Things you can’t just kill .

Pov ( third person / Lappland psychosis )

From a sky covered with black clouds , in which a flash of red could be seen from time to time , black dust fell profusely . In the silvery red dawn of the moon visible through the clouds , this black dust looked as if it was red-hot . Because of the amount of red and black , the space itself looked like it was glowing red . Because of this , the two pairs of silver blue eyes looking at each other , were even more visible and contrasted .

One pair of silver blue eyes was bloodshot , and their pupils contracted . It was clear to see the fury and anger burning in those eyes directed at the owner of the other pair of eyes , which in complete calmness changed their point of interest to the two blades in the hands of the owner of the bloodshot , angry eyes .

Reflection : " After all, it's your head , no wonder you can so simply free yourself and create your own weapons . The only question is how these blades will work on me ? After all , how are painful memories supposed to work on me ? I am part of your imagination , your instinct , how are painful memories supposed to hurt me ? Besides that , we can't kill each other here , so ? What do you want to do ?"

Says the reflection with a sigh , when Lappland without heeding her words like a puppet without strings , slowly begins to walk toward her . The shards of mirrors hidden under the snow , and now to some extent black dust , seemed to give Lappland a certain discomfort and mental pain with every step . Despite this, he walked on unconcernedly , Lappland's face had no expression on it , only in her eyes could you see her emotions and her struggle with them .

Being close enough to her reflection , Lappland swung her blades with fatigue from the top left , aiming at the reflection's torso , which impassively looked Lappland in the eye . Although due to fatigue and lack of strength, the sweep was slow and inaccurate, it still showed the years of experience that Lappland had gained in combat.

But apart from the fact that in terms of technique the attack was beautiful, it did not change the fact that due to lack of speed and strength it was without purpose. It is not even surprising that the reflection , without moving from the spot , she made a simple instinctive move by crooking her back a little back , thus avoiding completely , the two blades that barely miss the bandages on her chest .

Immediately after that Lappland took a step forward and with her left hand she returned with a smooth sweep with the blade from the bottom to the top , forcing the reflection , which had just returned to her earlier position , to jump back . But as soon as the reflection's legs landed on the ground , she had to react quickly to the blade in Lappland's right hand , which made a thrust into her abdomen .

But again despite the fluidity of Lappland's movements , reflection without any problem , without moving her legs , purely instinctively she simply twisted her body at the hips allowing the thrust to go right past her stomach . Immediately after that the left blade of Lappland , with a sweep from the left side came to behead her . With a twitch of the ear , the eyes of reflection sharpened , without much effort with a sweep of her two blades , with unnatural strength , precision and speed she smashed Lappland's left blade back into shards .

Then with the palm of her left hand , the reflection hit Lappland's face , thus throwing her weakened body off balance . According to the logic of her own mind , Lappland did not feel the pain inflicted by this blow , what threw her off balance was the push itself , which did not inflict any damage on her . Therefore , immediately after this blow Lappland gathered all her strength and improving her position , she swung her right blade from below , aiming at the face of the reflection .

The reflection , however, had already stopped playing . Releasing its own blades , the reflection seamlessly caught Lappland's right wrist , only to then throw her behind , straight towards the huge cliff . Hitting the ground , Lappland slid far enough that in order not to fall off the cliff she was forced to drive her remaining blades into the ground .

Despite this , most of her body was already hanging freely over the precipice after stopping . The blade in Lappland's right hand was stuck in the ground, supporting her left hand with which she was leaning on the edge of the cliff. Panting with fatigue, Lappland found just enough strength to rest her chest on the ground as everything from her chest down dangled involuntarily.

Reflection : " Your physical state does not matter for your strength in your mind , unfortunately your mental state ..... does . In short the state of your body here , including your strength and speed depends entirely on your mental state , which is now terrible . In the end all this talk and all this place is nothing but the product of your mental breakdown . But apparently this disease of ours even here is beginning to make its mark and probably has been doing so for some time . "

Says reflection , walking slowly up to the cliff with one of her hands in front of her , so as to let the black dust fall into her hands . Clearly the current situation in Lappland's mind did not concern her . Standing over the edge , right in front of Lappland , the reflection looked with her apathetic eyes into Lappland's angry eyes .

Reflection : " Why the anger ? Didn't we already talk about this topic ? Your anger is irrelevant because you are simply angry at nothing but yourself . If I were you I would be more concerned about what is going on around you ."

Reflection : " This place is your mental fortress , your inner self , this is where your memories , consciousness and what makes you you . I am not sure how this disease affects the mind but what I see around me is not very comforting . "

Says the reflection looking at Lappland , who quickly , with her left hand , grabbed the reflection by the leg , trying to pull it and thus throw the reflection off the cliff . Apparently Lappland did not even listen to what the reflection had just said . Looking at this pitiful outburst of anger , the reflection only shook her head .

Lifting her captured leg , pulling it out of Lappland's grasp , the reflection then kicked it down straight into Lappland's face . Without the ability to defend herself , she was immediately forcibly pushed down . After this kick to the face , Lappland did not fall only due to her right hand holding the blade stuck in the ground .

Reflection : " You are just pathetic . I really have had enough of you . You are just like those people to whom you can present a million proofs against their words and yet they believe their words like a mantra . What's worse you also know that what I say is true , but you cling to your lie like a drowning man clings to a razor . "

After these words reflected with resignation , she simply turned and walked away towards what was left of the mansion . At this time Lappland using the remaining strength in herself again climbed to the edge of the cliff . After resting her chest on the hard ground , Lappland with a tired growl , with the rest of her strength pulled the rest of her body onto solid ground .

Lying on the ground , Lappland looked with her dead , tear-filled eyes at the overcast by the black cloud sky , which sent black dust in her direction . In her silver blue eyes was reflected the image of the moon , which in its dilapidated state , with many black spots growing on it like a disease and a red glow seemed as dead as she . From the state of Lappland's mental body, it was clear that she could not take much more , she was already a complete burned-out wreck , nevertheless, slowly standing up she pulled the remaining blade from the ground and moved to the reflection , which standing her back turned to her , looked at one of the mirrors levitating near the ground .

Staggering on her own feet , leaning on several stone statues along the way , Lappland approached the reflection , which only sighed at Lappland's pointless sweep with a single right blade against her exposed back . With a step to the side , the reflection let the blades slip past her . Lappland herself tripping over her own feet after that , which make her almost hit the mirror with her face .

Catching the back of Lappland's head , the reflection forced Lappland's face into contact with the mirror , which at the moment of contact with Lappland lost its reflective properties . Instead , what appeared on it was a blurry image of two women sitting on the ground next to a white-haired wolf girl in front of whom two books were placed . The girl herself was certainly a little Lappland who, despite the two books in front of her, preferred to stare impassively at the two women in front of her. One of the women had short black hair and amber eyes , on her head was a pair of cat ears with a pair of earrings .

This was Blake's mother , Kali who looked several years younger . Seated next to her was another girl , by age certainly younger than Kali herself , by age she could still could pass as a teenager . Her skin was dark just as her wild black, chin-length hair in an asymmetrical style bob . On top of her head was a pair of tiger ears . From the shape of her face alone she looked very similar to Hazel with a few differences .

This was Sienna the older sister of Hazel , now also known as the leader of the White Fang . She was the person who in the past undertook to take care of Lappland when Blake's mother could not . It was Sienna who was one of those few people who at the time could approach Lappland , without fear that she would attack them .

As Lappland plunged into this image from her memory , the reflection standing next to her noticed black crystals appearing on the corners of the mirror . Seeing this , reflection threw Lappland away from the mirror . After hitting and shattering one of the statues , Lappland fell to the ground where her chest was pressed to the ground by the foot of the reflection that suddenly appeared in front of her .

Reflection : " You really don't understand that what you are doing makes no logical sense ? You want to attack a part of your own consciousness idiot , you can't kill me or hurt me because I'm not real !!!!! "

Says reflection exerting pressure on Lappland's chest with her leg . This, of course, did not hurt Lappland , this move was only to hold Lappland in place .

Lappland : " If you say so why do you avoid my blades ? "

Asks Lappland showing a faint smile on her face , which did not match the dead expression of her eyes . The question itself threw the reflection off balance , which Lappland took advantage of. Lifting her hips and legs Lappland wrapped her legs and arms around the rebound's leg that was on her chest . Because of her surprise , the rebound loosened the pressure on her leg , which allowed Lappland to twist to the side knocking down the reflection , who had no way to keep her balance with only one leg on the ground .

Letting go of the reflection leg , Lappland, with a new blade , whose length was no more than ten centimeters , climbed on the reflection and put the blade to her throat . But strangely , at that moment , Lappland's movements stopped . Despite the teeth clenched so tightly that they gnashed against each other , despite the fact that in her eyes filled with madness , there was a vivid fury flowing . Lappland's body simply froze . On the other hand the reflection was not worried , in her eyes appeared rather sick anticipation .

Reflection : " Come on , you want to do it ... damn it , come on don't make me wait ..... HaHaHAhAhaHAHAHA hahahahahhah "

Laughing , the reflection grabbed with her hands the knife-holding hand of Lappland . And with her own strength , the rebound forced the blade in Lappland's hand to maintain close contact with her neck.

Reflection : " I avoid blades because it is a purely instinctive action , and who if not me , personification of your own instinct , should obey instincts ..... Besides, you felt it yourself ... No matter how you want..... you can't kill me ... You can't kill your instinct ... You can suppress me or stun me but not kill me . "

Reflection says showing a sick smile on her face . Her breathing was uneven and her eyes were wide open , the only word to describe such a facial expression was " psychopath being close to climax " .

Reflection : " But even if you could kill me, you just can't get rid of that part of yourself .... You can't get rid of me because you know that without me you will be left alone with these memories and emotions ... Without me, you will be carrying this burden yourself ... you will be forced to accept facts and reality "

Says the reflection , when at that time Lappland sat upright on the belly of the reflection and look straight into her eyes . At the same time Lappland felt a tender hug around her waist and a familiar smell reached her nose .

Blake : " Lappy ... "

At that moment a familiar voice reached Lappland ears . And his time voice did not seem to come from the reflection , which had already lost her smile .

Reflection : " Looks like our time is up .... I will not give up , I will haunt and oppress you as long as I can ... Because I do not agree with your decisions .... Until next time . "

While saying these words, the reflection let go of Lappland's knife-holding hand. At the end of her words, her body, like the world around her, began to shatter like glass leaving Lappland in a bathroom in front of a broken and blood stained mirror . Behind Lappland stood Blake , who hugged Lappland gently , keeping her face hidden in Lappland's neck.