12. CRAZY

"Because I don't like seeing you treated like a freak at school. I hate those who hurt you." Obviously justin was trying to convince Ern. Ern just licked her lips. He paused for a moment and let his eyes see Justin's face. Ern's eyes searched for the truth in Justin's gaze. a few seconds later ern looked down. he is desperate with his current situation. What else can we do. he resigned and let the story that was buried deep in the open in the end. *** "That's why I want to tell you that there is nothing left for you, Ern. This house must also be sold to pay off the debt owed." Seeing the girl in front of him widen. This man continued. "There's a little money for you. I don't think it's much, but it's enough to sustain a month's living expenses." Ern thanked the man for his kindness and said quietly. "How could I possibly leave this place..." saw the look in the eyes full of pity from Mr. Smith. Ern immediately came to her senses and continued. "Yeah, I guess I should leave this house don't I? I'll find a job." Mr Smith nodded. "How is your school?" Ern scratched his forehead confused how to answer Mr. Smith's question. "I don't know.. but I will try to finish my high school." "good." Ern looked from corner to corner of the room. His eyes were as empty as he was feeling right now. "I know this is hard on you." Mr. Smith's words were very hard for Ern to accept. "if only I became a rich man. I will help you ern." Ern licked his lips. his eyes shifted from mr smith. "I know this is an order from your boss. Debt must be paid." Ern half-sincerely said his statement. "I didn't know your grandmother died a few hours ago." Mister smith said covering his mouth and looking down. For some reason Ern couldn't accept Mr. Smith's expression. To him it was a lie. "if there's nothing what will you talk about. I'll be leaving tonight as well." "Yes, of course. I'll be leaving soon." Mr. Smith stood up straight. "Here's your one month's money." Ern's hand received a brown envelope which he thought was impossible for one month. "thank you."

"Okay I'll go. Don't forget you can only bring your clothes." Mr. smith pays attention to Ern's overall appearance. "Just the clothes you're wearing." Ern swallowed. His face did not see Mr. Smith at all. "Yes, I know that." Ern's body immediately turned around and left just like that, leaving Mr. Smith. It doesn't matter how he looks at the moment. it was cold outside he only wore a long sleeved t-shirt and a short skirt. Somehow he protected himself from the cold. Ern just realized the meaning of life. Whoever has money will have everything. Unlucky. He only has one dollar bill. Ern tossed aside the envelope that Mr. Smith had given him. He was right in his mind. The old man with a serious face was a liar. How could a single dollar be enough for one month. The night is still not too quiet. There are still a few shops that are open just like that and some passersby who just stare with pity without giving them a break or anything like that. His little hands embraced himself with heavy breaths. While his lips were already starting to turn blue and vibrate. At the end of the road he felt his head like a lemon squeezed with a strong hand. "oh shit!" "Miss are you okay?" his ears heard the sound. Which seems to be a man around 40 years old. Ern felt her cold skin touch the soft cloth. he was carried by a man wearing gloves and a thick coat. He couldn't look around. His eyes were semi-conscious. While his hands continued to ruffle his hair. "Dad, hurry up!" across the street is a little boy in a flashy red jacket grumbling to the man who helped ern. "Give him hot chocolate please." This man gave Ern to the cafe keeper in a hurry he gave money to the cafe keeper.

"Here's the money. I'll leave it to you," The shopkeeper just nodded understandingly as he adjusted his large glasses. "I hope he'll be all right." said the cafe keeper when he saw the man who helped Ern leave. "Don't…don't let him go….go." said Ern with difficulty considering he was holding back a pain in his head. "What did you say miss?" Ern squeezed his head with both hands instead. "aaa!" Everyone was shocked by Ern's shout. Several people looked at the scene in front of him. panicked and scared the cafe keeper asked several people for help to lift the half-conscious ern. Just now five people approached to help Ern instead screaming frantically. "aaa! Don't let that man go..." he breathed with cold sweat on his forehead. "The man has left in his car, miss." The cafe keeper answered while still holding Ern's arm. "He can't use that car!" Ern's voice sounded very loud. Now her hair is a mess. The bad feeling came back to him. His whole body felt a burning heat. Ern kept shaking the cafe guard's arms. "The car will explode you have to chase the car! Hurry up!" The cafe keeper who is a geeky boy is scared and stays away from Ern. he froze with several people behind him. "water! Water!" Ern shouted his eyes focused on the shoulder of the road that was full of remnants of snow. His eyes widened instantly like a lion finding its prey. then a second he ran and rolled himself on the shoulder of the road. Some around him stared at Ern's actions. they neither blinked nor commented. Ern felt his skin burn and melt like wax. His fingers grabbed the messy hair. Now his head felt something hit him like a hot iron falling on his head. "aaaa! No! hot!" Ern continued to roll wildly. Letting all his skin rub against the rest of the snow. Some women cover their mouths with teary eyes. Sad and surprised at the same time. how could the girl in front of him feel the heat. While the day is dark and the cold is piercing. The girl instead wore a short skirt and let herself roll on the snow. It didn't take long for Ern to realize what he was feeling. The heat on his skin was gone. While his head was not feeling the pain. Ern could feel for himself that he was healthy. Slowly he rubbed his eyes. looking around. People looked at him with horrible looks. Ern's eyes softened. he slowly got up from his bed. People are still watching his actions. He immediately sat up and hugged his knees. realized that the girl he saw was sane again. those who watched Ern slowly left and continued their respective activities.

Ern didn't move. Ern's eyes stared blankly. The feeling is empty, only darkness is around him. he keeps hugging the crook trying to take cover for himself. For more than an hour Ern didn't move at all. No one dared to approach him. Ern's story has been circulating by word of mouth. Ern knows that he is not a human who deserves to be with him. A few moments later a policeman gathered his courage to approach Ern. Maybe someone has called the police. "I'll take you to the inn." hearing that sentence ern relieved. Finally he could sleep soundly. His mind said so. "let." The hand gripped Ern's arm gently. After a long time he was in the police car that almost broke his ear. they lit the police car sign loudly. Ern felt he was like a criminal. For the first time he hated the police. "You can get off here." Said the policeman very curtly. Ern felt like he really wanted to slap the cop really hard. Like the previous master smith. in front of pretending to be good. In fact it's all lies. The police car drove so fast that the wind blew Ern felt it. he lives alone. His eyes started to feel heavy. He wanted to lay down immediately. but where? "hey come here son." Ern looked for a female voice he heard. His eyes found the figure. Ern approached with a hug. he started to feel cold again. justin's image flashed through his mind. His head started to spin because he was trying to get Justin out of his mind. At a time like this. Ern rejected her feelings for Justin. now his steps began to slow down until finally the figure of a woman who approached Ern. "It's getting late. This inn will be closing soon." Heard the word lodging. His eyes searched for the building he would occupy. Appropriate. He saw it. but in front of him lined up several people then the officer guarding him ordered that the people immediately enter the inn. Including Ern and the woman beside him.

Ern couldn't believe now that he was staying at this place. lodging for poor people like himself. Upon entering the large room. Ern's eyes looked with pity. Too many people to occupy the bed bed. some of them fight over the bed. Some of them were badly dressed. Adults using heavy backpacks volunteered to sleep on the floor. The old grandmother tried to lie down on the ugly bed hugging the knitted cloth. "Oh my God.." Ern's mouth spoke. His heart was sliced. He remembered clearly his grandmother who had left him. His eyes returned to see several people gathered themselves in their place. It looks like it's a family. There was no trace of sadness that radiated from the family. only happiness ern saw. "If only I could pass this test with someone I really care about in this life. Whoever it is. I certainly wouldn't be this fragile." "hey you!" his shoulders rose for a moment. Then down again. The voice startled Ern's reverie. "You have to go to bed as soon as possible! Tomorrow morning at 7 you have to leave this place. Got it?" the big man said. "Why so?" "That's how stupid the rules are!" Ern lowered her head to hide her hair behind her ear. "Don't worry tomorrow there will be food." "OK." Ern's feet stepped forcefully. He is looking for an empty space to lay down. a little trouble because some people were fast asleep on the floor with their blankets. Unfortunately he forgot to ask the guard for clothes. His clothes were still very wet. He couldn't sleep in wet clothes like this. Finally he turned around intending to ask the guard for clothes. Even though Ern doesn't really know whether there are clothes or not. Even if he wears dirty clothes, the important thing is dry. "hey you just stand up! sleep fool!" Tep. The lights were turned off instantly Ern couldn't move. Hearing the guard's voice, his heart skipped a beat. He was afraid. finally ern fingered it with his hand. maybe someone is nearby. His eyes couldn't see anything except a small light that appeared in a hole in the roof. He was lucky where he stood there was little room for him to lie down. regardless of anything he fell asleep. Even though her body is cold.

The sun was beginning to emerge through the worn window. Some people line up to queue to eat then go out. Ern is very hungry. he couldn't have waited in line. His mind remembered the money Mr. Smith gave him. His hand reached into his skirt pocket. In the end, the bills didn't disappear. Soon he might get out of the inn. He walked past several places serving food. He is looking for the cheapest food. His steps stopped when he heard the news on the tv. (a man and a child were in the car. due to a bomb on street number six. The red car exploded instantly. The condition of the bodies of the man and his son could not be identified. Considering the charred bodies and some parts of their bodies were melted.) "Am I the cause of it all?" His lips trembled as he spoke the sentence. His heart shattered as his breath began to weaken. Regret that he couldn't save the man. she should have been able to endure the painful reaction then chased the man before getting into the car. Ern's guilt pierced his heart. Now his body began to shiver until it spread to his stomach. Ern hasn't eaten anything since last night. Worms in his stomach blindly. Ern quickly braced herself to drag her feet. Ern can't just be weak. He had only walked a few steps. he realized that the humans around him glared at him in disgust. Ern is desperate to buy food. How could he be in such a clean place. he was afraid of those who at home saw himself unfit to join them. their gazes were like killing Ern's guts to stay alive. They looked like Ern deserved to live like that. and the police who helped him last night didn't really care about him at this time. "Pretending to be an angel. I hope that cop will die on that road." Ern said quietly. He was fed up with people like that.