Dreams

I am trying my best to get up but someone is above me and stomping my face with all their might and busting my skull with him also simultaneously stabbing my guts out, licking them and biting their structure off with a small cunning grin on his face as if he is trying to mock to my face by saying "Haha, I caught you, you fucking bastard". I feel a horrible sense of guilt and frustration when he moves onto a girl beside me and smashes her with a bat with her spitting out her teeth like watermelon seeds and just him repeating the process until her brain's pulp is visible. He gets up with him laughing his guts out and the suddenly his face drops and eventually lowers with a figure popping behind him and haha plot twist it is the girl. (Haah i am too used to this) The girl though right now is totally looking healed and has no damage on her whatsoever. And she approaches near me, slamming her fist like feathers and trying to symbolise something i am not sure about with her crying the hell out over me.

This is how it happens and how my dreams have passed by for some reason since I was 8 years old and it never gets out of my mind. It stays and stays, engulfing my heart like a mini monster and playing with it as though it were a soft plush. The first time I was snatched from my path to sanity through this dream I was screaming in my bed while holding my head alone without anyone to comfort me. It was as if some fragment of memory from a past life always travels back to me engulfs my mind and then returns back to the darkness. But the strange thing is that i have never met the 3 people who are present in this situation. I have never even encountered those people with such face or body structures. Never back then and never until now but I don't care about all of that and anyways who cares(except me whose sanity hangs on their existence).

I wake up with my sloppy face that is a mess from the inner screams and screaches; instead has been all covered and sugar coated by my puddle of drool on the table with my mouth guard to muff down the screams(i wish it would stop my drool to leak too). Ah such an efficient way to shush your child right mom and dad? By slamming him down to the bottom and plug on a lid on his face. Anyways i took on my backpack and move back home with me left alone and the sky almost drowning into darkness with little twinkles of light forming and piercing the darkness.

This is my private space to hang out during the holidays because I don't want to meet my parents eye to eye. Those disgusted faces showed to me due to me not being normal(its not i am insane, i am just trying to sooth my mental health) but you know what it doesn't matter anyways. I get out through the parkour course of vines, cracks and the unhygienic shit spots of wild animals. I did try to clean up this old place once but unfortunately there are more tenants here like me(more like intruding wild animals). I head to the house I used to call my home (now hellhole).

This used to be a really good school but unfortunately a person like a fucking lunatic banged one of the pillar rods with a metal bat many times and thus crumbling the building. He was charged cold blooded murder of 89 students 7 teachers with all of them almost leaving him and his family into bankruptcy. He was send to prison with the builder of the building for doing a sloppy job and in the end it ended with the school too going into a crumbled business due to the parents of the teachers asking them for again compensation(see how greedily everyone is after each other's money, they will kill for just some money....some actually do) and in the end it became another abandoned building like multiple others here in this lonely city.

I reach home with reminiscing smile with the idea that because at least i got an away spot for myself.

(comment for any mistakes this is my first story 😆)