N E G L E C T E D

Once... Twice... Thrice...

The number of times you ignored me are the same with the number of times I told myself you would not do it again. Silly how I ended up blaming myself for resenting you and your excuses. I was convinced that I was the one at fault for not understanding and letting selfishness gets the best of me.

My petty mantra everytime was to understand you more and more and more. Setting me aside for your studies, family and friends, what good of a girlfriend am I if I question that?

I did not want you to revolve your world around me. However, I did not expect you to make your world a place where there was no room for me. Or at least that's how you made me feel.

Sorry if I became needy of your affection and a beggar of your time.

The person I had become, I hated her, too. For this reason, I ask you to understand me this time around for choosing to turn my back from you. Forgive me for giving you a resigned look of a woman who already had enough when you finally started caring and begging for amends.

Sadly, rectifying the things that had gone wrong can mean you are doing it not for me but for the person after me. Both you and I was just a lesson to each other; you, treating another girl who comes along better and me, not letting another man make me doubt my worth.