Afterwards, We'll Met In Heaven

Well hello there diary, I am Mira the one who's writing the diary for more than a year now. I've changed another notebook to continue writing at least one more time. I am dying slowly from the inside and outside because my love left this world. But let's go back, to the time that I've meet the girl that happened to have the same disease as me. Her name was Anna and she had the most beautiful blond hair I've ever seen. She smiled like an angel and was the purest girl I've ever meet. We first meet when I was in the sophomore year, in high school. We happen to be in the same year, and we had the same friends. Anna wasn't shy like me and she would talk to everyone and anyone. I didn't realize how our friendship was slowly becoming something more, but we never really talked about who do we like or dislike. We talked more about how are we feeling inside because of the disease. The doctors told Anna that she only had one year left and I had around eight to ten years if I continue to use the right medication. I never really talked about what I wanted to be or what I wanted to do when I finished high school because there was no point, but Anna made me think otherwise. We had a lung cancer and for her it was at stage four and I am at stage three right now. I am slowly getting worse, but at least I experienced love, friendship and care from others.

As me and my group friends were talking about life and the last exams that we'll have, Anna joined us and asked some help from a person next to me to solve some math problems but that person said to her:

"I am also bad at math but maybe Mira will help you out! She'll love to. Right, Mira?"

"Oh that's right. I'll help you out. Shall we go the the nearest café?" -I added and then looked at Anna. Anna nodded and we got up and left the group behind.

We got to the nearest Café, and asked for some Tea then I helped her with the math problems. When we finished, and tapped my shoulder and said:

"Um Mira, can we talk a little." -Anna smiled and I said:

"Sure, what's up?", I got really scared but she didn't look like it was something serious but so I thought.

"I have the same disease as you, I saw you at the hospital and overheard your doctor. I am the stage four and I have only one year to live or at least two."

I didn't have any words so I just hugged her very tightly and started crying.

She added: "I cannot breathe Mira! Why are you crying I'll start to cry too."

After five minutes we both cried together and then we left the café.

"Mira, I have to tell you something else!" -She smiled and I asked her what was going on now and she added: "I like you...", she didn't say anything else.

I just looked at her eyes and smiled and after one minute of waiting I whispered to her ear: "I like you too!"...

"Girl, that one minute was like I was dying or something." -Anna laughed and started hitting my shoulder.

"Do you wanna be my girlfriend?" -I asked while sweating.

"Of course. So today's our first day, huh?" -She wheezed.

"Oh right, it is right?" -I added.

We told everyone about our relationship, because there was nothing really no hide anyways. Everyone looked happy and after five months we went to each others houses and got to meet family members. Anna at the six months started having pain in the abdomen and was throwing up every hour. She didn't eat much like before but when she was with me she ate lots of food but would go to the bathroom to throw everything up. She started to lose weight very fast but would always tell me that everything is going to be alright. One month later she was alright again, Anna started gaining weight again and we went on so many dates and had fun everyday.

"Mira, wanna go on a date today as well?" -Anna laughed.

"Eh? Sure. I mean didn't we say that we'll be at home for a week at least?" -I added.

"Of course, but you know let's go to the zoo or somewhere else." -She smiled.

"Sure, let's go."

After the zoo, we went on a picnic. We had fun the whole day and didn't talk about anything bad that's happening in our lives. We took so may pictures for everything we did, even if we just made tea and watched movies at home, we'll take pictures and appreciate the time we had together. All the pictures we did we took would end up in the wall of my room or the Anna's room, and under every picture would be a date and what we did in that day.

One year already passed, and it was time to celebrate our one year anniversary. And so we did, both of us got roses. She got me black roses and I got her pink roses. We drank some vine we found in my house and had fun watching movies at my house.

The next year passed very fast and we did everything we wanted. We went to many dates, watched many movies in the cinema, visited different countries, took many videos and pictures fo ourselves and nature. The next year compared to the two before didn't have many happy memories because the sickness started to get it's own hands on Anna's life. I spend five months in the hospital with her and the other three outside the hospital in her house. It was in september when everything turned out the another way. Anna no longer could move her body on her own will. The second day, Anna no longer could eat on her own will. The third day, Anna was being feed thought the tube. The fourth day Anna couldn't breathe anymore and died in the night when I slept next to her. Anna had her hand on my head, I woke up and called out for her parents. I got so shocked and that I threw up and after that I blacked out.

I woke up in the hospital and overheard the doctor's conversation. They said that I am already in the fourth stage and that I should stay in the hospital recieving some medication and everything that's needed. My mother visited me and told me that I was sleeping for two days and that they already had the funeral the day Anna died. I cried myself to sleep and got very depressed, day were very difficult for me to handle but I did it somehow. My friend came in my room and gave me ten letters written by Anna. Every letter had around ten pages, and I started reading every letter for the ten days.

In one letter Anna wrote:

"Mira, with you I got over everything. You were my blessing and something that I needed the most I'm the first year we met. The year when we were in high school I already was feeling really bad but I got over it. I meet you, and had amazing time. Is already knew that I won't have the time I need to get to know you more but at least I got one year or at least more than that to be with you. Our other high school friend will bring you a different candy, the one you love, so you'll have to eat it. I'll be with you so don't be sad. I'll watch over you, so don't cry too much. I'll be there when you need me. See you in heaven, my love."

I still got the letters and it's been two years already. For the past two years all of my friends visited me and have me candy that I liked, chips, shirts, and the other things. All of them said: "It was a gift from Anna.", and everytime I would tear up.

Dear reader,

I don't have much time. But at least I got to write something about my life and what was happening around me.

I am losing strength in my legs and arms but I still go the will to write. I am sleeping more, and feeling really tired often. I'll be sleeping after this, but who knows if I'll wake up.

One day at a time is fine by me...

As long as those days are with you...

See you my angel, I'll be joining you soon.

Yours only,

Sincerely,

Mira.