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Wishing for a healthy relationship is nearly impossible when nowadays, everyone has to deal with some kind of mental illness. The romanticization of mental health problems and toxic relationships in books is questionable, but so are perfect "rainbow and unicorn" relationships that set our expectations too high. Simple love can't 'fix' the problem, it can help, but it's not a cure for everything...

By, before she left for work, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurbefore she left for work, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."

Bing Shi listened well.

Then, her brother was born. Her parents had enough money to rent a nanny for both kids. Yet, Bing Shi couldn't get used to it — she wanted to play alone. Her parents could only approve of their daughter. Su few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."

Bing Shi listened well.

Then, her brother was born. Her parents had enough money to rent a before she left for work, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."

Bing Shi listened well.

Then, her brother was born. Her parents had enough money to rent a nanny for both kids. Yet, Bing Shi couldn't get used to it — she wanted to play alone. Her parents could only approve of their daughter. Suparents returned from work, their daughter would already be deep asleep.

With the thought that her parents were hardworking and kind people, Bing Shi was very grateful. How could she not? They worked so hard for her good being. For her future.

She learned how to entertain herself. She didn't see anything wrong with being alone. She liked it, or more like; she got used to it so much that whenever she wasn't alone, she would get anxious. Bing Shi grew up with the mindset that her house was the safest place. So as soon as she started school, she would go home right after, feeling unsafe outside.

About her father...

He was a good man who loved his family. There were times when he would get drunk. Her mother always told her to treasure herself, never let anybody hurt her, which would make her look at her mother doubtfully.

The little girl didn't understand why her mother loved her father despite him hurting her mother all the time. Her mother put the blame on the alcohol and Bing Shi was always an observant girl.

░~ Alcohol is bad. Drunk people will hurt you.░

Her mother was a mature woman; who knew a lot about life. Her mother wanted to protect Bing Shi and didn't want her to fall in love fast, so occasionally, before she left for work, shy, before she left for work, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."

Bing Shi listened well.

Then, her brother was born. Her parents had enough money to rent a nanny for both kids. Yet, Bing Shi couldn't get used to it — she wanted to play alone. Her parents could only approve of their daughter. Such a good girl, trying to save their money, they thought. They never noticed that something was wrong until

Then, her brother was born. Her parents had enough money to rent a nanny for both kids. Yet, Bing Shi couldn't get used to it — she wanted to play alone. Her parents could only approve of their daughter. Such a good girl, trying to save their money, they thought. They never noticed that something was wrong until it was too late.

Her parents sent her brother to the nanny's house until he reached the age when he could use the toilet alone. Bing Shi was spared of the things, called diapers. Her parents were still inexperienced and thought that her behavior was normal. She made them feel proud for being a child who could take care of herself during their absence. That's how a nine-year-old child had to take care of a three-year-old boy. Bing Shi's routine was destroyed. She didn't know how to take care of a child.

░Stupid boy, stop crying!░

To calm him down, Bing Shi had to put him in front of the TV. Because of this little creature, she couldn't watch her favorite series anymore.r parents got a call from her teacher.

When Bing Shi came back home, her parents were waiting for her in the living room.

Her father cornered her into a corner of a room, raising his hand, which was holding a broom; he started to hit her plump body. Bing Shi's face was full of terror, she shouted at him to stop, she pleaded and wanted to spend most of her time here. Listening to her desires, to play more games, she studied less. But her grades were s

Her calmness and patience disappeared. One time she had enough and showed her brother away. Her brother fell on his buttock and started to bawl his lungs out. The shocked Bing Shi regretted her action. She immediately apologized, begging him not to tell her parents.

Due to her long persuasing, her brother didn't tell anybody until now, or more likely, he just forgot about it.

Having enough, Bing Shi learned how to trick them. Starting small, she would take a photo of a messy living room room and showed them the picture.

"You see how messy the room is? Can you turn it clean again? I'll take a before and after picture. Later, I'll show it to our parents and tell them how you could clean the house, all by yourself! They would be so proud to have such good boys as their sons!" She encouraged them with a wide smile.

Her brothers agreed happily. The before and after result of their hard work gave them a sense of achievement. Not often was it for their sister to praise them.

Her parents didn't let Bing Shi cook, afraid that she would burn herself. One of the better decisions her parents made. It would be bad if she suddenly tried to teach her brothers how to cook.

When she showed off the pictures to her parents, they praised their sons. And they were even prouder of their daughter for teaching her brothers how to do housework! Her parents never saw how Bing Shi took care of her brothers, never saw how she shouted at them, and how many times sr parents got a call from her teacher.

When Bing Shi came back home, her parents were waiting for her in the living room.

Her father cornered her into a corner of a room, raising his hand, which was holding a broom; he started to hit her plump body. Bing Shi's face was full of terror, she shouted at him to stop, she pleaded and wanted to spend most of her time here. Listening to her desires, to play more games, she studied less. But her grades were still the same. How? Because she was smart? No, because she was cheating. And she got caught. Her parents got a call from her teacher.

When Bing Shi came back home, her parents were waiting for he could have real fun and feel safe at the same time. Nobody could hurt her. She started to socialize and made a bunch of friends. She felt really happy and wanted to spend most of her time here. Listening to her desires, to play more games, she studied less. But her grades were still the same. How? Because she was smart? No, because she was cheating. And she got caught. Her parents got a call from her teacher.

When Bing Shi came back home, her parents were waiting for her in the living room.

Her father cornered her into a corner of a room, raising his hand, which was holding a broom; he started to hit her plump body. Bing Shi's face was full of terror, she shouted at him to stop, she pleaded and wanted to spend most of her time here. Listening to her desires, to play more games, she studied less. But her grades were still the same. How? Because she was smart? No, because she was cheating. And she got caught. Her parents got a call from her teacher.

When Bing Shi came back h

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Her father cornered her into a corner of a room, raising his hand, which was holding a broom; he started to hit her plump body. Bing Shi's face was full of terror, she shouted at him to stop, she pleaded hibefore she left for work, she would tell her daughter a few encouraging sentences, "You have to love yourself first. Always treasure yourself, don't let yourself get hurt."

Bing Shi listened well.

Then, her brother was born. Her parents had enough money to rent a nanny for both kids. Yet, Bing Shi couldn't get used to it — she wanted to play alone. Her parents could only approve of their daughter. Sued in the corner and continued to sob; she gave up, her emotions were full of hatred. She started to hate everyone. She started to hate this world.

░I hate you.░

░Stop hurting me.░

Bing Shi got traumatized for life.

░~Seece was full of terror, she sho

feel safe at the same time. Nobody could hurt her. She started to socialize and made a bunch of friends. She felt really happy and wanted to spend most of her time here. Listening to her desires, to play more games, she studied less. But her grades were still the same. How?

her parents were waiting for her in the living room.

Her father cornered her into a corner of a room, raising his hand, which was holding a broom; he started to hit her plump body. Bing Shi's face was full of terror, she shouted at him to stop, she pleadedeople's mistakes, so you don't make mistakes yourself.░

Her grades went up, but her parents ended up crying, always lookin

games, the only place she could have real fun and feel safe at the same time. Nobody could hurt her. She started to socialize and made a bunch of friends. She felt really happy and wanted to spend most of her time here. Listening to her desires, to play more games, she studied less. But her grades were still the same. How? Because she was smart? No, because she was cheating. And she got caught. Her parents got a call from her teacher.

When Bing Shi came back home, her parents were waiting for her in the living room.

Her father cornered her into a corner of a room, raising his hand, which was holding a broom; he started to hit her plump body. Bing Shi's face was full of terror, she shouted at him to stop, she pleaded

She enjoyed playing games, the only place she could have real fun and feel safe at the same time. Nobody could hurt her. She started to socialize and made a bunch of friends. She felt really happy and wa

she was 19.

He couldn't even touch her hand until he turned 22, and she 24.