Nursery, and Perks of Being a Variant

*Boom*

*crash*

"Aaahh" "No, stop. Please, I'm begging you" "You monster"

These kinds of words and sounds greeted me when I realized where I am. No. Not where. More like when. Past. The past life that I've lived. And the cruelest actions that I've done. Atrocities, sins, torture. All these were just child's play in front of my actions. Actions. Yes, actions. Actions that I didn't know why I did them. Actions that no sane person would do. Actions that I've done just to complete my missions, that were given for me so I could earn the trust of those maniacs.

A girl getting raped just so that her mother would spit out where were the documents.

Slowly cutting skin piece by piece, in a way that the victim wouldn't die, just so he would give the needs code.

Massacring the whole village, in secret identity, to later act as a savior of that one boy.

Acts like these. It was everyday business. Of course, in the beginning, I wasn't so cruel. But later. Layer after layer of humanity was slowly peeled from me. Slowly, I was turning into one of those that I dedicated my life to terminate. To destroy. To slaughter. To steal everything from them.

Oh looks, another memory, scene of me.

As I said this, I looked at the memory that showed a lone boy, walking in rain on a dark evening, an empty street.

"Hey, little guy, you are homeless right. Hmm. Want to come with me." said a lady dressed in noble clothes. One look and you could understand that she has a great life.

"Sure. Why not, I don't even have anything to lose anyway." I agreed almost automatically.

The scene changed. Dining room. Long table. Cozy light from the fireplace. Talks about insignificant things with her. Everything seemed perfect, so perfect that I wanted the time to stop, so I could live in this scene forever. Sadly, it didn't. The scene changed again.

Night. Moonless night. Darkness everywhere. Shots going off in the background. A youth with black hair, and almost sickly looking pale skin. A bleeding girl in his embrace. Wails, tears. And goodbyes.

Something stirred inside of me. A feeling I haven't felt for a long, long time. Longing, love?.

But I didn't have enough time to consider.

The scene changed again. A dimly lot hall, decorated to make it seem like a religion fanatics(maniacs) paradise. Twelve chairs. Twelve men seated. A pale-looking teenager kneeling on one leg.

"Do you accept God's love?"

"Yes"

"Do you accept the burden the God given you?"

"Yes"

*whisper*no, don't

"And lastly, do you accept..."

"STOOP. ENOUGH." I screamed with all my might. Maybe heavens pity me, but the scene disappeared, and what replaced it was a mirror. In the mirror, I could see myself. But not pale looking youth, nor Variant Imp. I could see a lump. A lump of darkness. No, not darkness. Something more sinister, something darker and deeper than the deepest abyss. But I still knew that it's me. Just. Just without the outer shell. My true being… maybe. But when I wanted to touch the mirror, I managed to perceive that I'm grabbing someone neck. And I was slowly increasing my strength in the grip. I blinked. When I came to being, I saw a… nurse? Yes. Nurse. Although she was demoness. I could see that from her yellow and red eyes. She still looked absolutely gorgeous. Tanned tone skin. Big lips. Long eyelashes. Small nose. And beauty mark right above her lip

I looked down. Damn. It's probably 100-55-100. Golden ratio with extra seasoning. I released my grip on her throat.

"What happened?" I asked unsure why I am seeing a nurse. Wait.

"Y..you…are in a...nursery…sir," she answered with still rough breathing.

"Nursery? Why I'm here?"

"You do not remember sir. Ummm. Well, I don't know the details, but you were delivered her with a mangled body, and they said that you were dragged into a brawl.

" A brawl? Ah, nevermind. Next question. What were you doing by standing next to me?"

"Ummm. I was.. Changing sheets. Sir. If..if I've somehow offended you, sir, pl..please forgive me, sir. I.. I will."

"It's okay. Anyways, when I'm good to go?"

"Ummm. They said that tomorrow you would be…"

"Thanks. You can go now"

"Yes, sir" after saying that, she hurried off through the door with quick steps.

"Mmmm. Why I needle to throw that prick? Now I'm in this situation. Well, maybe I'm able to salvage it somehow."

After saying that, I tried to drag myself from the bed. But all of it was in vain. It's not that the pain was too much. No. The pain was…tolerable. I mean, I've experienced pain in whole other league while coming in this world. This was nothing. It's just that my body wouldn't listen to me. My arms were broken. Legs also not any better. Spike probably broken in several places. And the whole dizzy thing from head trauma was bothersome. Simply said, I couldn't move. What?. You expect some novel bullshit, where the protagonist suddenly gets strength from somewhere or does thing just with his will alone. Sorry, but no. I'm not some masochist to hurt myself more by trying to do stupid things. Leave all that to some random Fum Cruz or something.

(A/N: sorry if there's someone named Fum Che)

For now, I'll just lay here, rest, recover some strength, wait for everything that may be happening because of me outside to calm down, and then simply continue my life. So that is what did. And while waiting, and wondering if I'll get to eat something here, I heard the same hurried footsteps as earlier.

"Umm, sir. The food, should I bring it over now?" the same timid but smooth voice.

"Yeah, come on. I'm starving." I replied.

*plank plank*

As I heard plates clattering, I gulped my saliva. Then the earlier nurse, that I almost choke to death, came through the doorway.

Then I saw it. The food mountains. Roasted meat, grilled meat, even something that looked like fish. And... What's that? Vegetables? Oh, God.

"Ummm, should I… should I…" when I looked her face, which now looked beet red, I laughed.

"You should what?"

"F.f..feed you, s.sir"

Uh. Hmmm.

"Yeah sure. Come here, well eat together."

And so we started. I just chopped the meat with my jaw and then gulped it. Manners? Ha. I'm demons for god's sake. Same could be said to her. She almost chews. Just stuffed and gulped.

After our carnivorous dinner, which excluded any green thing such as vegetables, I buried and she giggled. She's cute when she's not so scared- I thought.

"Ummm. Sir. Should I.. Serve you?" when I heard the most simple question, I… just simply nodded.