60 The Event (1)

As I pondered over the words left by Professor Joshua, their weight settled deep within my mind. It was a realization that struck me with great importance.

  "I am trying to depend on others…?!!" 

The words echoed within me, unraveling a truth that had been obscured by my prolonged loneliness. 

Somewhere along the line, a desire had taken root within me—a yearning to rely on someone else, to be aided and supported. I had unknowingly adopted a mindset that leaned heavily on the assistance of others. 

In past life, I didn't realize it because there was always someone for me to lean on. When I was in the academy, It was professor Joshua. And when I was kicked out of the battlefield, It was my master who aided me. 

After her death, I met Roger who became a reliable companion.

In a sense, I had always relied on others to survive all throughout my life.