Chapter 184 All in the past
I came out of the bathroom fully wrapped with a towel to see Sharon going through my stuff,she was on my photo album. I smiled at how she was sitting leg crossed in the bed,it's been her sitting position since we were kids. There are things one don't let go no matter how grown up they are and that's why it's good to have excellent as character so that we will not be afraid of letting go.
"So you still have this pic?"
She said and I raised my head to look at her,when I saw the pic she was showing me I smiled. That's Kurin's picture he was five years old and that picture has a lot of memories associating with it.
"Offcouse,it's my favorite collection"
I replied and pulled my stares away from her. I wonder why she has a look of guilt,I thought we have passed this phase.
"You don't have to be guilty,all is in the past now"
She sighed and Said.
"I know but it pricked my heart that as a mother I never watched him grow up and because of my selfishness,he went through all that he went through and still he left so early. No matter how hard I tried to comb everything,the guilt will always be there. I just have to find away to live with it or more like, continue living with it because I have been living with it all along."
I actually understand everything she is feeling,no matter how hard we try to forget,faint memories will always linger behind.
"Maybe it's time you forgive yourself and try forgetting. It will help you,it's only you who could do that for yourself. If the whole world forgives you and you don't forgive yourself,then there is no need forgiving. So get a better hold of yourself and let go of the past"
I explained, trying to see reasons with her. If only she could do that then it's settled, if not going to South will be in vain. I could remember there was a time I used to blame myself because I felt that I failed as an aunt regarding Glamorous,but as time goes on I came to realise that if even I continued to blame myself for enternity, what has happened would remained as it is. Some things can't be changed,we only find a way to live with them.
"Thanks sis,I will try for you,for my grand daughter,for my son and my husband. You guys should be the reason I should forge ahead"
She said and sniffed her tears away. I smiled and focused on getting myself ready for the journey to South. I don't think we will return today but if we do then it's all good.
"I have something to tell you"
I said but I did not get to see the reaction on her face because I was backing her.
"What's that Nora?"
"You also have a grand son and he is here on Beverly with us"
I said picking a long black gown with a scarf and turned to face her. The expression I saw on her face was priceless.
"You mean the queen have a brother, Kurin's son"
She asked and I nod my head.
"Yes! we all thought he died with his parents. Few days back he showed up and disclosed his identity and where he has been all along."
She did not know how to express how happy she is,it's okay. Some days are like that,I think there are a lot of compensation for all that she went through.
"Nora, you just made my day,can we get this over with so that I could see my grandson"
She said impatiently.
"Offcouse,we are on it. We need you back in the family again so it's necessary we get it over With. Just hang on,let me put this dress on and we will be off"
I said and wore my pant,bra and the black gown. I wrapped my hair with the scarf and looked at myself in the mirror.
Menh! I look like someone who is going for funeral service and it's exactly what's on my mind now.
"Why the black Nora? You look more like a black witch at the moment"
She said, frowning and I chuckled.
"I don't like bright colors and you know that,this dress fits my mood at the moment and there is nothing you would say that will make me change it,besides we are so late. Now shall we?."
She looked like she would protest but gave up.
"Alright,we shall."
And instantly we found ourselves in the family house.