I'm fine

After treatment, I hugged Tae.... He was my only life.... I depended on him to live my life.... I don't know but they said love can make you do abnormal things.... After what seemed like seconds of silence, I pecked his temple... " Don't do that to me again" I whispered.... " Kimmi, you don't have to worry, besides I'm fine... Don't be sad" he said faking another smile just to cheer me up... " Can you just stop acting like you are fine? Let me care for you love... Let me pamper you even though you are older.... chuckle.... But my love don't care about our difference in age.... I love you unconditionally" I said " now that sounds like a confession* he giggles.... I pinned him on the bed... And hovered over him... Even though he was more masculine than me, my presence made him blush... " Are you trying to tease me huh?" He asked with a sly smirk plastered on his face..... " What are you planning?" I asked looking at him jokingly.... " I was planning on fucking my baby" he said.... " Are you not exhausted from the trauma?" I aske my voice a bit Pained but I tried hard to hide it under the joking smile I was flashing him.... " Hey you don't have to blame yourself.... Just come here" he said gesturing for me to lean closer.... I did so and guess what? He bit my nose..." Hey " I complained... " That's your punishment.... If you blame yourself again, I'm afraid I'll have to keep my distance" he said.... My eyes widened... " Hey but it's unfair..... How... How can you blackmail me?" I aske through pouted lips... " Then deal with it" he smirked.... Arreh he was just him... I could never argue with him...." Fine... I give up" I finally gave in...." That's my good girl" he complimented stroking my hair..... " Whose up for some fuuuuuun!" He said.... " I'm not interested in fun... " I said... " Awwn" he seems sad.... " I want to fuck my boyfriend" I said with a naughty smirk and then I pounced on him.... " Let's work on our clothes now" I said and just with that, I ripped off his clothes... And did the same with mine... Now we had only shorts.... We began to kiss so passionately.... I closed my eyes, as the fire slowly engolfed me.... I could remember when I was thinking I wouldn't see him again... I wouldn't hold him... No... No..... Yanyan has to pay... And it doesn't matter what I do to get back at her..... I kissed him and then I tasted something wet and salty.... And then Tae pulled out... And hugged me... " Urchime( means don't cry in Korea)" Tae said.... I didn't realize that my emotions got the better of me and I began to cry...." Please promise me you would never walk alone until we catch Sulin" I said, my voice sounding pleading and desperate... My eyes for the first time, had a lot of fear.... .. " Kim are you ok?" Tae asked... "Guenchana( I'm ok)" I whispered... And just like that, I fell asleep...

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The room was dark, holding an eerie atmosphere.... 'hahaha' I could hear a familiar giggle.... Fading far away... I was at the verge of loosing my mind.... If this continues, I'll definitely loose my sanity.... But no it seems to want to torment me..." You came that you loved me" the voice was calm... " Yes.. babe I love you" I said... Searching for the voice but it was just echoing in my head... " But why did you let your dad kill me" now the voice was harsh and seemed have be mocking me..." He also killed me Jin-a... .y father killed me and now we are together" I said... " No I wish I never loved you.... I wish I stayed away from you... You are the cause of my death... Kim" he said... No..... I was screaming " you said you would protect me.. Kim why did you let Sulin and yoongi abduct me illegally" now it was Taeyang... His voice held great malice.... And now together their voices rang in my head... " Kim....Kim...Kim" my name was being called and "ahhhhhh!" I screamed as my eyes shut open.... " I've been calling you for God knows how long... Are you alright" Tae asked studying me... I was all soaked in sweat... My heart was beating very fast and my breathing was very rapid.... "Tae" I finally said and hugged him..." She.. daddy's here for you ok" he said kissing my forehead.... He held me tight.... " Do you think I'm the reason behind your abduction?" I suddenly blurted out... " How could you say that Kim.... I thought we.... Wait don't tell me that...?...Kim?" He was lost of words... " Tae I'm sorry... " I said ... He let me go and abruptly stood up... I think I'll just sleep in the pallor" he said taking a pillow and left... I ran after him and caught up with him close to the the stairs.... " Babe I'm sorry" I said... Deep down I was * you aren't" he said coldly" I swear... Cross my hear babe I'm sorry" I said... " Kim... How could you?.. look... Just take a look at yourself... I was the one who was being kidnapped, but who is suffering from the trauma... ? Kim can you act more mature than this?" He angrily said... With me trapped between his arms... His tall figure hovers over me and I can smell his scent.. but naughty me, I forgot what was happening and decided to be greedy.. I hugged him and began to enable his scent... And shortly I fell asleep...

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Tae's POV..

after Kim fell asleep, it was weard... This was the second time he was weardly falling asleep...first when we were making out, and second now... That was when I heard someone sigh... " Please take care of my son... " I heard old Woo say.. I greeted him... " Kim is sick... But he doesn't know... He is suffering from inner depression, but doesn't know... He also has a brain tumor... But I'm trying my best to get the bes treatment for him" old Woo said I could feel the hurt in his voice.. " Kim is just so stubborn... What do you think is causing his sickness?" I asked as I adjusted Kim in my arms... " He seems to be stuck with his past... And any shocking experience will add to it" old Woo said.. " I never knew Kim was like this... I wish I had known earlier.. but it's ok" I said... . We exchanged good nights and I carried Kim back to his room and cuddled him closely...

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Hi love..... Hope you are doing well...

Saranghae