Chapter Eight

Later that night I went to the balcony to sit for a while and I heard noises.

I turned around to see Jake and I guess the blonde I saw not long ago in a hot make out session.

Seriously. Did this Dude forget he's engaged? Is this how he is? The moment his parents step away for a week and then he brings in his girlfriend while his fiancée is here sulking. I got so pissed.

They don't even notice me staring at them. He lifted her up and she wrapped her legs around his hips without breaking the kiss.

For a moment I imagined that was Jake and I before snapping back to my senses. I'm never letting him touch me the way he once did. Our sweet bed moments were over already.

This is so not acceptable. I watched him carry her to his room.

He's meant to be with me right now. Taking care of me. Making sure that I'm in good health at least for the child's sake but instead he's sucking off someone's face. I wasn't jealous, I'm only trying to point out his mistake. Or maybe I'm jealous. Yeah, maybe.

Only God knows what's going to happen next in that room. Silly. Of course I know. He's going to... oh no. I didn't want to think of it.

I just don't want to think of this now. Why do I even care? I'm not his girlfriend. We don't have any kind of relationship with each other. So he's free to do what he wants.

I walked back to my room and picked up my phone to dial Cheryl's number.

I dialed Cheryl's line.

When she didn't pick up I drop a message asking her to drop by after work tomorrow.

While she waited to be admitted into the college of her choice, she took up a job to keep her busy.

I pick up my novel and continued reading from where I stopped. How relaxed I feel when I read books. It just takes my mind away from the present.

I read about other people's love story and it's so intriguing. It's what every teenage girl wants but my case is different. My story had a big twist in it. I couldn't even experience love at all.

I have a fiance who was in between another lady's thighs.

It sucks to be me.

I want to be loved. I can't believe I just admitted that now. I want a love story that is so pleasing.

I want someone who can stay by me when I'm lonely. I want someone who can see through me even when I try so hard to hide my emotions. I want someone who will stand by me in difficult times. I want him. Jake. That's all.

Just then my phone vibrates.

Nate: I'm back in town princess.

OMG. I'm so glad Nate's back. At least that's someone who understands me. I began to tense up when I remembered I was pregnant. He doesn't know about it.

Me: I can't wait to see you. We need to talk.

Nate: Bad way to welcome your boyfriend. No problem. Tomorrow. I'll pick you up.

And I slept with the thought of Nate's reaction when I tell him I'm pregnant

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I felt happy today. I just didn't know why. I hoped no one spoils my mood.

Oh. I remember. My pregnancy will be four months today. How fast this baby is growing.

I want a boy. A baby boy that I'd be able to instill a lot of values in. One that would respect and worship the women around him because we are actually supposed to be worshipped.

He should take after his grandmother, Rose. Be cheerful just the way she always is.

I wanted him to have my eyes, after all, blue eyes are not so bad. Her father's hair. Definitely thick black. My nose. Her father's lips. Full and plump and it should look kissable and cut just the way his father's is.

No. I shook my head. I can't think of that now. I guess he's still with that blonde. I guess she's still his girlfriend. Nate's still my boyfriend too so no need to get jealous.

Let me just worry about myself. I didn't even know that I put on a few pounds until I decided to pick out a dress.

I doyn't have clothes my size anymore. I'd just manage what I have until I get some new clothes.

I put on a black jean and pink top. My bump was beginning to show. The pink top was giving away my little bump. So I put on a kimono to cover it up.

It was just so perfect. I stared at myself in the mirror while brushing my hair. I tied it up in a messy bun.

I just loved the way I was feeling at the moment. I promised not to let anything ruin my day. And by the way, Nate's coming over.

I walk to the kitchen only to find that blonde bitch seated on the kitchen counter with either of her legs around Jake in his black shirt.

That was the shirt he wore yesterday. I promised I won't let anything ruin my day.

But honestly, that should have been me in his shirt. That should have been me with my legs around him and his hands on my waist holding me close to him. That should have been me.....

"What are you staring at?" the blonde says snapping me out of my thoughts.

And I shook my head in response. This was the first time I was having a close look at her. She's gorgeous. Blonde hair. Her eyes were a sparkling shade of brown. Slim face and slim body. She fits the perfect description of a Victoria's Secret model. I guess this is Jake's ideal girl.

And not me. Blue eyes, dirty brown hair and fat all round and the pregnancy was making it all worse. I won't let this get the least of me.

I turned away and headed out of the kitchen, walking to back to my room to pick up my purse before stepping out.

I knew I had to leave the house before I threw up just by merely seeing them together.

As I approached the door, Jake pulled me back and demanding to know my whereabouts.

"Nowhere in particular. At least till my boyfriend comes over to pick me up." I noticed his hands ball into a fist and clenches his jaw. I swallowed hard.

I watched him eye my bump making me tug at my top and pulling my kimono to cover my stomach. And then he looked up at me making me so uncomfortable under his gaze.

At that moment my throat began to feel dry. He looked so handsome this morning. His blue-green eyes were piercing through me.

And then I dropped my gaze only to find that he's shirtless with his trousers hanging dangerously below his waist.

I swallowed and caught him still staring at me.

I finally broke the silence between us. "Jake, I'll be on my way. Have fun with your uh..." So stupid of me. I don't even know what to say.

"It's Britney, Jake's girlfriend." I hear someone else say and realize its the blonde.

She stared at me with so much disgust and disbelief. I guess she now knows I'm the baby mama.

"So you are the family friend right, Nicole Hill. Nice meeting you." she chipped in and I just nod and walk out the door.