RU's Garden

"Brianna" I called her when I saw her walking towards us. She's wearing a black spaghetti strap shirt insert in high waist blue pants and sandals. Holding her brown envelope in her left. And fall out her wavey blonde hair.

"Oh, Hi Ire! You're too early"

"Duh! Just say YOUR LATE!" said Agatha. I just met Agatha outside the gate of RU, she said that she just passing by, and she already enrolled in another school which is in BU far from here, she's wearing a white hanging with a black sports bra inside and black pajamas not fit and white shoes with her brown long curly hair

"Oh for heaven's sake! It's too early to see a devil right now," said Brian and swing her shoulder-length hair.

"What?!" shout Agatha and they started arguing but in a funny way. I know that Agatha is a good person but I don't know if I can trust her, but now I should keep pretending in front of her like what I said to Brian.

"I was just passing by and I see Sapphire standing here alone so I decided to stay here for a while till you came, so, bye. Bye Ire"

"Bye Agatha see you again, "I said and waved at her with a smile.

"Seriously you want to see that bitch again!"

"I heard that you son of a bitch!" shouted Agatha. Brianna laughed till she can't see Agatha.

"Let's get going, then," said Brian I just nodded and came in, her body structure shows in her outfit she really looks good on it. While me wearing a simple medium size pastel blue shirt and inserted the front cloth in my pants and wearing sandals. We head inside the admission office to enroll in senior high. We didn't expect that many people came here early, I looked at my watch and its 6:01 am.

How long are these people waiting for the admission office?

It took me so long until I came near the admission office and write my name on the paper, give all requirements and give my signature. Then they gave me a form and I fill it up quickly then pass it to them. One of them looked at my card.

"Woah you have good grades, Ms. Willowfield." said the old woman sitting in front of me.

"Thanks, ma'am," I said with a normal face.

"You studied at Brunei University, huh? I guess you can pass the scholarship exam"

"Oh, okay.."I said. That's a good thing. This school is much more expensive but still, Mom insisted me go here to enroll. Now, I can help them with my tuition here in school if I get a scholarship.

Actually, I studied at Brunei University since junior and the first year of senior high. But because grandma the mom of my dad who owns our house here insists on us immigrating here, because that's her last will before she died. And told us to protect our house because it's from her great-grandma, she just renovates it, etc. So we end up here.. but it's a good idea too, this place is nice and no one recognizes me except Brian who also followed me here.. because we're friends and glad she followed us here last month.

After passing the form to them they gave me a permit to give to the cashier and pay there.

I can't see Brian, where is she?

I called her to ask where is she. Almost Three times I called her but she didn't answer.

Maybe she's busy? I must get going now to the cashier's office, I just gotta leave her a message.

It's a really huge School, but It's really pretty nice here, there's a garden, a hospital. Lots of buildings but you can still see some trees and flowers everywhere here.

I am now in the cashier's office and pay for the entrance exam. Before I left I asked her if I can get a scholarship exam, on how can I get it.

"Uhm, ma'am how can I take a scholarship exam?"

"You can ask someone inside the test room next to the guidance council," she said and I just nodded. As I walk inside the campus heading to the next building, my phone rang,

I picked it up and see who's calling me. It's Brian!

"Yes?"

"{Girl! Where are you?}"

"I was asking the same question, Brian"

"{Oops sorry, It's really crowded here...}"

"Where were you?"

"{At the canteen}"I heard her eating something crispy.

"Okay, are you finished?"

"{Yes, the exam is not that easy, but I guess you can do it, Ire}"

"Okay, see you there, wait for me"

"{Sure}" she said and hang up the call. I went inside the test room. Brian's right it's not that easy to pass the exam. Even though you pass the exam, there's still a possibility that you won't accept it here at University. They are so strict here on campus, but I was hoping I'll pass because I really liked it here, I don't care if it is always difficult here to study, but the fact is the teachers here are so good at teaching as what I saw in my research and good feedbacks, that's why I want it here. Add Mom who insisted me enroll here.

"Pass the paper now," said the man with his cold tone and all of us pass the exam forward.

I talk to the man and ask him where and how can I get the scholarship exam.

"Oh, you want to take a scholarship exam?"

"Yes sir"

"Okay, stay here. Let me check your grades" he said and I gave him my xerox copy of my grades. He examined it and nodded for some reason I don't know. He gave me a paper.

"Answer that paper," he said and I nodded. I answered all the questions in this paper and passed it to him, it took me 30 minutes to answer that test.

"You will know the result within 2 weeks, Ms. Willowfield. You may go now" he said

I packed all my things and ready to see Brian at the canteen. As I went outside I saw the small garden in front of the test room.

"Yes hello?"

"{Hey! Where were you? Why are you taking so long? Is that exam is really hard for you? My gosh come here already!}" shouted Brian at me, the wind from my phone speaker is so strong that push my face moved away from my phone a little.

"Okay, wait for me there a little bit.."

"{Kay!}" said Brian and hang up the call. I went inside the small garden, its nice but I can't feel the happiness that I read in some of my books that the person naturally become joyful when he/she finds something nice, but still, I don't feel anything, all I know is I want to stay here just for a little bit. For the first time, I felt warm here in the garden, not a cozy or cold place, it's really relaxing here. Different flowers everywhere, I closed my eyes and imagine, what would happen to me if I am normal like the others? When will I find my happiness in life? Will, I became happy? Or still the same..?

I was completely dazing out when I heard the sound of a slap nearby where I am standing, I opened my eyes and search for where it came from. I walk slowly then I heard someone yelling and it becomes louder and louder and I found a girl yelling at the boy, the girl cried so badly but the boy doesn't show any emotions. He is completely silent, he only did it to look at the girl. The guy is so tall that the girl needs to lift her head to see the boy's face.

"How dare you! You said you loved me! But why did you kiss that fucking girl! You liar! You fucking liar bastard!" said the girl while punching the guy and slapping it. But still, the guy didn't show any emotions and reactions. Completely silent. Is he have a condition like mine?

"Say something! Why!? WHY!!"

"Because I'm getting tired of you.." for the first time the boy spoke to the girl. The words that came from the boy's mouth made the girl shocked and paralyzed. I can feel the changing of the atmosphere here in the garden. The words came from the boy who made the girl's heart freeze.

"Wha-"

"Listen, I am not taking seriously any relationship I have... It means your just nothing but a desperate girl trying to get my attention and feel to yourself that you are the only girl who deserves my love.."Said the boy, I can't see the face of the boy, he wears all black. Blackcap, black jacket with a red dragon in the back and I guess black shirt too inside and black pants and shoes, did he came to the funeral? Or maybe he's emo? On the other hand, the girl fell to her knees and cry.

"It's the end of our relationship, and honestly I didn't enjoy this being with you.." said the boy and left the girl crying.

Is that really so painful? To leave you just like that? Without a good reason? Looking at this girl crying and whimpering because of that boy, maybe yes.

How I wish I can feel that too... I can feel that too...