morning"

"Wow...that must be tiring. Oh last week I was on charge doing make up for those models of my friends own clothes brand photo session and I think someone told me that one of the models is Bright's gf"

Everyone in silent for a second

"So why would you tell us that? You know something name privacy?" Other friends are commenting

"Eiiii.... I'm just saying, well just forget it...sorry" that one friend feel uncomfortable after telling that unimportant matter.

Most of his close friends know that Win always thankful for having Bright by his side even just as friend as guardian for Win which is newbie in the company and talking about Bright's privacy could be hurting Win also so they try to not to touch that side as possible.

After lunch, Win on his way to the GMM office.

More practicing and training is needed for their next projects but after what kept happening between Win and Bright even more confusing now.

Win doesn't even know what else Bright held in his mind about him and their relationship, Win is now trying to work on that ignoring state, means that he will work professionally and once again push that private matter aside from working.

At the parking lot, it can be seen there are a lot of fans waiting for them in front of the office building as they knew it from their official schedule.

And his manager calling

"Hallo Nong Win? Where are you?"

"Hallo phi, I'm at the parking lot..."

"Win, can you come in with Bright and his manager? They also at the parking lot, I'm gonna call his manager to get you with them okay... I'm already at the office upstairs"

"Huh? Ah okay phi"

Waiting for about 4 minutes and someone knocking on his car window and yes that is Bright and his manager, they coming to get Win.

Win act normal like usual but there Bright standing near the door car holding the door car without dare looking at Win.

"Thanks phi" Win walking with them to the office.

Thanks to those crowd they walk fast and no talk,guarding by the office securities they arrive to the lift and get ready to the training room.

Meeting other artists and doing their assignments independently and of course working together smoothly.

Today they have dancing class for fan meeting and the dance need them to touch each other like holding hand, hugging and teasing each other.

"Okay now we are going to practice this movement which is a bit hard. Bright needs to hang on there because Win will jump very carefully onto your back and let see what we can do with that later if you succeed this one....okay understand?" The choreographer tell them briefly what next

"Oh wow phi....are you sure?" Bright make sure

"Phi... I think I'm too big and heavy for that" Win speaks softly

Bright takes glance at Win, his sweating shirt and wet hair after dancing looks good on him.

His voice...why it sound so soft into my ears, that night...his voice repeatedly into my ears and I like it.

His body....his eyes.....

Everything...from that night felt so different.

Ahhh Bright there must be something wrong with your brain now.

Bright shift his eyes to the Choreographer, and trying to focus

Meanwhile for Win, he really ignoring any of his felling about him and Bright, he just focus on the practice now and it seems like Bright notice that change from Win.

Usually he will still making those lame jokes even though he had to focused on the practice but today not even one single jokes come out from his mouth yet.

Bright kind of understand what might Win feels right now. They haven't talk seriously about what was happening to them that night.

After the practice

"Win...do you have any schedule after this?" Bright sits next to Win who preparing his belongings

Deggg!!

Win's heart up beat again

Calm down will you, this is nothing to get trigger

"Yes, one photo shoot then no more" he just answer the questions without asking why, he doesn't dare to

"Hmm....okay then" Bright gives confusing respond

Separate from the practice room, Win leave the office while Bright stays with others.

********

Almost 10 at night when Win finished his works at the photo studio

Checking his phone and one message from Bright immediately get his attention.

"Can we meet tonight after your work?"

Win blank a second, not able to reply immediately he put his phone into his bag

In his car alone after separate with his manager, Win pausing while looking at his phone's screen.

Thinking hard about what reply to send to Bright

I really hate to think about this matter, hate to think about him liking me, hate about being left alone after kissing each other, being alone after making love and hate to think about me falling in love with him.

Win starts typing

"Sure..." Sent

After sending his reply, Win starts his car engine to go to buy a coffee nearby

At the parking area of the coffee shop, he put on his mask, hat and hoodie to hide his identity.

Enter the coffee shop which is not so many people there cause it already late, there is only 3 customer there.

Win eyes catches one of the girls sitting in the corner of the shop

Oh wait, is not that Bright gf?

And that person in front of her is...?

Wait who is that?

The person Win tries to recognise now is also wearing old green hoodie covering his head and Win couldn't see the face.

After gets his order, Win back his car and there is one chat from Bright

"Wait for me... I'll come to your condo okay"

"Okay" sent

Win go straight to his condo expecting nothing to come out from their meeting tonight.

Washed up and calmly drinking his coffee while enjoying movie at the living room.

Win is ready for any conclusions they will make tonight. Actually Win never dare to put his expectations toward their relationship but it always Bright the one who slowly grabbed his heart to this weak.

Ding dong!!

Someone's coming and that must be Bright.

Win walking to answer the door and yes there Bright standing in front of his door.

First thing Win automatically look at is clothes. Bright ia wearing white shirt and jeans with his big bag on his shoulder...no green hoodie so that's person with Bright gf at the coffee shop was not Bright.

"Come in"

"Thanks"

Win goes to the fridge and takes one cold coffee can for Bright and sit on the couches opposite with Bright.

Opening his coffee can, Bright expression also looks calm.

"So..." Win starts the conversation

Bright looking at Win straight in the eyes

"Win... first I wanna apologize for my thoughtless action, I wanna apologize if any of my acts hurting you"

Silence...

"I was drunk and couldn't think straight...I want to send my apology but didn't feel right so I want to meet you personally to say it"

Win takes a ship of his coffee, and looking at Bright

"Never mind... it's okay" his short answer somehow makes Bright heart hurts.

"Are you somehow mad at me?"

"Why would I...?"

"I mean... you have changed little bit"

"Changed? Like what?"

"Like.... you're not looking for me anymore, you are ignoring me now"

Silence again...

This time Win stood up and to the fridge for more coffee can for himself.

Sitting back with Bright still opposite and looking at each other.

"Phi Bright.....you said it before....you want to make things clear between us and since then....things got worst...I don't know what you mean about clear things between us but all I got is you keep into my thoughts with your acts toward me...you acts sweet and lovely toward me then you come up with wanted the settlement... honestly I don't get you"

Bright in silence, thinking about how is his feelings towards Win and what actually he wanted from this discussion...

Tring tring tring!!!

Bright's phone ringing from inside his bag

"Sorry..." He finds the phone in the bag and leave to takes the calls.

Win sigh to calming his heartbeat,  looking at Bright's back from his seat and something in Bright's bag attract his eyes.... THOSE OLD GREEN HOODIE...!!

Bright's back and sit closer next to Win.

"Win... honestly me myself couldn't understand what is this feeling I had toward you but yes I feel happy seeing you smiling, like I'm so into you sometime but I also wanted to know how is you feeling toward me... I told you so many time about this right?" He sweetly hold Win's hand

"...so you want to know about my feelings towards you? Toward us?..." Win look into Bright eyes

"If you didn't mind...yes I want to know"

"I feel nothing about us phi...."

Degg!!

Bright's let go Win's hands out of shocking answer.

"Should I repeat again? I feel nothing about us...if you're hoping for another answers I'm sorry but for me we are nothing than workmates"

No words can be heard this time....just heavy sigh from Bright

"You still mad at me right?..." Bright speak with small voice

"Yes, I am"

"Win....let be honest tonight. Please put aside your mad toward me and tell me what your heart say when we're kissing, when we're hugging each other"

"You should do it first phi...you tell me your actual feeling toward me...you tell me what you feel when we're kissing and hugging even when we're making love...you tell me honestly and I will tell you mine"

All this times Bright always say that he confused about his feelings and always say that he is happy when Win is happy but to think about what those feelings when they kissing, hugging and making out at the night never once come to his mind to explain them.

"I....I think I...love you Win...those feelings I had seeing you hurt and ignoring me is the worst....I think I like you..."

"Please be real phi...those feelings might not love as lover but just as brother love"

"Brothers doesn't make love with each other Win, not kissing each other like we did"

"Phi...if you love me...if you think you fall in love with me...how will you prove it?"

"What kind of prove you want from me Win?"

Win look at Bright eyes one more time and coldly say

"You girlfriend"

Bright still looking at Win, there is not shaking sign from his eyes, he looks determine instead and that scaring Win....

How if he really break up with his girlfriend?

What will I do then? Accepting this feeling?

"If that's your way to prove I like you, I w..." Bright's words being cut by Win

"Phi stop.....Why are you forcing me to do this to you?..... I'm nobody to come between you and your gf relationship...just because this stupid conversation and you decide to do something extreme to your relationship..... that'll be my fault too..... you can just stop here...we can just stop here" Win's stood up

"Why would you stop me when you want the prove?!.... Is that your heart the one who stop you?.....Is that because you  actually feel nothing at all? Are you that afraid if I actually falls for you?" Bright's also stood up in front of Win

Come closer to Win body and grab his waist, slowly hugging him and place his head between Win's neck and shoulder.

Win can feel the unstable breathing

Less than 10 second on that position

"I'm afraid that I'll regret my choice if I answer you tonight phi" Win pushing Bright away softly

"Win... actually....I broke up with my gf already"