I felt destroyed by my decision, but I'd been so frustrated that Valerie didn't seem to have the capacity to accept my love for her was the once-in-a-lifetime kind. The kind you don't fuck with, even when others try their hardest to disrupt what you have.
Wandering down the hall and up the stairs, I noticed how empty the house felt without her, and instantly regretted the decision I'd made. I almost caved in and called her back, but I didn't because it wasn't taken lightly. I'd felt it was necessary to keep my sanity because her mistrust would have eventually destroyed the love we had at some point anyway.