Painful Addiction
"What happens when a nerdy girl falls for a playboy?" "They say that pain is a sign of weakness leaving your body but in my case, it's a clamp that refuses to let go of my heart no matter how hard I try." Chisom has had a complicated life but when she meets him, the world seems brighter and everything feels a thousand times better. Even though Chisom masquerades as the strongest person she knows with nothing being able to move her, deep down, her emotions are as fragile as an egg: easily shattered. Meeting him was one of the best things to happen to her. He was her first love but would he be her last?
Freedom?
At least, I thought I did.
Initially, I wanted to. I wanted him to feel just a margin of the pain he had made me feel since I met him.
If I could not hurt him emotionally, then physical pain would have to suffice.
However, I didn't.
Instead, I said, "I see. Why haven't you? You usually tell me all about her."
Scratching his chin, he replied, "Yeah, but you know…when you like someone so much and you know that what you tell them could hurt them, especially when that thing you want to tell them doesn't even exist anymore, you wouldn't have the heart to do it. Wouldn't you agree?"
"Of course."
After a beat, I added, "I wish you could have had this philosophy before."
Something like guilt flashed through his eyes but this time, it did nothing for me.