Paying Life Debts (BL)

(A/N: in the story, '....' means characters thought in their head, [...] system talking with its host ) pls: this chapter is a little long, so please bear with it and there will someplace with grammatically wrong or misusing the vocabulary and its spelling.

[7:02 pm]

In the center of a bustling city, the speeding sound of the motorbike was heard all the way. Without anyone knowing, the driver is silently crying while speeding up. The driver didn't care whether, in front of has a big truck filled with goods, the one thing she cared about was getting away as soon as possible.

She drove past the path that went to her house and rode all the way through many kilometers far. She speeded up like the last time of the life driving this fast. The speed meter has shown that the speed had way past 100 km/hour. She turned left and right and managed to go through tight traffic in a blink of an eye.

Suddenly she stopped in the middle of the bridge, took off her helmet, and climb off the motorbike. She walked to the rail and took a look at the river. She sighed again and again but the tear kept flowing like there was no tomorrow. "Why?" she asked herself but the answer didn't come out. Her memories rewind to 30 minutes ago.

30 minutes ago

In the classroom where there were only one boy and one girl sitting in front of each other starring into each other eyes. The boy opened the mouth to speak first, "Why did you lie to me?"

"Did you ask me to be here to ask this question?" She asked him back with the same face that the boy was doing.

"Then why did you meet up with your ex?" He asked with an expressionless face but deep inside he was hurt.

"So all in all you don't trust me." She broke the eye contact and look a different direction then she continued, "Fine, let's break up!"

He startled a little bit but regained the calm reaction then he started to talk again but it was interrupted by the sudden loud voice.

"No need to say anything, I understand what you are trying to talk about. I'm sorry for all this time ever since we started being a couple.", she continued " Let's us walk separate way and I hope you can find a better girlfriend than me." She left the room without turning back to see the boy that left alone in the room. She was running to get her motorbike and started the engine.

After it started, she speeded it up as fast as she can and her tear started to flowing down to her cheek one by one until it was like the river is flowing with no gaped between each drop. She knew that she was unreasonable and she couldn't help but felt upset about it.

Back to the current situation

She was still crying like there was no tomorrow. After a while, the tear had nearly all dried so she recollected herself and was ready to go back home. She started the engine and turned back to where she had driven past. After she turned the motorbike's head, she didn't see the coming truck, so she crashed into a truck straight. At that moment all she could think of is 'Shit'.

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She opened her eyes and saw the surrounding was all white. She sat up and thought to herself 'What is this place?'.

She looked around again and suddenly hear a voice out of nowhere say something to her but she couldn't hear it very clearly. She tried again and the sound suddenly shouted at her.

[Test Test 1 2 3, Can you hear me ?] A cute child voice spoke up, and it sounded a little funny.

She startled and look around again and she saw that there was no one in here except herself. Did she just hallucinate? She was thinking about this and suddenly the voice talked again. [You are not hallucinated anything!]

Then, she thought again, did she in a dream? She thought it was right and nodded her head.' It seems I'm dreaming.'

[How many times did I need to tell you that this isn't a dream or hallucination or anything. This is real. And now I tell you what, You are dead.] The child's voice talked a little bit angry. How dare she thought itself was a hallucination. How humiliated.

She widened her eyes and said, "What?"

[YOU are Dead!] The child's voice once again declared the truth to her again.

After she heard what that child had said, she broke into tears. Her eyes shed tears and it started to drop like there was no tomorrow, "H...Ho...How?" she asked with a trembling voice.

[Well as you know accident on the road happened often, and you are in that situation. Your motorbike crashed into the truck. So do you. That is to say, your body was blown away from the explosion and hit the rock on your head and that cause you a sudden death. In that accident itself, you accidentally made 9 innocent people died along with you. So your sins are quite heavy to lifted and that includes all the things that you've done in the past.] The child's voice explained step by step how did she die while she was sobbing harder and harder.

The child waited until she calmed herself down and spoke to her. [However, don't you worry! We have given you a chance to redeem yourself by fulfilling those people's wishes, so that will erase your sin and you can reincarnate again because your life hasn't come to an end yet.]

It revealed itself as a black round ball with a soft in front of her looked at her with its crystal blue eyes.

After she heard what the child said, she wiped her tears with the shirt sleeve and looked into its eyes dumbfound and said, "Can you do me a favor before we go through that stuff?"

The creature's eyebrows were frowned upon but then released it afterward and said to her, [Alright, what is it?]

She hesitated a bit then she opened her mouth. "Can I meet my family and that person for the last time?"

The creature hesitated a bit and thought whether it should gain this favor or not. After pursed his thought for a while it replied to her. [Alright! Just a short time because we need to go through with all the process of your mission.]

After the cute creature spoke out the light came from its body and shining like a sun, blinded her eyes and make her quickly shut her eyes. After a short while, she slowly opened her eyes and spotted that she was above her house. She descended till she hit the ground and slowly walked into her sweet home.

She noticed nobody in the house, then slowly her emotion built up again and she broke into tears.

This time she cried her heart out, the pain in her heart slowly merged her feeling and make her felt even more miserable. 'It's freaking hurt!'. She stepped out of the hallway and went into her parents' room. She took out the paper and began to write.

Dear everyone,

When you see this letter, it means that I'm not in this world anymore. I'm sorry that I didn't bid farewell. I'm sorry for what I've done to make you sad, disappointed in me, and make you angry all the time. Honestly, I really like everyone so much even though I never say it out loud nor express it with words or actions. It's too embarrassing. So I hope everyone doesn't be sad over my death. I'm happy to be born with all of you. If I could, I wish that in my next life I could be born to be your daughter, your niece, your sister, your cousin, your granddaughter again. Please take care of your health and don't worry about me. I'll be fine. Love you

From Autumn

After that, she put the letter on the bedsheet and left the room, and walked out of the house. She took a step forward from the gate and turned to look back. 'Good Bye!' She proceeded to her next destination, her boyfriend, now ex-boyfriend.

She arrived at his house and began to look for his room. She took the stairs and turn left and she noticed a door room with the name on it. 'Nathan'.

Just as she about to knock on the door, it swung open. There was a 5'11" tall boy with brown curly hair, dark brown eyes, wearing a white shirt with black pants. Nathan was startled then he widened his eyes and uttered her name. "Autumn?", he added, "Whatcha doing here?"

She gave him a small smile when she heard her name. He regained himself from shock to his calm attitude and looked at her in the eyes. "I have something to tell you." She returned his gaze.

"What is it? Don't we done it already?" He sneered at her and looked away and crossed his arm to his chest.

"I'm really sorry for what I did and...." She pursed then she continued, "You are the one that I love the most in my life as a woman. I used to dream that we are together as a husband and wife and our children. You and I are together forever till death does us part."

Nathan froze as he stood still in front of his bedroom door without knowing what to do nor replied back. He continued to stare at her.

"But now we weren't meant to be together. So for the last time, I'm sorry and I thank you. Please do take care of yourself and find someone that she will love you more than me. farewell, Nathan, I loved you." After she finished her speech, her soul slowly disappeared from his sight. She gave one last smile and completely vanished.

He woke up from his shock and started to search for her, shouted her name multiply times but what he got is nothing. Then his phone rang, he picked up the phone from his pocket and saw that it was his friend, Rita who was calling. He pressed the answer button and put it near his ear.

"Hello, Nathan! Please listen to me first, don't be shocked about this." The other voice sounded so anxious as she spoke.

"Okay, What happened?" He replied back with worried.

"It is about Autumn!" She was trembling as she spoke.

"What's about Autumn? She just talked with me a moment ago."

"What? Are you serious?"

"Yeah"

"But how can it be? Autumn was announced dead 10 hours ago, and I'm right here at her funeral after they had found her dead because of a traffic accident."

His hand dropped the phone and he started to think back to the strange phenomenon about Autumn a moment ago that she vanished out of nowhere after she talked with him. He dropped to his knee on the ground however, he felt no pain. He slowly took his hand and put it on his left chest and scream out loud but there was no voice come out from his mouth.

"So that was your last goodbye to me before you're going. I should have at least..... at least... say something..."

The tears of a man were flowing nonstop like a river.

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She opened up my eyes again. She didn't know how many times she had to close it suddenly and needed to open it again. She adjusted her emotion and look around the white space. She suddenly noticed that she was in the same place again, the place that everything was all white and endless. she walked for a little bit and suddenly the same creature that she found it's cute spoke to her again.

[Now let me introduce myself again. Good day, host! Nice to meet you! I'm system that goes by No. 911 is at your service.] It sounded so crispy that made her felt like to have a taste of it.

She turned right according to the sound and spotted the cute creature was floating behind her with a chair on it right placed on the ground in front of her. She walked to it and keep staring at the fur of the creature.

[Take a seat, I don't want you to stand to listen to me.] It used its body circle around the chair to indicate her to sit there.

She took a seat and then she turned her head in the direction of the black creature. "Who are you? Where I am?" Her voice was a little bit low than she used to talk.

[First, I am the system. You are my host. Second, you are in the Madwell realm. Whenever you finish your mission, your soul will return here.]

After its speech was finished, she nodded slightly. Just as her about to spoke again, The black creature who was the system interrupted her. [Host, did you know that your accident has killed 9 innocent people on spot and make them dying with you?]

She found herself speechless of what the creature had told her. Suddenly, she felt very guilty. Due to her selfishness, she had dragged down other people with her.

[Well I'm here to help you. You have to pay these debts before you can start a new life. As you have made 9 people dying, you will be sent to 9 different life to make it up for them and of course live their lives to the maximum. If they have any regrets or wishes, you must complete for them. No failure.]

She nodded and she thought this was good. She could repay them and could enjoy being alive again. However, she never thought that all of them are male.

[Let's go my host!]