42 CH.41 First Step To Godhood

Different could not describe the way that I was feeling right now, it felt like the most splitting headache that I had and that's saying something because in the past months I have had some headaches.

Those headaches were from learning how to deal with prayers, the more followers that I got the more prayers that I heard, and with the number of prayers that I was hearing it was honestly almost impossible for me not to go crazy.

I could of went with the capital G gods idea and just ignored them, but I did not want to do that to my followers, I did not want a god that ignored his followers when they needed him. So, I went into my mind and develop a way to sort out those prayers, this task was very painful and was just trial and error as I had no one to help guide me.

But that matter not as I soon found a way to control those prayers, the way that I did this was to rewrite my brain and subconscious. This took a week of me purely focusing on this but after that week I did it, I rewrote my brain and subconscious with hours of meditation and divinity.

Now that it works even though I receive prayer, my subconscious will sort them out and assign importance to them. Such as if it's just someone doing daily prayer or someone praying to save their lives, this took a lot of willpower to do and I would get awful headaches because of this.

But nothing could compare to this headache, as I tried to find what was wrong with me and after a few hours of looking inside my soul and body I figured it out. I was transforming into a god or at least something closer to a god, right now I was a demigod but with my new cult, I was bound to become a god I just did not think it was so soon.

"why is this happening now, I at least thought it would happen after a few years or until I got a bigger following," I said on the bed groaning.

I racked my mind to figure out what was going on, and then it hit me, yesterday I transformed jack into an ending in front of two hundred people. These people although they were already my followers, saw me, their god transform a dying man into a being stronger than humans, it was me raising the dead.

They might have been devoted to me before but now they will die for me, such devotion and belief made a catalyst for my change into godhood. Now all I have to do is wait as I get more followers, the more followers I get the closer I will get to godhood.

"sigh, I get that but why does this hurt so much," I said still groaning.

I said this but I knew why it hurts, my body while still having divinity, still has a mortal part to it and for me to become a god, that mortal part has to die. And so my power will be killing my nondivine cells and tissues and replacing them with divine cells and tissues, and this process hurt like hell.

This process went on for the week and almost every hour I got really hungry, my cells were being broken down and being recreated and I needed a huge amount of energy. Seeing this I decided on something, it's been forever since I had a break of sorts, it's always been me working towards a goal of sorts, always me training or overlooking someone.

I've spent so much time doing that I haven't had time to enjoy myself and as much as I was devoted to my quest of saving my mother, I needed to rest whether I liked it or not. So taking this opportunity, I ordered some movies, video games, and just about anything a person my age would find fun, after that, I order a massive amount of junk food and ate like there was no tomorrow.

This was how I spent my week, eating junk food, playing games, and just relaxing in general, it was a nice weekend, and doing those things took my mind off the pain that I was feeling. It also showed me just how much I was pushing myself, as it took me two days for me to relax, as my whole body just couldn't stay still.

I knew this was the ADHD, but I found a way to control that a long time ago, no this was just my stubbornness, I subconsciously did not want to relax and just wanted to keep working, in basic terms I somehow managed to brainwash myself into thinking that what I was doing was healthy.

After seeing that I decided from now on to take a break and give myself time to breathe, as much as I wanted to save mother, she would be happy if I didn't take care of myself.

After a week of relaxing the pain of my transformation stopped for now, and the only thing that I noticed that physically changed was that my hair got somewhat longer. Sign this I went to the barbershop to get a haircut; this was when I noticed the second that changed.

I knew that I was a handsome person, and I knew that people would get attracted to me, but most would be too scared to approach me with my aura being scary but now it would seem that my transformation brought me the aura of the gods. It was the aura that made a person feel an attraction towards a god, no matter how much one would try to hide it you just can't hide the feeling of power.

And because of this I had a lot of people and even freaking animals bothering me during the time I went to get my haircut. It was safe to say that being a god might have some downsides.

'Ugh why me'