JUN| slowly drifting, drifting away

I stop every now and then

I stop because you're gone

and I grow empty

And there are no more words

left within me

it is bliss

and haven't I always wanted this peace

this break

from you

from us

get out

I told you to

get the fuck out

and once you had finally listened

we were no more

If I am honest

I didn't think that you would have listened

I'd thought that we'd be going four steps backwards and

two steps forwards

because

that's our way of moving, right?

through holding each other back?

that was our way of love

and that was why it had lasted for so long

so when I said to go

I did not believe that you would actually leave

and

as much as I wanted you to go

there was a small part of me that thought

nah

I will stay

because I'm in love with you

and I will fight because

I love you

war was our way of showing one another that we loved

it was war

and it was chaos

it wasn't smooth sailing

when has love ever been so smooth sailing?

As you leave

My mind goes on a tangent

I'm not sure where to but it's not here

I'm not here

And so are my words

So is my voice

I am fading

- dissipate