"DID YOU EVEN LOVE ME SEBASTIAN?"

Being the only child of the Mowers, I was given out to Sebastian Kurz as his betrothed fiancee. We've been in a relationship for like a year now. I fully knew he had no feelings or strings attached towards me. I stayed in this toxic relationship where I had no choice but to stay because of a long time favor his father had made to my family in the past. I was used as a means of paying them back for that past favor. Sebastian would hit my face atimes but I hid all these from my parents even though mother found out about it later but she did nothing about it. I would return home with bruises most times and nobody would ask me where I got them from because they were scared of speaking up to Sebastian's parents about it.

On a fateful rainy day, I had returned from a supermarket where I bought some groceries for Sebastian's household. I got back to his home where I sleep over atimes since I was already engaged to him. After retiring the groceries into the store room, I prepared some hot coffee for my alleged fiance. I held the teacup in my hand going up the stairs in fear of meeting with his wrath yet again.

"Knock..Knock." I gently knocked on his door.

"Yes, Come in." A deep voice responded from inside.

I gently held onto the door knob, twisting it backwardly as the door opened ajar before me. I peeped inside the bedroom to see where my fiance was hiding. Sebastian was already up from bed, working on his laptop. He was on his bed, resting his back on a pillow his eyes fixed on those laptop.

"Here's your coffee Sebastian." I said to him with a low tone.

"Drop it and get lost."He replied.

"Uhm okay bu..but I..I".I stuttered with my words.

Sebastian got infuriated by me, closing his laptop in anger. He stood up from his bed approaching me while I tiptoed backwards in fear. He dragged the cup of hot coffee from my hand pouring it on my body. I screamed out in pain feeling the intended hotness of the coffee on my skin. The skin of my right hand wore off, as well as the skin of my right lap. Tears rolled down my cheeks, while I fixed my eyes on him surprised.

"Are you nuts? Didn't you hear get lost?". He asked aloud.

"Did you really love me Sebastian?". I asked him in tears.

"Even if you never did, atleast have some sympathy and humanity in you." I added.

Sebastian got angrier than he was because he felt I was challenging him now. He approached me, dragging my head while I screamed out in pain. He dragged me to his bed throwing me on the bed. I landed ontop of the bed while my head landed on the wall. I felt the back of my head with the tip of my fingers bringing out my fingers staring at those bloodstains on them. This was really too much and I doubted myself, if I could take any of these toxic attitudes anymore. I left his bed immediately standing before him. I brought forth those fingers showing him the bloodstains on them. He turned away his face in anger while I rubbed the blood stains on his both cheeks. Sebastian turned to me surprised at my sudden courage. He held my wrist with so much grip while I struggled in pain trying to let go.

"Let me go Sebastian, immediately." I ordered him.

"You're nothing but a fool....

"You suck like crazy. I hate you."He said to me on my face.

I pulled out my hand from his grip landing him a big slap on his face for the first time. The slap was so loud and intensed that it left my fingerprints on his right cheek. I was very angry and I have never bursted out in anger like I just did. I have tolerated enough and it was time to let go all of these. I brought out my right hand, pulling out the engagement ring. I threw it to the ground as it tossed up and down falling to a corner after so much spins. Sebastian tried laying his hand on me again but I stopped him this time by throwing his hand on the air.

"Who the heck do you think you're huh?." He asked me.

"I'm Bianca Mowers. No one messes with me."

I replied him with so much fierceness and my pose caught him off the hook for the very first time. He tilted his pupils staring into my eyes wondering where I got those boldness to face him. He laughed out aloud clapping his hands on the air while I looked at him surprised and confused at the same time.

"Cut it Bianca, nice acting I must say." He said.

"Reality you mean. It's seriously over Sebastian."

I replied him with a shaky voice.

Sebastian brought down his hands shaking his head disappointedly. He went back to his bed sitting down. I turned towards his direction approaching him to say my mind yet again. He thought all of these I displayed here was a total drama but I meant it. He tried opening his laptop but I dragged it out of his hand while he looked at me irritated by my guts. It was his time to listen to me, because I have done that severally in the past.

"I am with your laptop and if you get on my nerves again, then just say goodbye to this." I shoved it on the air.

"Don't even dare, because the laptop you have on your hand, can buy even your hundredth generation."He replied.

"By the way...as I was saying earlier, I'm done with this toxic relationship. You'll never see me again and also, you will never hear from me again too."I said to him.

Sebastian was only interested in the laptop on my hands and didn't care about a thing, which I have said to him earlier. I threw the laptop on his bed, while he caught it like it was his baby. I stormed out of his room angrily leaving his house. I was running away from my city Birmingham to a new city Manchester where my best friend had told me to relocate and come live with her. I have always told her about my toxic relationship over phone calls and she was always adviced me to leave but I had ignored her pleas severally but not anymore. I headed over to a bus stop that was heading to the city of Manchester and I knew it was going to be some several hours journey.

Getting to the bus stop, I rested my head against one of the poles there, pouring down tears. I couldn't stop reminiscing on the past and everything that Sebastian made me pass through.

"Mum I'm sorry, but this is the only way to escape the pains I have bore in the past, in the hands of that monster." I lamented to myself in tears.

A woman next to me, noticed that I was sobbing, even though I was being careful enough not to let the sound of my cries get loud. She somehow found out about it anyway.

"Please take this and wipe off your tears. Everything would be fine, even though I have no clue about the reason for your tears." She said to me, handing over a handkerchief to me.

"Thank you." I bowed my head to her, collecting it from her hand.

She watched me wipe off my tears with the handkerchief. The handkerchief got soaked with tears and I had to use it in hiding my face from others. The woman got into the first bus that arrived at the bus stand, while I waited for the second bus.

She waved at me inside the bus, while I waved back at her. She was really a nice person.