New Morning

At the 7 a.m. just like the usual even though Michael want to sleep longer, he always woke up at this time but weirdly the moment he woke up, he felt dizziness and a sharp pain in his chest as if some part of his is carved away. The pain woke up Michael immediately, he checked for any wound but he didn't find any.

Michael was perplexed but his attention was drawn toward a lightened screen of his laptop, immediately he found the culprit and shook his younger brother awake " Oy, you bastard, why didn't you turn my laptop off after you use it huh!??" but his brother answered weakly "but… I.. didn't use it at all.".

Michael slapped his brother's head and spoke "just admit it, I know." And walked off toward his laptop, weirdly the screen displayed the folder where he stored the anime Phantom : Requiem for The Phantom, he lightly glanced at the screen but weirdly again an episode, the last episode file name changed from "26. Ellen" to "26. Happiness".

"Fuck, anoo kozo…" Michael unconsciously mixed his word with Japanese and was about to smack his brother head again but then he sat on the chair wanting to turn back the name to the original name.

Weirdly again, he miss-clicked and played the video but even the moment the video played it was different from the episode 26 is supposed to be, perplexed Michael skipped the Opening and some scene that is perfectly similar but there is some difference, like how Reiji didn't kill Cal but shoot her hand and they had a heart to heart talk like the original episode 26 but Cal survived and how Cal killed one of the sister by pretending to be a corpse similar to the original episode, but the most significant changes is that at the end, where 6 months have passed Cal become Reiji's lover and Ellen just like before is like sister and brother with Reiji, Reiji didn't die and they live happily ever after as a trio freelancer assassin, there is even a scene where Cal is giving birth to a child.

It was strange, did I just dream about the 'original' episode, the strangest thing is the last scene is Reiji holding the baby and smiled at the watcher. Michael immediately searched about the ending discussion that is mostly years old by now, but the discussion changed too.

'So… the 'original' episode is just a dream of mine, but I vaguely remembering that I had a dream where I met Reiji too…, Hmmm… whatever, I will download many Phantom anime wallpaper now.' Michael thoughts as he ignores the weirdness and continued as usual forgetting the sharp pain and dizziness, he had in the morning but recalling time from time about the 'original' episode dream he had and the dream about that anime Main Character.

Days passed as usual for Michael in this lockdown because of the Corona Virus, until one day again a frustrating hentai appeared again, it was always about those NTR , cheating kind of hentai that always made his heart ache, made him so angry, frustrated because as always he sympathize with the Main Character of any story he read, that is what always make sure he enjoyed the stories but it's also the reason for his excessive frustration and sadness, he think himself as the Male Main Character in story most of the time, this particular hentai always made him mad, so much probably because Michael is a person that equalized physical loyalty to emotional loyalty.

The reason for this logical of him could be blamed to Hentai again because he watched and learned trough Hentai that a 'simple' pleasure could made a woman turn her back into her lover, that's the foundation of this weird but maybe true logic of his.

So, in this hentai at the cover it was weird the Male Main Character was surrounded by women then bellow it he was inside a locker while the woman is naked, Michael was already having a bad feeling years ago when he first started reading this.

At the start it was just like typica harem protagonist and there is this perverted side kick of his but then it was revealed in a room where the MC accidentally got inside a locker before this side kick of his entered with the Childhood friend of the MC, then they fucked but what made Michael so mad is that in the conversation between the side kick and the Childhood friend it was mentioned that she still liked the MC and planned to confess years ago but because of this sex friend relationship with the side kick that she continue to have she didn't confess even until now, the biggest thing that made Michael mad is the MC is hard.

Then the MC who got curious sneaked into the locker everyday finding that the side kick best friend of his always brought different girls everyday to have sex. He found out the Student Council President that the MC have crush on is a big slut that have sex with the side kick and his little sister even have sex with the side kick too.

The Most! MOST! Infuriating thing is that the MC never comforted them about it even after learning how the Childhood friend like him but still having sex with other guy and how his little sister is having sex with that kind of guy, he just let it go! Michael is always so mad whenever he accidentally glanced at the cover of his hentai when he browsed for hentai manga.

Perhaps it's because he grew up mostly with those fictional character that didn't even exist that Michael view of the Real World is most of the time synchronized with the Hentai world that is similar to the Real World. Even though it's stupid every time he read the NTR or cheating hentai with no super power or whatever he couldn't help but to think, ' is the girls in the real world like this? This easily betraying others? Easily putting that loving front while having affair?', then Michael become scared, he is scared of the betrayal that could have happened.

There is also the stealing other woman or girls with all kind of trick like drugs, schemes, hypnosis all that thing made Michael more scared and scared, so much that he unconsciously avoiding to put any real effort to try to get a lover, he even unconsciously lowering his social interaction, especially after an betrayal in real world, maybe to them it was just a game but to him it was a betrayal that hurt his heart.

He wanted to search for someone that is surely loyal to him, never leave him, never leaving him devastated like that, someone that he could be sure to put all the emotional investing he could into that person. Even so he knew that is most likely impossible, there is a small 'maybe' but he didn't think someone with his kind of personality will get that kind of maybe.

That's why he is so mad at the MC of that hentai manga, because someone dear to him, his Childhood Friend or Crush or even his little sister and he didn't even dare to ask them, comfort them about it, Why?

In the darkness inside his bedroom Michael clenched his bluster and curled his body as his habit and slept while being frustrated and angry at something that shouldn't have even affected him that is in different dimension.