Qingyue's Decision

(Qingyue POV)

My name is Xia Qingyue. I have a father and a younger brother. They take good care of me. My mother left me away when I was 6. I got angry at her. Why did she leave me? Did I do something wrong? I asked myself these questions several times. But I have yet to find an answer.

I love my mother. I miss her. I don't want to get separated from her. I feel lonely without her.

She told me to take care of my family and didn't tell the reason for her departure. I want to know the reason why she abandoned our family. I want to ask her why she left us alone?

When my mother left us, my father looked devastated as was as if his soul is lost from his body. I can't make myself to see him like that. My younger brother is still a child. How can he deal with losing his mother? He will stay motherless.

What can I do? What should I do? I must find a way to search for her.

Mother told me several stories of 'Realm of Gods'. Father once told me that my mother is not from here. So, there might be a slight chance she has gone back to her place.

I tried to find out more about the 'Realm of God' from our library, and wherever I could. I spent many days and nights searching for any clue to bring her back home. To complete our little family. To make my father happy.

I want my mother back. I want her care. I want her to say that I'm a good girl. I want her to stay with me at all times. I kept on racking my brain to find a solution.

Slowly one year has passed. I had no progress in finding my mother. What will happen to me? Will I never see her again? Oh! god, I will do anything... anything to see her once again... just once... Please!

My heart kept bleeding but I never rested. I did everything I can.. bore any pain to see my mother again!

Seeing my condition, my father once took me to a banquet to reduce my depression. I told him that I'm not interested. But he kept on insisting... so I couldn't deny.

I then met a boy around the same age as me. He looked cool and good. He greeted me and I greeted him back. We asked permission from our parents to play and played for a long time. And then got home, I feel that today, it's a little different from other days. I got good sleep.

Then the next day, as I again remembered my mother and sad, he appeared next to me and said that he is my friend and he will listen to whatever I say. I was reluctant at first, but he assured me that he will not mock me.

I told him all about my mother. I was then surprised how easily I told him everything and I felt the burden in my heart lessen. I hugged him and he gently patted my back. I felt warm which I have been longing for. My pain reduced and I cried and cried. He kept comforting me.

From that day, he continued to come to my home whenever he could. I feel happy whenever I see him and it feels as if butterflies are running in my stomach. We also went for many dates, enjoyed ourselves. We kept on becoming closer and closer each passing day.

I told my father what I felt. He told me that It is called "love". So, I fell in love with him?

I want to spend more time with him, be with him, continue to fall in love more and more. I want to confess my love but I am quite reluctant. What if he doesn't love me? Will our relationships fall apart? Will he start hating me? No, I can't do that.

Xiao Che told me to work hard and train. I will train hard so that nothing can bother to split us apart. He promised he will never leave my side. I trust him with my life.

Today, as I was in my room, my father called me to come to the guest hall as someone arrived. I made my way to the room and found a beautiful lady sitting on the sofa.

"Qingyue, Someone came here to meet you. Let me introduce her. She is Chu Yueli from Frozen Cloud Asgard." My father introduced the lady. I then introduced myself.

The lady stood up and said "Your daughter is quite talented, Mr.Xia. As I have already told you Our Sect Master is willing to take her as a disciple." She then looked at me "Are you interested?"

I look at my father and he seems quite conflicted

I think for a moment and asked: "What will I gain by becoming your disciple?"

Chue Yueli smiled a little and said, "Power", she walked to me, pulled my chin up "Power, You get cultivation resources from our sect. You get stronger. Now, I ask you again, do you want to join?"

Power... I need power. I need to get strong so that I don't lose what's dear to me. I already lost my mother. If I get strong, will I get to see her? Will I protect Xiao Che?

I ask her curiously, "What do you want from me?"

I know in this world nothing is for free. There must be something she is expecting from me in exchange.

She laughed, "You are quite intelligent for your age, kid. Yes! in order to join us, you need to stay away from all other distractions, in short, you need to seal away all of your feelings and come away with us."

I was dumbfounded by what she said. What? Do I need to seal my heart for getting strong? Like hell, I will! If I have been like before, I would definitely agree with her condition. But now... I have Xiao Che with me. I don't want to leave him. Even if you give me the power I desire.

I said in a monotonous voice, "I am not at all interested in becoming your Frozen Asgard's disciple."