Feel Uneasy

"I still don't understand why you choice to avoid him. I think he ready to face the consequences of s decision. He is ready if his reputation is ruined for taking you away," I said sincerely. Xiaoying smilled and nodded. She poured tea for me. We sat on chairs while enjoying the glowing moon in balcony.

"Liu Wei, I know that he ready to face of the consequences. But, I am not ready. I can not bear to see him as a laughing stock," she said with wistfull eyes.

"I still don't understand. But, I admire your decision. I know your heart broken because it,"

"Thanks for your concern, Liu Wei,"

"I hope you will get your happiness too," I said and she nodded.

"Liu Wei, can I know your real name?" Xiaoying asked me. I nodded.

"My name Liu Fang. My surename Zhou,"

"Liu Fang? Your name have beautifull meaning. Fragrant. I love it. Can I know your reason? Why did you follow the selection?"

"I have beloved brother. He died three years ago. He have one wish. He want enter Military Royal Academy. I want to fulfill his wishes," I answered her. She nodded.

"Your parents? Are they know that you follow the selection?" she asked me.

"I just leave a letter to my father. I don't know his reaction after read my letter. Maybe he sad or maybe he don't care about me. After my brother died, he doesn't care about anythink. Even, he ignored me," I said. My heart feel heavy. Acctualy, I miss my father. I hope him well.

"I think you must send him a letter to confirm that your condition is well,"

"I will do it after I finish last selection stage," I said and she nodded.

"Liu Fang, I hope you can win," she look at me and smilled. I nodded. Then she watching the moon light. I saw her face. Her reason make me remember my brother words.

My brother once told me about love.

He said that love is a great feeling. Love make you strong. Love keeps you going through every situation. Even in the worst of problem, love keep you stand. Love is not self-seeking. People in love will think of the person they love. They wants their loved ones to be happy. They doesn't want their loved one to be sad or hurt.

Love makes you able to sacrifice yourself for the person you love.

When my brother said it to me four years ago, I don't understand. Listened Xiaoying's words, I understand a little. Because love, Xiaoying refuse the arrogant man. She love him so much. Because it, she sacrifice her chance to get freedom. She don't want her lover reputation ruined. I appreciete her feelings. Her love is sincere.

***

Today is bright. After eating my breakfeast in Inn, directly I go to selection place. This day is last selection. According to the announcement, today is one-on-one battle. I have been prepare myself during this week.

"Liu Wei. It's been a week we did not meet. How are you?" asked Zhang Shiyu when I arrived in selection place. He smilled. I stared him.

"Who are you?" I asked with sarcasm.

"Liu Wei, why you look angry with me?" he asked me. He frowned slightly.

"When I fight in brothel one weeks ago, you keep quiet. Why do not you separating us while fighting? You know if the selection knows the fight, I will be eliminated," I said. He smilled.

"Why you looks sentimental? If I help you figh with him or If I separed you, Miss Xiaoying will think that you are weak man. Because I did not help you, Miss Xiaoying take you to her rooms," He said. Heard his words, I want to kick him.

"I was lucky not to get caught by selection officer. If I get eliminated, I will make you suffer. Because your invitation, I get that problem," I speak seriously. But, he laughed.

"Okey. I am sorry because I did not help you. Don not be angry animore. We still friends, aren't?" He said. I sighed. Our point of view is different. There's no point if Iam angry. I nodded slightly.

"Hey, Liu Wei. How are you? Do you still meet Miss Xiaoying after that night?" asked Ma Hongqi who just arrived. I stared him. This man just like his bestfriend. Had narrow mindded.

"Hongqi, do not bother him," Zhang Shiyu said and kick her legs slightly.

"I never saw her again. Yesterday, I went there. House Spring's Madam said that Miss Xiaoying run away from there. No one know where she goes," I answered. Yesterday, I feel nervous about last stage. I went to House Springs to meet her. I want to chat with her to reduce my nervous. But, she is not there.

"Run away? Wow! That's big news," Ma Hongqi said loudly. Zhang Shiyu stared him.

"The brothel have tight security. I believe if she can escape from there because of someone's help," Zhang Shiyu said. I nodded. I hope that the person who help her is her childood sweatheart. Maybe he succesfull make her sure to run away from that brothel.

"Forget her! If you win and enter Military Royal Academy, you will get other woman. Trust me!" Ma Hongqi said and Zhang Shiyu kicked his legs again.

"Have you hear that our Wangye (Prince in first rank) will watch this final stage? I asked one ofofficer about this final stage. He said that our Wangye suddenly decided to watch it. This is gold chance to us. If we can draw his attention, he will put us in his troops," Zhang Shiyu said. He smilled.

"Oh, that is really gold chance," Ma Hongqi said. He smilled too.

" Which prince?" I asked.

"The Second Prince, Prince Zhiqiang," Zhang Shiyu answered my question. I nodded. I have heard news about him. He is prince born concubine. He have great reputation in war. Every body want to be his people. But suddenly I felt uneasy.