Chapter 5

Andito ako ngayon sa isang restau.. Hinihintay si Ice. Yes, ang dakila kong EX-BOYFRIEND. Oh diba ang dami kong sinabi kanina, but here I am waiting for that jerk! Ako pa talaga pinag-antay nya ah!

After a couple of minutes.Dumating sya with his usual outfit. Simple shirt and Khaki pants.

"Kapal din naman talaga ng mukha mo. Ako pa pinaghintay mo. Tss"

Natawa lang siya sa sinabi ko. And then it hit me.

"I'm sorry.. Hinatid ko pa kasi si Angel sa Campus."

I instantly back to my maldita self.Wtf!!

"Uhh.. Let's order first..What do you want? Let me guess,hmmmm...

Carbo...."

"Cut it out Ice.What do you want ba! Stop acting like nothing happens. How dare you to act like that, I'm still on the process of grieving."

"Grieving?" taka nyang tanong.

"You just killed my heart." May diin kong sabi kaya't natawa sya.

With that he took advantage to take orders. I am just looking intently at him. When he finished ordering, he faced me.

"Hey do not give me that look."

"What! I'm just staring at you"

"Parang pinapakonsensya mo ako lalo eh."

"Aba dapat lang na makonsensya ka. Kapal na nga ng mukha mo na makipagkita sakin after what you've done tapos di ka pa makokonsensya. Tusukin ko kaya tong bread knife dyan sa lalamunan mo." he sighed and look intently to my eyes.

Gosh that eyes that used to adore me. USED TO.

"Look Alex, I know I am jerk. I d-"

"And Stupid"

"y-yeah! Haist. Let me finish first. I'm really sorry for what happen to us. I'm sorry for being a jerk. I'm sorry for being a coward.. I'm...."

"Enough Ice! I don't need your apology! It's too damn obvious that you broke me. What else do you want!?"

malakas kong sabi kaya napatingin ang ilang nasa restau saamin.

"You're making a scene again." He sighed.

"As if hindi ka sanay sa ganito. I am like this."

"Exactly Alex! Ganyan ka that's why we ended up like this. Ayokong ganyan ka I hate the fact that inspite of years we have relationship, you've never change. You always think of yourself. You always think you're alone when in fact I am always with you. You love making trouble to the point that you don't think if I will be worried or not."

"It's because I.."

"It's because you are not happy being with me."

"That's not true!!"

"Then why do you keep on making trouble. You want attention from others! Why are you like that."

Hindi na ako nakapag salita agad.

"Of all the people Ice, you should be the one to understand me. " Sabi ko sabay tayo.

"Alex.. I didn't mean to say that"

Pinigilan nya ako pero tinabig ko kamay nya.

"This is the last time that we will talk. By the way, I will never changed. This is me. I am not the type of girl you wish to have. I wish you the happiness you want. Maybe with Angel you could have that."

Umalis na ako sa restau. I am not what others want me to be. This is me, they have to accept me. If they can't then they're free to forget about me.

I admit, I was hoping that he want me back that's why he wanted to see me. I guess, everyone in my life is meant to leave me. I don't care anyway, they are not my world. I can live my life alone.

After the talk, I went to mall. I'm just roaming around when I bumped to someone.

"Pakitingnan nga ng maayos ang dinadaanan mo! My God! Look at my dress! Don't you know how much this cost" Sabi nung nasa middle age na babae habang hawak ang damit nya na natapunan ng drinks na hawak nya. But hearing that voice I am very aware that she is Angels mother.

Inangat niya ang ulo nya and was surprised to see me. Inayos nya damit nya at tiningnan ako ng mabuti. The look of a hooker. Tss.

"Oh Alexandra it's you. How are you dear?"

"I'm perfectly fine. Mukhang hirap na hirap mga alalay mo sa mga pinamili mo ah. So how is it?" sabi ko ng nakataas ang kilay sa mga kasama nyang dala ang mga pinamili nya.

"Ha?" pagtataka nya.

"Kailangan ko ba talaga ulitin ang tanong ko? sige i-elaborate ko pa sayo. How do you feel right now? I mean look at you, wearing expensive clothes, jewelries, buying different things. Ang saya mo siguro no? Sino ba naman ang hindi di ba? Sa yaman ba naman ng daddy ko. Talagang nakajockpat ka." I said and clap my hands. I saw she clench her jaw. And looked around as if seizing whose watching our scene.

"How does it feel to use the credit cards of my father? Ang sarap gumastos diba? lalo na kung hindi mo naman pinaghirapan."

She was about to slap me but I grab her wrist.

"Wala hiya ka! Wala kang modo!"

"Oh c'mon, ako walang hiya? Bakit ako ba ang gumagamit ng credit cards ng daddy ko? ako ba ang gumagastos ng perang pinaghihirapan niya? Now tell me, sino ang mas walang hiya sa atin?" I smirked. I see how frustrated she is to hurt me.

"Ano bang ginagawa niyo ha! help me here!" sabi niya sa mga alalay niya.

Tiningnan ko sila.

"Sino mas susundin niyo? ako o siya?"

Bigla silang napaatras.

"See? Kahit yang mga alalay mo di ka sinusunod? bakit? Kasi ang perang binabayad sa kanila galing sa daddy ko. Hindi sayo. Tandaan mo, kabet ka lang at ako ang tunay na anak! Know your place." I free her wrist and walked out.

"Argghhh!!!" She shouted in anger.

Nakakainis ang mga taong nakaka-encounter ko. Mga panira ng araw. Umuwi na lang ako ng condo.

Pagkauwi ko ng condo ko, I do my routines. Nagluto at nanood. I'm busy watching movie when someone called.

"Hello...."

"Apo....How are you? Are you doing fine there?"

Yes it's my grandma.. My mothers mom. They are in Canada with my Aunt Lily. My mothers sister.

"I'm fine granny. Don't mind me here. Mind your health okay?"

"How could I not worry. You're alone there. Please honey come with us."

"Granny I'm not gonna argue these again with you. Besides I'll be graduating soon."

"How long are you going to make your granny wait?"

"Granny stop that voice.It's so childish." She laughed of what I've said.

"Lily I think your niece has boyfriend thats why she can't live Philippines." She said to my aunt. I heard them laughing together.

"Gosh granny, stop it. Please give it to aunt Lily."

"Yes honey, how are you?"

"Auntie please naman iexplain mo kay granny na gagraduate na din naman ako. Nakakainis naman si granny eh." I admit I sounded so childish.That's why my Aunt laughed.

"Hahaha. You know your granny, she's so excited to see her unica ija apo. Tsaka your cousins keep on giving headache to your granny."

"Arggh. Those buttheads, they never changed. Mga babaero talaga. Pag sabihan mo nga mga anak mo Auntie." Again she laughed so hard.

"Hahaha. Hay naku. Kung pwede lang itali mga anak kong yun. Ginawa ko na. Anyway kamusta ka dyan? Di ka naman inaagrabyado ng madrasta mo?"

"Huh in her dreams. You know me Auntie. But I just bumped her a while ago at the mall. I just give her a spice of truth."

"Naku Alexandra. Yang pagkamaldita mo ayusin mo ha! Ayokong nalalaman na nakikipag-away ka." With that tumawa ako ng malakas. Hahahahaha. If you only knew Auntie how good I am.

"Naku naku talaga! Yang tawa na yan. May hindi ka ba sinasabi samin?"

"Nothing Auntie, I just remembered something."

"Ok sabi mo eh. By the way, wag na wag kang magpapauwi ng lalaki sa condo mo. Umayos ka Alexandra! Kakalbuhin kita."

"HAHAHA. Relax Auntie, 10 pa lang naman sila."

"Oh my gosh! Alexandra!!!"

"Hahaha.Kidding.. Sige na Auntie, I'll hang up. You're disturbing me already."

After that I hang up the call without letting her say goodbye.They don't need to know how I behave here while they're away. Baka papuntahin pa nila ang mga bugok kong pinsan dito sa Pilipinas at yun ang ayokong mangyari. Baka imbes na ako ang bantayan nila, mas ako pa ang magbabantay sa mga kalandian nila.

Granny is trying hard to convince me na pumunta na sa Canada, but I always declined. Lagi ko na lang ina-alibi na I will finished my college here but the truth is for now I don't like in Canada.

Nag movie marathon lang ako hanggang gabi. Trying to forget Ice but damn memories kept on popping on my mind. We used to watch movies together. Isa sa mga gusto ko kay Ice ay yung sinasabayan nya kung ano ang hilig ko. We have so many memories together, how can Ice thrown it all away just because of that Angel.

Because of too much thinking I fall asleep on the sofa.