Chapter 11

"Jealousy and prestige must be controlled, so as not to spoil everything,"

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After they finished cleaning up the art performance, Alysa immediately looked for Dirgan's whereabouts again, for some reason it felt like the girl had to find Dirgan. The girl did not stop contacting Dirgan. Only the library she had not visited, Alysa was sure not sure that the man was in the library but the girl's heart told her that she had to go in looking for him.

He turned on the library light which had not been turned on since morning, he entered and began to search for Dirgan's whereabouts. He decided to look into the rows of novel bookshelves, because he had met the man there.

Very lucky, Alysa found the man sitting leaning on the bookshelf. The girl equalized the man's position, sitting leaning on the bookshelf.

"Happy today?" asked the man curtly.

"According to brother?" Asked the girl back while looking at Dirgan.

The man looked back at Alysa, now they stared at each other for a very long time.

"You, I don't understand my heart, I also don't understand your attitude. I don't understand everything about your heart," said the girl while holding back her tears.

Dirgan turned his gaze away from Alysa, he did not pay attention to the girl's explanation. The man slightly moved away, keeping a distance between himself and Alysa. Seeing Dirgan's attitude which seemed to be avoiding her, the girl concluded that the man might be alone. He started to get up from his seat.

"If you don't want me here, that's okay, I'll go,"

The man was still silent and did not answer Alysa's words. The girl began to leave Dirgan.

"Why did you look like that with the King? Are you deliberately making me jealous?"

The words from the dirgan's mouth stopped him. The girl turned back to Dirgan.

"You, it's just being professional, I'm just showing it,"

"So? Why does it have to be like that? Hugs? Do you like Raka?"

Alysa sat back next to Dirgan, she took a deep breath and explained why there was such a display. The look was suggested by her best friend Karin.

He also couldn't refuse because the girl only wanted to show the best. Alysa also did not know that this would make Dirgan act like this.

"But you know that I will be on the edge of the stage. I will set your appearance so that it will appear on YouTube and Instagram. So why don't you think about my feelings after you know I like you?" Ask the Director.

"If you like me, why are you always avoiding me during this preparation? You don't even greet me at all?" Ask the girl back.

Dirgan started to sit in front of Alysa, the man held Alysa's hand, no more words came out of Dirgan, Alysa couldn't help but cry, all the tears burst out of the girl's eyes, she couldn't hold back what she had been hiding all this time.

At the peak of his high school years he was not ready to be faced with emotional problems.

Seeing the girl crying, Dirgan became more and more restless. He tried to calm the girl but Alysa didn't stop crying, Alysa let go of her grip and hugged her knees.

"Sa, I'm sorry, because of my childish attitude you think like this. I didn't mean it, I also don't know what I'm doing right or wrong. I'm starting to love you now I don't like you anymore, I'm always jealous I see Raka beside you, but I can't do anything, I can't change this situation because I know our role is important in the student council and I don't want the student council image to be ruined because of my selfishness,"

Dirgan grabbed the girl's hand again and took a deep breath, the man continued his conversation with Alysa.

"Sa, you know why at that time Raka was at your house? He took the role of taking care of you at that time, and I couldn't do anything. I'm still too naive to say I like you to Raka so he knows how my heart is , but I was the first Raka who told me that he likes you. I can't choose between you and Raka, you are both equally important in my life,"

Now Dirgan leaned back against the bookshelf and rested his head on Alysa's shoulder.

"Sa, do I have to give you up for Raka?"

Alysa shook her head, she couldn't make up her mind at that time.

"You, just so you know, I really feel happy when Raka is always by my side but I also feel comfortable having Dirgan beside me. So what can I decide now? I just don't know how I feel,"

"Listen to me carefully, this is the first time I'm with a girl. For whatever reason, it's up to you whether you want to believe it or not. So far, no one has been able to melt my heart except you. You came into my life giving me a new color. I'm ready to make your choice, please let me know right away. Whatever your decision will be, I accept it gracefully. I want you to be happy,"

Alysa just nodded her head when she heard the dirgan's words. The man looked at the girl and smiled letting her know that he was being sincere.

There is an incoming message from Raka, he asks where Alysa is, the girl has not answered the message. Dirgan asked Alysa to stand and leave the library. If someone sees it later, maybe Alysa will become a student month. However, Alysa held Dirgan's hand as he was about to be invited out.

"Can you hug me now?" Asked Alysa full of hope.

The man looked at Alysa lovingly, "Please …" Beg the girl to Dirgan.

Dirgan immediately hugged the girl when she asked him to. They let go of each other's ego in that warm embrace. I don't know if this will be the first and last hug or it will be the beginning of their embrace.

Alysa just wants to feel comfortable for now, and Dirgan's hug is what makes her comfortable. He wept bitterly in that moment. Until finally he let go of her hand.

"It's okay Sa, don't cry anymore. You don't have to rush everything," Dirgan said while wiping the girl's tears and then brought Alysa out of the library.

When they came out of the library, Karin, Alysa's best friend, was about to enter. Alysa came out with black eyes and a slightly hoarse voice. Karin asked about Alysa's condition.

Dirgan explained that Alysa fell asleep on the library floor because she was tired and Dirgan found the girl when she was about to return the book.

Dirgan took Alysa's hand and planned to take the girl home, but on the way he met Raka. the man proposed that he should take Alysa home, again Dirgan relented and let the girl be escorted by his best friend.

Just as he got out of Raka's car and was about to enter his house, Dirgan came. It turned out that the man was following him from behind.

Dirgan invites Alysa to go around at night for a moment. Without thinking the girl followed Dirgan's invitation. The two of them went around enjoying the beautiful night in the city of Jakarta, even though they were complicated with their respective hearts, they also had to calmly make a choice, especially regarding feelings.

Tonight might be the last night of fun before the midterms start next week.

Dirgan glanced at the beautiful face of Alysa, the girl he loved. A genuine smile appeared on the man's lips.

"I know this feeling is not wrong, therefore I will continue to dare myself to accept and wait for you," muttered the Director.

Alysa who faintly heard Dirgan's muttering, slightly leaned her ear towards Dirgan.

"Brother said something?" Asked Alysa who was behind the wheel of Dirgan.