Chapter 127 Destiny is always Destiny

    She said and it began to make sense now. Could it be the reason mom never had a child in her marriage?. Mom was in shocked when Tiana made her last statement 

   "So you are saying for the fact that I could have birthed the warrior last life and it did not happen,I havd to do that  twenty one years back?"

  Mom managed to asked for the first time..

"Yes exactly, destiny is always destiny,it could never change no matter how it got delayed"

Tiana said and I had to agree with her

   "But how come I was able to bring forth Gina without laying with any man?"

  Mom asked the same question that has been bugging me for a while now.

"Did you remember the man in your dream?"

Tiana asked and I know that question is directed to Mom.

   "Yes! The one that told me about Gina, offcouse I remembered him."

Mom said.

    "He was your betrothed,there was no need meeting another man when the one who is the father already had access to you without your Knowledge. There was no way to explain that to you when you can't even remember that you once had a life in the past.

She said and mom flared up in anger,

   "How come I was never aware of all these. I was deprived of what belongs to me first and still they have the guts to take advantage of me without my consent"

She said and I felt bad. She was right though. They should have let someone birth me if they had messed with her life the other time.

   I stood up without saying anything and walked out of the living room. I believe everyone has a choice when it came to destiny,why will it be enforced? What happens when the Person that it's bestowed upon does not want to have anything to do with it huh?.

     My anger was fast rising and breaking something will be my next move. Mom should nurse her pain let me go nurse mine.

    I made my way to my bedroom and closed the door when I entered. I could barely see,my tears that was threatening to fall before now came spilling all over my face and I let it flow. It been long I cried like this,last I spilled so much tears was the day mom found out I was crushing on my classmate,Zion back in grade 5 and she had warned me to stay a way from him or else we will move out of the neighborhood. 

      I obeyed her and stayed away from him I after I had cried myself to sleep a night before I said goodbye to him.

    Two days later his family moved out and he never came to school again. Ever since then,I never made attempt to crush on any guy again. I never understood anything until last sunday.

    I was angry for no reason, should I say it's because mom was angry or what? I left them for the reason I don't know. I just wanted to get away from Tiana and whatever it is that she represent at the moment. Don't get me wrong but I am mad at nature,mad at Universe and mad also for the fact that Chris and I had to go through all that we went through.

    Could life be more fair,can't we choose what we want, should it be only life that chooses for us?

     I had a very tough childhood,all because I was been prepared for a life I did not choose for myself. praying from every now and then to be like everyone else. My mates tagged me weirdo because I don't mingle. I was not allowed to say hi all in the name of minding the kind of people you mingle with. 

   "Life is better off with no friends,you will have no troubles if you stay on your own. Boys are not what you should crave for,they will chew you, swallow you and spit you out"

   Mom always say and within time,I came to believe everything she had to say but deep down within me I knew that in as much as she might be telling me the truth,not all were really the truth but manufactured lies.

    I don't blame her for everything I went through,I loved mom to fault. I have never in a day wished for another mother. All she did was to keep me safe and any mother in her shoes will do the same thing.

    I will blame destiny for all that has happened,life is not a bed of roses. I accepted fate and destiny when I was told all that I am. 

    I was so furious and saddened,my tears kept falling and I could not help but to cry so hard. Maybe after crying I will forget all about this and forge ahead. 

   For this past one week,I had wished secretly that I never had that one night. I love every bit of my relationship with Chris but the other side of the coin is full of downs

    When I left Tiana's place,I never imagined that my day will go like this. For the life of me,I had missed breakfast and when I thought of getting myself feed,this came up and for it all, l lost the remaining appetite.

    I think I have had enough cry. I stood up and went into the bathroom to wash my face. No matter what life throws at us,take it and make it better.

    Maybe there are reasons why things are going the direction it's taking. I should not be more angry than my mom is.

    What daughter leaves her dear mother to rant her anger alone.

     When I was done washing my face,I went out of the bathroom and creamed my face and powdered it.

   "Gina you are more than this,you got this and it's time you finish what you started thousand years ago"

    I said to myself and smiled, I just have to find away to be alright.