WHY AM I LIKE THIS?

- Tsing University's Dormitory -

"Xiao Yi! Why are you crying? Look, your eyes and cheeks were so flushed!"

"Did that bastard Zhang Feng bullied you again?"

As soon as she reached her dorm, she tried her best to hide her tears.

"Ahhh ShenYi don't prevent yourself from crying. Just release it. Me and Xiao Ri will be here for you."

After hearing Yu Li, her heart was softened. She continued to cry. Although she was having a hard time breathing, she managed to ask the two.

"X-Xiao Ri, Xiao Li.... D-do you accept me for.... who I am?"

The two were confused. But they still managed to answer in chorus.

"Yes Xiao Yi!"

"E-even though you will discover something..... b-bad from me, will you still remain.... as my friend?"

"ShenYi ah, what's the matter? Tell us. We're ready to listen."

ShenYi calmed down a bit before answering them.

"Don't think much about who bullied me. But please listen to my story. This was the first time I'm going to tell anybody about my past."

ShenYi told the two all events in her past. Including the wrong accusation and being dumped out. Yu Li and Han Ri felt bad for her.

"Humph! I really hate those scheming people! I hate them to the core!"

"Xiao Yi, don't worry. Although I also judged you falsely in the past, now, I'm your ally. As long as we are here, including Yang Ge, we will make you happy."

"Right! It's Saturday tomorrow, let's go to amusement park!"

ShenYi smiled as she was looking at the two.

"Guys, I think it's time for us to rest. We can still be happy inside our dorm right? I think also that I need to reflect on something."

"Hao! ShenYi, your wish is my command."

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"Fucking shit! I was wrong! Oh, Zhang Feng, you're so dumb! You already judged her by only knowing a one-sided story! You're so stupid!"

Zhang Feng kept on cursing himself as he was punching the steering wheel.

"Shit! Why can't you just follow the plan? That you're going to make things okay between you two, and even apologize to her. Now you even made her cry!"

He drove away and immediately went into his wine cellar after reaching his house. He started to drink a glass. Until a glass became ten shots, up to twenty shots. But it didn't made him dizzy.

"Why do I feel like there's something bad happened with her in the past? It seems like the way she act into everything is because of her past? Urgh! ShenYi, what's with you that you kept on troubling me?"

He opened his Weibo and saw ShenYi's update. It was a photo of a blank paper with a black dot on the center.

It captioned,

'Even if you tried to make the best appearance of you, most people will point out even the smallest blemishes that you have.'

Zhang Feng felt a pang in his heart once again. He was in deep thought why he was greatly affected by ShenYi.

'Earlier, when I saw her on top of me I couldn't help but to be in daze for a while. But when she shows disgust towards me I can't help but be mad at myself. Am I not attractive enough?'

'When I saw her in a verge of crying all I felt is pain and regret. Urgh, that ShenYi do really make me feel like I'm in a roller coaster of emotions.'

Suddenly, he thought.

'Wait what am I thinking about? Oh shit! This can't be true! Urgh, why am I like this?'

He soon dialed his two friends.

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-Tsing University's dormitory-

ShenYi was in daze as she was lying in her bed, staring blankly at the ceiling.

Zhang Feng's remarks recalled in her mind.

'Why don't you kill me like what you did in the past?'

Tears flowed from her eyes without her knowing.

'Why? Why I was hurt so bad when he said those words? I already accustomed myself to those kind of accusations and mockery, but why I felt pain when I heard it from him? Why do I suddenly hate myself when he was the one who's judging me?'

But she suddenly recalled the moment when Zhang Feng was under her.

She subconsciously hid the half of her face under the blanket.

'What?! I am blushing! Why am I like this?'

While she was trying to maintain a poker face, Yu Li suddenly approached her. Wanting to hide her flushed face, she pretended to be asleep.

"Xiao Yi! To lighten up your mood, I'm going to invite you to play this-"

Yu Li noticed her red cheeks and reached for her forehead.

"Xiao Yi! Do you have fever?! Wait I'll get those medicines in the cabinet!"