Page.6.Humans Cannot Choose Their Happiness

After the two peoples kissed intently in the park, they returned to Chu Yana's place in the female dormitory.

The distance is a bit far from Zhengzhou University. So, they used a taxi to go there. Public buses may have a low cost if you use an electronic Voucher Card.

But, now is a rush hour to go home from work, so there are many private and government office workers who use this mass transit.

They call a taxi that is white. The taxi driver was an old man with a bald head in front of his hair. The man was not too concerned about the lovers' conversation. He just keeps driving without paying attention to anything.

Maybe he had thought that meddling in someone else's business was not wise.

Chu Yana sat beside Xi.

Chu Yana held Xi's right hand, as if she didn't want to let go of her hand forever. She also leaned her head on Xi's shoulder.

She really sticks like a magnet.

The longing that Chu Yana had made her do that.

Longing can make people crazy. At least some humans have thought like Chu Yana.

Xi bowed his head.

His expression changed.

The sadness he had buried still remained in his heart. So, he thought of saying a little honesty about his father's death.

"Father ... He died of cancer ... "

"..."

Chu Yana just stared without speaking a word.

" I never thought that my father would hide everything from us. ... "

"He was only fussy when he experienced small things ... I remember ...when my father had fallen in the bathroom, he was fussy and grumbled at me for forgetting to clean the bathroom ... "

"So I just covered my ears when he grumbles, even my own mother isn't fussy like daddy ... It happened maybe when I was ten or eleven ... I don't really remember about it. "

"I also remember ... that my father will sometimes be very stingy to me. He always never gave more pocket money for me. He even seldom bought me a toy that I like. Maybe, as a small farming family in a village made him must be a very frugal person."

"But, my father often bought my favorite food ... the red bean cake ... the red bean cake is not too expensive. That's around 100 Yuan per pack. But, my father who often save money never forget to buy my favorite food when he goes to town ..."

"When I asked the reason why he always bought my favorite food... My father just replied,that he has wanted of his son would be fatter, then turned to be an ugly boy. "

" so the girls in the village would not be jealous of the girl who would become my wife ... "

"I never thought of that at all ... at that time I was a child. So, I just laughed at my father's words. He said the real thing he was thinking ... "

Xi stared out of the window.

He saw the view of the city from behind the glass window of the taxi. The scenery is the busy city of Zhengzhou, many peoples who have their own business.

It was a busy and slightly cloudy afternoon. Until finally, the cloud turned into a raindrop. As if God gave the same picture as Xi's heart mood which was dark because of the sadness and betrayal he experienced.

"People have told me that life is a little unfair ... A good person will go first to leave evil people ... The hero will die leaving the people who love him ... leaving the people who hail him. bad people continue to live, they will continue to frighten and hurt other people ... I believe about that now ... "

Xi looked at the scenery of Zhengzhou city.

As if there were no buildings and people. He stared and looked empty in his eyes. The emptiness that makes his heart fragile.

"I do not expect the words of the people to be true ... I hope there is no death from a good and fussy person like father ... I hope he sees me form a new family, I hope he holds my child, I hope he becomes a fussy old grandfather in my mind.…"

"..."

"However, all of that is hope ... nothing will happen after Father's death ..."

Xi rubbed the side of the taxi window.

He can see it from the seep rainwater of the taxi window. He rubbed the dew as if the dew on the glass was his pain.

***

The taxi stopped at a six-story building.

It is a female dormitory.

The female dormitory is not as strict as a Zhengzhou University dormitory. So, they let college students bring boyfriends and relatives to visit as guests.

"Please enter ..."

Chu Yana said as soon as she opened the door to her room.

Xi does often come to this place. He visited this place just to chat or chit. He knew that Chu Yana lived with Lin Yi. Lin Yi is Chu Yana's best friend, she is from Beijing and is the same study program as Chu Yana.

Xi may not be too familiar with Lin Yi. However, Xi considers that Lin Yi is a friendly person, so he also respects the twintail haired girl.

"Sorry to disturb ..."

Xi entered, he removed the flip-flops on the shoe rack.

The room smelled of green tea. Maybe, Chu Yana was boiling something in the kitchen.

So, Xi just sat near a chair near the study table.

"Do you like green tea or coffee, hubby?"

Chu Yana asked from behind the kitchen.

Her voice is quite clear.

I don't mind anything as long as it's delicious. "

"You really are not picky besides food like red bean cake, hubby ..."

"Hehehe…"

It was about fifteen minutes until Chu Yana returned from the kitchen.

She brought a cup of green tea and a plate of red bean cake.

"Sorry to make you wait, hubby."

Xi shook his head.

"Are you not interested in drinking tea so you only serve a cup here?"

Xi asked.

Chu Yana shook her head.

"No ... before I go to your place, I already drank the same thing with Professor Li Yuan."

"Professor Li Yuan?"

"Yeah…"

"Do you have business with her?"

Chu Yana shook her head.

"No ... the processor came to visit his student, I thought he was trying too hard."

- Legal Loli?

-Since when did she pay too much attention to others people ? Is she really like that? If I thought, she is indeed a little different from most people.

-Why am I thinking too much about Li Yuan now? Is it because she has been so attentive to me?

"Do you know the news of the death of my father from Li Yuan?"

Chu Yana nodded slowly.

"Ya, she said it ..."

"Thankfully…"

***

Chu Yana behaving weird after their brief chat.

Chu Yana seemed to be thinking about something in her head.

Her face turned slightly red and her expression wavered.

"Do you need something, so you look at me like that?"

Xi was confused by Chu Yana's behavior.

Chu Yana just nodded.

"If you don't have a problem ... if you want now do it... I won't mind ..."

Chu Yana confuses Xi.

"No problem? Want it now? What do you mean, honey?"

"I ... I ... I want to make love with you ..."

The atmosphere changes instantly.

Xi can't say anything.

-You have slept with another man.

- And now you want me to make love with you?

- Are you so immoral?

- Are you not aware of everything?

- Do you not regret your actions?

-Chu Yana ... You are truly heartless.

-You have gone too far.

Xi looks into Chu Yana's eyes.

He was saw everything on Chu Yana eyes.

It is a compulsion that someone has.

However, Xi did not realize that this was what this girl wanted.

That is the selfishness of this girl, so that the love she has is not lost.

So that the person most girl loves will not leave herself alone.

This girl doesn't want everything, she just wants Xi to remain hers, only hers.

I have seen that.

I've seen all that for a long time.

That is a form of how humans love each other ...

Humans don't want what they have gone away.

They are greedy, they cannot be honest with themselves.

That, everything that was created by God they must choose one of them.

That is happiness and one of them is unhappiness.

Humans cannot choose their happiness.

They foolishly think that this world is a flower garden. They are stupid to think that happiness comes from God.

They are stupid, they do not know when someone is happy there is someone who is hurt by happiness.

Happiness is not given and obtained easily.

The happiness was stolen from other people.

***

The boy tilted his head.

"Stolen? I don't understand, Lucifer ..."

He looked confused as one of his fingers pressed against his forehead.

The man just smiled. He knew that this boy hadn't seen everything.

"Yes ... The happiness was indeed stolen from someone else."

"I still don't understand ..."

"Have you ever seen someone who is always happy?"

"No ... I've never seen it."

" I saw sometimes my mother who always cheerful has crying because of my father ... "

"I don't know for sure. Every time my father comes home late, my mother will always cry."

The man nodded.

"That's what I meant ..."

"every happiness that people have taken from other people."

"There is someone who is happy from your mother's sadness ... So, your mother's happiness was stolen by that person."

"Stolen ... Who is the person who stole it, Lucifer? I would be angry if that person made my mother cry again!"

The boy said angrily.

He inflated his cheeks and his cheeks turned red.

The boy looks like an angry Tsundere character.

The man just put his hand on the boy's hair.

Then, he rubbed the boy's hair.

"You will know later when you grow up ... now, listen to the story I read to you, okay?"

"En."

The boy nodded.

"Well ... I'll read it to you again ..."