“Fuck me all night long”

"Here you go sir." A waitress says as she puts a bottle of sake and a cup on the table in front of the depressed blond. Naruto nods and fills his cup as the waitress walks away. He takes three shots in a row, hoping that the alcohol will cloud his mind fast. Sure, he had bad days before, had people deceive him before, but this was a new low even for him. How could he have been so stupid. How could he not have noticed something was off. The way they suddenly happened to know where Sasuke was, how conveniently close he supposedly was. And then what had happened between him and Kèze… Naruto takes another shot and fills the glass again. Images of the boy flashing before his eyes, horney and needy and not so bad looking in the moonlight with a star filled sky as background, to bloody and dead eyes unseeing after he had killed him. This was the young man that made it undoubtedly clear to Naruto that he was gay. He was sure he had known, deep down, but never had he shared as much, gone as far as this, with anyone before. And he had killed him. Naruto sighs as he takes a swig of the bottle this time, letting the alcohol burn down his throat.

Ever since he had to kill someone for the first time, Naruto took the habit of drinking after each time. Whenever he was on a mission with others and they had killed too they would often end up drinking together. Most of the time it would be with Kiba or Shikamaru. But Naruto would rather drink on his own, since he never drinks too much with others so he will remember what was said and done. On his own he would often drink so much he would pass out.

After taking another swig Naruto lays with his chin on the table that stands in a corner of the pub. {For a moment I thought you were so close. I had hoped we would be reunited by now, but it seems that my desperate wish to find you has clouded my mind...} Naruto sighs and takes another sip, already feeling the alcohol's effect and welcoming it wholeheartedly.

After an hour Naruto stumbles on his way to the inn, where he had rented a room, having the sake bottle still in his hand. He mumbles to himself softly while walking through the halls and giggles a bit as he walks up against a wall. The numbers of the doors are clouded so in front of the door he thinks is his, Naruto leans his face close to the number till it hits his nose. Naruto giggles as he leans back and wipes over his nose. Shrugging he opens the door, not finding it strange that he didn't have to use his key, and walks into the room. He drinks the last bit out of the sake bottle and lets himself fall on the bed where he immediately passes out.

Naruto moans in his sleep, vague dreams and memories of team seven being together, him and Sasuke bickering as usual, filling his mind and heart with happy feelings. Gone are the smoke and the smell of blood, the pain of betrayal, the relief of his confirmed suspicions, the despair at having failed again.

"Sahasukeh…" He groans accusingly, it was the ravens fault as usual. Of what? He doesn't know. It just always is. Always it's him. Just him…

~~

A raven haired young man around the age of twenty walks out of the bathroom in nothing but a towel, still drying his dark hair as he walks towards the closet. It has been a long day for him and after sleeping rough in nature for the past few nights he was glad to have entered this village to rent a room. A soft bed sounded like the best thing he has had in a long time, not to mention the hot shower he just had. He turns with his back to his bed as he picks out some clothes from the closet and starts to put them on.

"Sahasukeh…"

Said raven staggers as he hears someone call his name. He quickly grabs a Kunai from a shelf of the closet and turns around with the Sharingan activated and anger in his eyes. The blush Sasuke had on his face deepens as he realizes he was afraid of being seen naked by the blond who is just sleep talking on his bed. Sasuke holds his hand over his face for a moment as he realizes he's not in immediate danger and then continues dressing himself. He puts on a long sleeved black shirt with a V-neck and a black pants, the dark clothes working well in keeping him hidden if he needs it.

He then takes a look at the blond and sighs irritated when he sees the empty bottle of sake. He knows Naruto has been looking for him and he has gone through great lengths to preventing him from succeeding. Hence why he had avoided villages so much, precisely to prevent this situation. Well, not exactly this situation, he doubts he could have ever seen this one coming. He picks it up and throws it in the trash, picking up his beer from the table next to a window. He sits down at it, not too far from his bed and drinks the rest of the bottle in one go.

{So, we will both be drunk then... Of all the nights that I indulge, he has to find me now.} Sasuke looks over to the bed where Naruto softly mumbles in his sleep and smiles a little. He normally hardly indulges in alcohol, especially not where other people could see him, but the last time he had entered a village things had gone well and he figured he was safe enough to try it again. Last time he had this much to drink it had made him pleasantly numb and on a night like tonight, the night after the anniversary of when he lost everything, he would need it more than any other. All day long, after a fitful night filled with nightmares, he just needed to have something that would hopefully cloud his mind enough to give him some restful, preferably dreamless, sleep.

The bed, the hot shower and the alcohol mixed should have made the perfect recipe for a pleasant night, but now… Now he's stuck with his blond idiot. No, an idiot, not his. He stands up, wavering only but slightly in place, before making his way to the bed.

{Idiot...} Sasuke thinks as he looks at the sleeping face of his former best friend and rival. He silently observes him as he sits down on the bed next to the blond, taking in all the changes in his appearance and recognizing the things that haven't changed in all these years.

When the war had neared its end, Sasuke knew he couldn't stay, taking that he was still distrusted by others and seen as a criminal.

Of course he could have explained his actions and confronted Konoha with the truth, but Sasuke knew that anger and hatred were still the most overwhelming feelings in him towards Konoha and that it would take a long time to get over all the trauma he's gotten over the years. Sasuke feared he would emotionally break down if he told them about such painful experiences or that he would discover even more painful truths. In order to deal with his unstable emotions, traumas and the past he yearns to leave behind, Sasuke knew he had to leave. He had to get away from the places, the people who reminded him of all the painful things he's been through.

All Sasuke ever wanted, ever since the night he lost everything he cared about, was to get over it and move on. He knew though that that wouldn't be possible if Itachi, and later Danzo and Konoha, were still alive. They were the ones who would keep confronting him with his past, keeping the nightmares alive, and would most certainly pose a threat to his future. Each time Sasuke finally managed to complete his revenge he would think that it's finally over. But each time he would discover something even worse.

The decision to leave wasn't difficult to make since he didn't have a home to return to anymore anyway.

These past four years Sasuke has been traveling around the world. He would go to places he'd never been before and met all kinds of new people. He never stayed at one place for longer than a couple of weeks or months.

Sasuke has learned a lot from the people he has met on his journey, but the most important thing is that he has learned to let go of his past and how to move forward. As time has passed Sasuke has managed to get close to his original character again.

Naruto starts to softly moan in his sleep which catches Sasuke's attention again. The blond starts to squirm a little as he keeps moaning with a frown on his face.

{I wonder what he is dreaming about.} Sasuke thinks as he observes his former rivals face intently. So familiar, the sight of him feels so familiar that it makes his heart ache for a home he lost long ago. A sensation, a longing, of belonging somewhere, with someone. He doesn't have many contacts and few have ever found their way past his barriers and into his heart, but this one here somehow had. It's why he's always hated him at least a little. Naruto, with his determination, shining eyes and positive, albeit obnoxious character, always made him feel he had something to lose. He made him feel vulnerable. Sasuke leans in closer to him, observing him and wanting to be close to the time that they were closer than they are now. It was him. It always was him whom got under his skin, the one person he ended up caring about. Why couldn't his idiot leave him alone?

"Saha... Ngh...Hmmhmm..." Naruto moans, causing butterflies in the raven's stomach and his heart jumps with excitement. He doesn't understand it, doesn't need to. Sasuke can't take his eyes off him and he wonders what would happen if he got even closer. Would he still smell the same? Would he smell like home, feel like home? Why does he want that feeling so much anyway? Sasuke shakes his head, nearly losing balance and falling right on top of the blond. The drowsiness and alcohol surely have done their work and he decides that he doesn't care. He doesn't care that he doesn't care, not realizing that he doesn't even know what he doesn't care or not about anymore as his drunken thoughts spiral.

So he gives in and observes his blond once more, accepting the feelings of desire for closeness that courses through him. Naruto's face is cutely flustered, his bright blond hair sticking to his slightly damp forehead, his tanned skin and his soft slightly parted lips that lets short breaths out so erotically. Sasuke licks his lips and leans into Naruto's face unconsciously. How would it feel to have him so close? Would he taste of home too? Sasuke closes his eyes as their lips are only a short breath apart, hovering, wavering as rational thoughts are struggling to break through the haze.

"I won!" Naruto yells suddenly, knocking Sasuke off the bed and to the ground before their lips could have touched. Sasuke scowls as he wipes over his bruised cheek while Naruto turns on his side and continues to giggle and mumble in his sleep. He didn't expect that. He should have, he was an Uchiha, he doesn't get to be slapped around like that. Flustered and frustrated, Sasuke stands up and ignores the part of him that is relieved with determination as he taps Naruto not so gently on his head to wake him up. He's wasted enough time. He was slightly drunk, sleepy and all he wanted was a nice hot shower and a nice hot bed. What he didn't sign up for tonight was to be slapped in the face by the idiot, rival, cute guy that somehow, out of nowhere, is sleeping on his bed. Sasuke was just done.

~~

"Auch! Wrhat t'hell was tha for?!" Naruto exclaims and turns to face Sasuke with a scowl as he blinks to clear his vision.

"That is for knocking me over, you absolute moron. What the hell do you think you're doing in my bed?!" Sasuke says as he folds his arms in front of his chest and looks at the blond sternly. Naruto wipes his eyes a few times, trying to wipe away any tricks his mind is playing and hoping to clear his thoughts. For what he was seeing had to be a hallucination, a conjuring of his mind to fill the longing in his heart.

"S-Sasuke..." He says softly as he looks at the raven stunned.

"Oi, you awake yet idiot?" The conjuration pokes Naruto's forehead as he sits next to him again. And that smell, oh that smell! There was no way any illusion could fake that. It had to be real. The musky smell of nature and earth, of soapy freshness and cozy hominess. The look of that ridiculous, but stylefull hair, the strong jaw and those eyes that look at him with surprise and a slight worry that's only visible to the trained eye. Naruto can feel his eyes burn with unshed tears and he quickly wraps his arms around Sasuke's neck, ignoring the questions of his rationality. Even if this is a dream. Even if it is his drunken mind playing tricks on him. He would enjoy every moment of holding his precious friend close.

"S-Sasuke..." Naruto's shoulders shock, being unable to do anything but chant his name as he holds the raven closer. "Sahasuke, Sasuke..." Naruto sobs while letting his tears fall, relief so strong coursing through him that he's sure he's shaking from it.

Sasuke wraps his arms around the devastated blond as Naruto's shoulders shock with each sob. Just that, just the feeling of Sasuke holding him back makes the tears break out even more. He cries and holds onto the one in his arms tighter and as Sasuke does the same he feels like the relief is breaking him. He hadn't known how scared he had been that Sasuke would push him away as soon as he had found him. The fact that he hasn't and is even holding him back is all the proof Naruto needed that his friend hasn't changed for the worse. It feels like home, like finding the piece of him that was missing and finally he'll be able to hold on to it.

Sasuke strokes his back and shushes to him softly, trying to calm him down and it takes quite some time for Naruto to do so for every kind of such a caring expression makes him feel the relief only more and more strongly. They sit like that for some time until it seems that Naruto starts to calm down a bit.

Sasuke softly kisses Naruto's forehead and leans against it with his own, surprising Naruto but he welcomes it. He doesn't care why the raven suddenly cares, all he wants is to be with him. Blue eyes look into black ones as Sasuke gently wipes away Naruto's tears. An unsure look on his face that has Naruto's heart melting and the gesture itself has Naruto's heart skip a beat and the butterflies in his stomach going crazy.

He looks at the raven in front of him, so close, so real, so, so, just so… His eyes dart to the lips in front of him and he wonders what it would be like to be even closer. What would he feel like? Wouldn't it be great if they could be truly one? Like, share one body? Naruto is sure he would jump out of his if he could, jumping into Sasuke's mouth to be swallowed by him and be a part of him forever. At least then the stupid bastard wouldn't be able to run away and hide from him.

He didn't even realize he was going to do it until his lips touch Sasuke's, pressing strong and determined. For a moment fear breaks through his still alcohol clouded mind. Has he made a huge mistake? Will Sasuke disappear again?

Then the lips on his own move, the arms that surround him still tighten around him. They are kissing. They are kissing for real and it's not soft or carefull, it's passionate and hard and absolutely wonderful. Naruto mewls with delight as Sasuke's tonge traces his lips and he easily opens his mouth to welcome him in.

With his tongue, Sasuke carefully maps out every corner of Naruto's mouth. Naruto moves his head a little so Sasuke can slide his tongue in even further and he moans softly. He still can't believe that this is real. That he likes this and that it is Sasuke whom he is doing this with. That he likes it apparently as much as him is nothing but a baffling thought. If this is just a dream Naruto is sure he doesn't want to wake up.

They keep their eyes closed as their tongues move around each other, cherishing each moment, movement, touch, as they exchange saliva. Naruto leans back a little and pulls Sasuke with him so he lays on his back with Sasuke on top of him. The weight of the other confirms even more that this is really happening. The warmth of Sasuke's body matching his own and Naruto moans softly into the kiss that slowly seems to come to an end.

In order to get fresh air they break their passionate make-out and both of them are panting from having kissed so passionately for so long. Naruto lays his hands on Sasuke's cheeks and his eyes fill with tears once more as he feels Sasuke so close. Those dark familiar eyes looking back at him, breathing aligned and he takes in all the little changes in his old friend's face. The darkness that always seemed to shroud his eyes has evaporated, making them seem clearer than Naruto has ever seen them before. His kiss swollen lips hold a slight smirk or lopsided grin as he allows Naruto to observe him and the nostalgic feeling it brings makes Naruto near whimper with longing to capture the sight of it. He can't get enough of it, after all this time, he wishes he could burn the image in his mind, this image of a happy or at least lighter looking Sasuke.

"Sasuke..." Naruto says and a single tear rolls down his face which is quickly wiped away by Sasuke's hand. "I... Miss you... so much. P-please be real.. Please don't disappear..." Before Sasuke can answer Naruto has pulled him into another kiss again. His desperation drives him to plunge his own tongue into the other's mouth for a bit where they tangle together.

"I won't." The raven replies between their tongues dancing together. Naruto pulls him closer, grabbing a fist full of dark hair as he moans deeply. Sasuke has one hand on his shoulder, caressing it.

"Prove it. Touch me. Let me feel you everywhere..." Sasuke smirks as he too hears the demanding tune and desperation in his voice. He kisses Naruto shortly and pulls off his shirt while Naruto takes off on his own. Soon they are completely naked with their clothes scattered around the room. Naruto lays on his back while leaning on his elbows and Sasuke sits in front of him. They look at each other's bodies and Naruto gulps as he sees how big Sasuke's cock is. Sasuke smirks as he makes his way over to the blond.

"No matter how many years pass, I guess I'll always be bigger than you." Naruto growls softly and looks away with burning cheeks. Sasuke places a hand on one of those cheeks and makes Naruto face him. Instead of mock, what Naruto expected, he reads concern in Sasuke's eyes.

"Are you sure about this?" The raven asks unsure. The desperation, determination and lust return to Naruto's eyes. Was he sure? There was nothing in the past five years he was ever more sure of. He might be drunk still, he knows his desire for the other man isn't just on a whim. He's been searching, longing so much to find him, to keep him close and not let him go again. If Sasuke wanted him, even just the slightest bit, then absolutely yes he wanted him.

"Yes." He says firmly, washing all doubt from Sasuke's face. The raven kisses Naruto deeply and moves to lay down between his legs. They both moan loudly as their members are being pushed together. Heat coursing through Naruto's body like electricity and the skin on skin contact makes him want to rake his tongue all over the other.

Sasuke gently kisses Naruto's neck and starts to make his way down, leaving a trail of hickeys from Naruto's jaw to his left nipple. In the meantime Sasuke's hands explore Naruto's chest everywhere and Naruto encourages him by moving his hands over Sasuke's back and through his hair.

He moans loudly when Sasuke takes his nipple into his mouth while he plays with Naruto's other one with his hand. Sasuke hums approvingly at the sound, sending tremors through the nipple he is working on and Naruto rewards him with more. Sasuke bites softly in it and turns circles around it with his tongue before going back to sucking it. The sensation drives Naruto crazy and he bucks his hips up to grind his member against Sasuke's. Sasuke moans softly and moves his head up to kiss him deeply again while grinding against him every now and then.

"Nhg... Ah.. Sasuke... Mmore... P-please... Fuck me!" Naruto moans as the raven attacks his jaw and neck, before smacking his lips on Sasuke's again. Saliva slips past Naruto's lips as they kiss with more and more lust and passion. Sasuke suddenly breaks their hot kiss and moves his way down Naruto's body while leaving kisses, hickeys and bite marks. Naruto encourages him in every way he can think of. He wants there to be marks that will stay visible long after their make-out. So they will remind him that all this has truly happened.

Sasuke gently kisses the top of Naruto's member and he clearly enjoys the sounds Naruto reacts with. From the lowest part of Naruto's shaft Sasuke licks up to the top causing Naruto to moan loudly and yearn for more, never having felt something so amazing. He takes Naruto's hard member in his hot mouth and Naruto cries it out of pleasure. Sasuke starts to bob his head up and down while gently stroking it with his teeth every now and then. It's the hottest and most intimately pleasurable sensation Naruto has ever had and knowing just who is giving it to him makes him reach his climax in record time.

"Ngh.. ah, ah... Sa-Sahsuke... I'm gonna..." Naruto moans as Sasuke moves faster, ignoring his words. Naruto is grateful and touched when Sasuke's hands find his own and he holds on for dear life as Sasuke's skillful mouth works him towards the explosion that is building up. When Naruto comes, white flashes flickering in front of his eyes, Sasuke takes in half of his semen and swallows it, letting the other half flow over Naruto's stomach.

Naruto breathes heavily from the treatment and having called Sasuke's name out at his climax, still trying to come down from it. Sasuke wets three fingers with Naruto's spilled seed and holds one finger at Naruto's entrance where he seems to waver. He looks over at Naruto's face for approval. Said blond, covered in sweat, his cheeks bright red and having nothing but lust in his eyes, nods determinedly.

Sasuke slowly enters his finger into Naruto's tight hole and Naruto groans loudly. It burns, making it a rather uncomfortable feeling, but he endures it for he wants this more than anything and the pain does nothing to dampen that desire. Having his finger only half way in, Sasuke quickly moves to Naruto's chest to suck, bite and turn around his nipple again in order to distract him from the pain as he slides his finger in further. Naruto's moans slowly die out as Sasuke stops moving his finger, having it completely in. The raven leans up to Naruto's face and kisses him tenderly.

"I'm sorry if I hurt you. I...I have never done this before... A-are you still a virgin?" Sasuke looks at the blond questioningly with a slight blush on his face. It's a sight that Naruto will cherish forever, no matter if they end up doing this a thousand more times or not.

"Yes... I'm still a virgin... But it's okay, Sasuke. You don't have to go easy on me. I want it to hurt. Make it hurt so I'll know this isn't a dream... So I will remember... So I will know this is real…"

Sasuke wavers for a short moment, observing him intently and likely trying to find any doubt behind his words. Not finding any, he nods and kisses Naruto deeply while moving his finger again. Naruto's groans from the burning feeling soon turn into moans from pleasure. With his free hand Sasuke plays with Naruto's nipple while he attacks the other with his mouth again as he adds another finger. All these new sensations are overwhelming for Naruto and it takes no time at all before he can feel his erection poking proudly into the air again. Sasuke complies when Naruto begs him to move his hand faster and he is pulled into another sloppy kiss when he starts scissoring.

"Ah, ah... Sasuke... Fuck... Skip the last one... Enter m-me... I-I want-hah... You now!" Naruto moans loudly and wraps his legs around Sasuke's hips. The need for oneness, for closure, seems overwhelming, burning away the desires of mere lust. Using the remaining semen on Naruto's stomach, Sasuke wets his hard shaft and aims it at Naruto's widened entrance. He takes a deep breath and Naruto mimics him, steadying themselves.

"Try to relax, okay?" Sasuke whispers lowly and the tone of his voice alone has Naruto moaning, making him feel at ease and causing him to relax as much as he can. Not wasting any more time, Sasuke slides his member into Naruto's tight hole with frequent thrusts. They both moan in unison as Sasuke eventually slips all the way in, his hips flush against Naruto's behind.

Naruto can feel the burning, the heat and fullness within him so foreign and yet so very welcome. It doesn't nearly hurt as much as he had feared and knowing whom it is that is inside of him, whom he is having sex with, makes him enjoy the idea, let alone the sensation. Sasuke trembles above him and as Naruto looks up he finds the raven has his eyes closed, a look of concentration on his face. Clearly he has a hard time holding back and well, Naruto was never one to appreciate anyone holding back on him. He moves his arms up, pulling Sasuke's forehead to his and he lets go of a deep, trembling breath.

"Move, Sasuke." Naruto whispers demandingly and Sasuke chuckles before opening his eyes and he kisses Naruto sweetly but shortly. Then he leans back, pulling Naruto's legs up on his shoulders and watches as he pulls back slowly. Naruto's heart hammers from excitement and as Sasuke slides in he can't stop the long moan leaving him. After their first few slow thrusts, both of them getting truly used to the intensity of it all, Naruto already pleads with Sasuke to move faster. Sasuke can no longer hold back and pulls up Naruto's legs higher as he starts to move faster and faster. His dick slipping in and out making sounds that are far to erotic and the slapping sound of skin on skin echoes in the room. Naruto shouts it out as his prostate is hit and flashes of pure pleasure make any thought unreadable. He begs for more each time Sasuke hits his sweet spot. The room is now filled with moans from the both of them as the speed at which Sasuke pounds himself into Naruto's ass is all the two can focus on.

"Yes... Ah... Sasuke... I'm... Ahalmost... Ngha.." Naruto moans as he tries to hold himself back. He wants it to last, wants this to continue forever.

"M-me too... Ngh... Say my name... When you do.. NhNaru, Naru, Naru..." Sasuke replies between his thrusts.

Naruto shouts out Sasuke's name when he finally comes, waves of pleasure rolling through his very being and as his hole tightens he feels Sasuke slipping over the edge as well. Sasuke comes hard within the blond while moaning his name. He lays down on top of the one whom he gave his virginity to as much as he had taken it from him and they both lay in each other's embrace, panting heavily while they enjoy the afterglow of their first time sex together. Sasuke seems to have no intention of getting up and as he intends to pull out of Naruto he is stopped by the blonds legs that embrace his hips tightly again.

"Don't go out. I want to feel you inside me more." Naruto says and kisses Sasuke's neck gently.

"Hmmm... I'm tired Naruto. Let's just sleep..." Sasuke softly says as he notices how Naruto keeps kissing passionately.

"No, I don't want tonight to end. I want to fuck with you all night long." Before Sasuke can answer Naruto has rolled them on their side. Pushing Sasuke over, Naruto intends to sit on top of him but they fall from the bed on their other side.

"Ugh... You moron, that hurts!" Sasuke growls.

"S-Sorry..." Naruto says with an apologetic grin.

He quickly pulls Sasuke over him to their other side and sits on top of him. Sasuke rolls with his eyes as Naruto grins at him. Naruto leans down to capture the others lips with his and moves his hands all over Sasuke's chest.

"You just relax and enjoy. Now It's my turn to move and make you feel really good." Naruto says as his hands explore Sasuke's chest. Sasuke's answer is stifled by a moan as Naruto starts to pinch his nipples. Using the same tactics Sasuke had used on him, Naruto kisses and licks his way across the ravens skin while softly rocking in place with the big cock that is still inside of him. As he takes Sasuke's hand he waits until the raven looks at him before lapping at his fingers in the most salacious and slutty way he can think of. He watches Sasuke swallow at the sight and as he rolls his hips a bit harder Naruto can feel the big presence within him get even bigger again. Naruto lets out short breaths and soft moans as he starts to move his hips. He takes a look at Sasuke who has his eyes closed, a slight blush on his cheeks and soft moans leave his slightly parted lips. Naruto starts to move faster and closes his eyes as well while one loud moan after the other leaves his lips. His hips roll up and down in circular motion, the big shaft within him slick from having come once already.

{It hurts but it feels so good at the same time. He's here... He really is here... I finally found him! And I won't let him go again.} Naruto thinks as he starts to slam himself down on Sasuke harder and harder. Sasuke's moans increase in amount and volume. He quickly sits up and guides Naruto with his hands while kissing the blond's tears away, which Naruto didn't even realize were sliding down his cheek. He chuckles and laughs a little and as he moves faster and faster he can feel his climax approaching. He whimpers Sasuke's name as the raven thrusts up in him during his release and as he sits back down he lets Sasuke hold him tightly.

Naruto leans with his head on Sasuke's shoulder and intends to enjoy the afterglow but his raven isn't satisfied yet.

"Don't think you can get some sleep now that you've actually got me in the mood again." Sasuke says and quickly pushes Naruto up against the wall. Naruto wraps his legs around the raven's waist and screams it out as Sasuke starts to slam himself into Naruto mercilessly.

"S-Sasuke, Please… F-Fuck yes!" Naruto moans as he feels his raven's hard member slipping back in and out perfectly. "Feels good… So g- Hnm!"

"Naruto, fuck, you're so tight… So slick, shit!" Sasuke groans lower than Naruto has heard him all night and he loves the sound of it. As close as they are, it takes no effort for Naruto to grab Sasuke's face and kiss him deeply, causing the raven to slow down to shallow thrusts as they kiss sloppily. "Naru… I want…" Sasuke whispers and he starts to kiss and lick Naruto's neck.

"Anything, I'd give you anything…" Naruto moans deeply as Sasuke swirls his hips around while being as tightly and deeply pressed within him as he can.

"I w-want you to turn around." Sasuke whispers in his ear and bites softly in it. "I'll be able to speed up more."

"Y-yeah. Let's… Hah- Let's do that." Sasuke kisses him one more time as soon as Naruto has said the words. Naruto gasps as his raven thrusts deep and hard into him a few more times before letting him lower his legs to the ground and slipping out of him momentarily.

Placing his hands on the wall Naruto feels more naked and empty than he's ever felt before. It just felt wrong and cold and he needs Sasuke to get back inside of him as soon as possible.

He widens his stance, leaning forward against the wall as Sasuke parts his cheeks so his throbbing cock can find his leaking hole again. As he slides in Naruto can feel the burning pleasure again as he's filled once more so, so very slowly. When he is fully sheathed inside of him Sasuke leans forward to kiss his neck and right behind his ear.

"You like it when I go fast and rough, don't you?" He whispers seductively and Naruto trembles in place, tightening his wands and making Sasuke groan.

"Yes, I do." Naruto replies breathlessly as he guides Sasuke's hand to his already half mast again member. "I want you to take me wildly. L-lose control. Ahah!" Naruto moans loudly as Sasuke bites his neck, slamming forth just once sharply.

"You asked for it." And with that the raven leans back, his hands moving to hold Naruto's hips and then he just moves back slowly. The next thrust is so well and perfectly aimed that Naruto screams from the impact of it, making his legs tremble with the effort to keep standing. He hardly has the time to recover as Sasuke clearly does as he has promised. He fucks him, fast and hard and deeper than it felt before, hitting Naruto's prostate head on again and again. Naruto feels like he's losing all train of thought, nothing getting through his foggy mind as pleasure wave after wave breaks every thought before it could form with every thrust of that hard cock within him. He can hardly register just how much he loves the feeling and again he feels his climax approaching rapidly, his mind no longer functioning well enough to try to postpone it. As he comes with a drawn out, high pitched moan his thoughts jumble and tumble through his mind without comprehension. It's too much, too strong a feeling and far too much stimulation as Sasuke doesn't slow down. No, it seems he speeds up instead, no doubt having felt Naruto's slick wands tighten around him again.

"K-keep going… Come in me, S- ah-asuke…" Naruto breathes and Sasuke grunts as he chases after his own release, his moans rising an octave as he does so, his body shocking and then there was the feeling of what was happening within Naruto's body. Naruto closes his eyes as he feels the heat within him increase, counting the throbbing waves that he knows bring more and more essence of his Sasuke within him, the slick wetness at his entrance leaking out. He loves the feeling, loves how erotic the thought is and it makes him want to lick up all the semen his friend has just spilled. He wonders absently if they are still friends. Are they more? Less? He doesn't know and right in this moment he doesn't care. Tiredness overcomes him, his throat sore from the shouting and he feels his legs tremble with the effort to keep standing.

"Naruto." Sasuke says softly and he pulls Naruto's head towards him to kiss him deeply again, which Naruto happily participates in. "Let's get some rest." Sasuke says as he steps back, slipping out and pulling Naruto by the hand to the bed. As soon as they are under the covers Naruto turns around and presses his ass against the still semi-hard dick again.

"I want you to be inside of me while we take this break." He says shily and Sasuke snorts, moving to quickly push himself back inside before his member grows to limp.

"You weren't joking when you said you wanted me to fuck you all night long, huh?" He says and kisses Naruto's temple, his neck and nuzzles his hair. Naruto hums approvingly, pushing himself tightly against the other.

"No, I wasn't… Just a short break, Sasuke. Then I want you to take me again and again. Ruin me… with your… strong, big… yummy cock…" Naruto's speech becomes less comprehensive as drowsiness takes him over. Feeling Sasuke pull him close he sighs contentedly.

"How would you know it's yummy?" Sasuke asks him before unconsciousness could get a grasp of Naruto's mind. "Not like you've tasted it before."

"You want me to, huh?" Naruto asks back teasingly and as the dick within him twitches he's acutely woken up some more.

"Would be lying if I said no. You seemed to enjoy it." The raven states matter of factly and Naruto moves the raven's hand to teasingly kiss it.

"It felt amazing. You would really be missing out if you didn't let me do the same for you." He takes a finger into his mouth and again he feels the twitching in his behind, like a waking animal to the first rays of sunlight. "I think I'd be good at it."

"Naruto…" Sasuke groans and just as he intended it Naruto welcomes the first shallow thrust in him as he sucks on the finger in his mouth, pulling it in and out as he slides his tongue around it. He feels Sasuke breathing faster, watching him over his shoulder and as he starts to thrust his finger in and out his mouth, Naruto lets him.

The buildup to their third round lasted longer than the two before and Naruto knows they both relish in it. Like an eternity stretching out, time and the world around them standing still while they share their cosmos with each other. You'd think one would get used to the intensity of their body sharing after a while, but this round is no less impactful than the others have been.

"Sasuke… This- This is it… It's- Hngh… It's everything- everything!" Naruto moans as Sasuke thrusts deeply and slowly within him as he lays behind him.

"Yes." He agrees and pulls Naruto into a deep kiss as he presses so close it feels to Naruto that their bodies are fused together. Just the one word is a confirmation of a connection between them that needs no words at all. This all encompassing feeling that putting words to would only diminish it. Every touch feels like a connection, like a language going so much deeper than any words could ever speak. Understanding, unity, desperation for something that doesn't have a name. Naruto feels it burning through him with every thrust, burning between them like hot passion that melts every barrier there could be.

"Sase- Close! Y-yes, please!" Naruto eventually moans loudly as Sasuke picks up the pace and the intensity between them burns to a crescendo as Naruto comes for the fifth time that night. Sasuke is close behind and he whispers Naruto's name like a prayer in his ear as he does, bodies tightly pressed together as the throbbing waves of relief leave their bodies. Naruto sighs content, reflecting that everything about this third round had been slow and deep and filled with so much more than just mere lust. It felt right in every single way, like nothing else has ever felt before. As Sasuke kisses him behind his ear like a tender breeze, Naruto feels his heart skipping a beat. He turns around and captures the lips of the one he now knows he belongs with for he cannot imagine ever belonging to anyone or anything else after this. This night he has given himself away to this man, his virginity, his body, his heart, his entire being. Nothing will ever be the same and this man, kissing him in such a cherishing way, holds his entire universe now. And he doesn't regret it. He will never, not ever, regret this night. May come hell or high water, this night shall always be one in his mind that he'll cherish.

"Sleep. Now." Sasuke says sleepily and Naruto hums in agreement as he closes his eyes and allows himself to be curled into his lover's embrace. He can't help though but squeeze his ass for a moment and with delight he feels the twitching from the still hard cock inside of him. He sighs contentedly once more and it is soon after that he lets his consciousness drift to the darkness of slumber.

~~

Wakefulness comes but slowly to Sasuke the next morning. The heat surrounding him seems to pull him down, a feeling of contentment and safety clinging to him like spider silk and deterring his consciousness to surface from his deep slumber. And he doesn't want to, doesn't want to let rationality and awareness of reality in and ruin this feeling of soft bliss. So he holds on to it, pulls it closer and burying deeper, every extra second counting.

He sighs deeply though, for dawn waits for no man, and once he became aware of himself there was no stopping every other sensation awakening too.

The headache, for starters, pulsing in his head like rumbling thunder and the occasional lighting strike when he moves too much. The arm that tingles and seems to be the only part of him that didn't get the memo that it was time to wake up. He could almost be jealous of it, if it didn't feel so annoying. And the smell. The smell and the heat of the body lying against his chest. He takes a deep breath and lets the smell wash through him like revitalizing spring water, goosebumps rising on his arms from delight and a shiver running down his spine from desire. He also notices, as his cock twitches to life, that he's still buried within the other's heat. Sasuke barely constrains a gasp as the memories assail his mind from the previous night. Heat and lust and bodies moving, lips kissing and hands exploring and finding release so often, shock and tears and laughter, relief and teasing and so much reassuring. It had been so much, so very much too much.

He lets go of a shaky breath, blinking open his eyes and finding blond locks as the first thing he sees. He swallows and it reminds him of what he swallowed last. He had never given a blow job before, didn't think he would like doing so, but Naruto had enjoyed it so immensely Sasuke had no regrets at all. The memory causes another twitch in the blonds ass. Naruto moans in his sleep, unconsciously perhaps reacting to being stretched slowly as the dick in him grows hard again.

Sasuke bites down on his own upper arm. The idea of repeating some of last night was more than tempting. But they weren't drunk anymore, there was no darkness that could shroud what they did, the stark light would reveal it all. Breathing as quietly as he can, Sasuke starts to move as slowly as he dares. He untangles his arm from Naruto and the blond whimpers softly as he lets himself slip out of that tight heat. He takes some underwear and heads towards the shower, feeling still unsteady on his feet though he doesn't know if it's still from the alcohol, the sleep deprivation or how overwhelming last night had been.

As Sasuke stands under the shower he looks down at his semi hard on accusingly. How could he have let things go so far? How could he have lost control so much? He's quite sure he had been fully aware and not nearly as drunk during the third round and he remembers it clearly. It had felt so good and the way Naruto had responded to- no, demanded of him, had been such a pleasant surprise. Had he really wanted it though or was it his alcohol addled mind that had made him desperate for any kind of touch from Sasuke? Had he unknowingly taken advantage of him? But then the determination, lust and provocation of the blond come back to his mind and his hand involuntarily grabs hold of his hard on as he swallows down a sound he didn't think himself capable of making. There was no way Naruto hadn't wanted it, no way he had mistaken anything or taken advantage of him. He had asked plenty of times if he was sure and Naruto had reacted enthusiastically, almost insulted, every time. He had wanted Sasuke to fuck him all night long and as he remembers doing so he starts to move his hand in hard, determined strokes.

It took little to get to his release, last night providing him with more than ample imagery to bring him over the edge and he didn't want to take too long anyway. Once the shudders of release pass and he starts to wash himself down properly, his thoughts focus more clearly on what would happen next.

The sadness he feels, the guilt and self blame, drive his thoughts as he confirms to himself that this night shouldn't have happened. He had been trying so hard to stay away, to not let himself be found by anyone. Especially not Naruto. This was the worst thing he could've done. Telling Naruto he wasn't going anywhere was especially foolish of him. No, it was downright cruel. For even as he said it he knew he wouldn't stay. Not forever, not even past that night. He had intended it in the way that he'd stay for the moment, but Naruto ofcourse hadn't meant it that way.

Sasuke sighs heavily, as if it could wash away the heavy feelings and he wished it could drain with the soap floating down his body with the water. He kneows he has to leave, go deeper into hiding than before. He should leave before the blond wakes up or else he'll be asking Sasuke to stay. And that was something he couldn't do. After all, Sasuke was still a criminal. Konoha would want to arrest him, he would have to defend himself and confront all the bad things that had happened in his life. He would cause a rift between Naruto and his friends for they surely didn't think him worthy of their precious hero. And they would be right too. Naruto didn't belong to him, he had no right to claim him or expect anything from him. His reputation would cause him nothing but harm, maybe even isolate him and he had nothing to offer in return for such risks.

Sasuke steadies his painfully beating heart after drying off, knowing how this would be all they would ever have. He will treasure the memories forever and hope Naruto will do so too, but this is as far as things will go between them. For Naruto's sake, he has to let him go.

Sasuke hits the wall with the flat of his fist and shudders from the pent up frustration and heartache.

~~

It's the afternoon sun warming the room and the chirping of the birds outside that wake Naruto up. He groans at the pounding in his head and as he tries to curl in on himself he feels a flash of pain shooting from his lower spine to the top. He gasps and as he rolls carefully on his back he can feel his body tensing at the pain from his behind. He takes a shuddering breath and as he lets it go, so goes the tension. Now that he isn't tightening it, he can tell that his ass isn't really as much in pain as he thought, but it was definitely sore. With his eyes still closed, he can't help the smile coming to his face. The ache of his body was proof that last night had been real. He had found Sasuke! Oh, and how he had done a great deal more than that! He chuckles to himself, relishing guiltily in how perverted he had acted and that he had no regrets about it at all. He had no idea he had such a side to him but apparently his drunken mind had let go of all boundaries and boy did he let his desires rule him.

Naruto squints at first before looking up at the ceiling. He had known he was gay and it didn't come as a surprise that he had such an attraction to the Uchiha. It surprised him far more that the raven had reciprocated it. Perhaps it had been the alcohol, but even so, Naruto doesn't think anyone could be drunk enough to go that far so often and with such genuine expressions to both. Besides, he doesn't think Sasuke was that drunk, he might have tasted it as they kissed but there wasn't even a slur in his speech and his eyes had been so clear and focused on him.

Naruto sighs longingly. Gods, those eyes. He could drown in them, so clear as a mirror and showing so much more emotion, making him feel so much more connected to the other than they ever did before. Naruto longed to see those eyes, to stare and lose himself in them. And if they could do so while they rutted like bunnies, all the better.

Naruto carefully sits up and starts to look around the room in search of the raven that took his virginity so thoroughly.

"Sasuke?" Naruto calls out with a voice still hoarse from the sounds he had made last night. His heart speeds up and breath quickens as there is no reply. He moves slowly to the edge of the bed as if any fast movement would chase away the one he is looking for. Panic seizes his heart as the quiet stretches out, filling the room and blocking all the air out of it.

"Sasuke!" Naruto gasps as he feels like he can't breathe. Has he left him behind again? Was it all a dream after all? As Naruto reaches out to steady himself on the night stand he rattles it enough that a glass of water nearly tops over. A glass that surely hadn't been there before they went to sleep. As he looks at it he finds a strap of pills and a folded note next to it. He looks at it for what feels like an eternity, trepidation creeping up on him, constraining him in wires. His hand shakes as he reaches for the note and even then he leaves it folded on his lap for a moment, just breathing as fear paralyzes him. He's sure he won't like what is in it. He doesn't feel like his poor heart would survive it if Sasuke had just left once more.

But what if he was only catastrophizing it? What if it was only a note to tell him he'll be back after grabbing some breakfast for them? It was possible, right? For all Naruto knew it was actually a love note. Not that he thought Sasuke would be the type for that, but then again he didn't think the raven would want to sleep with him either and look at what happened. So he might as well open it. There was no way to find out where the raven was otherwise.

// Oi Idiot,

I'm sure you remember what happened last night and that your body will remind you otherwise. I know you enjoyed it as much as I did and I'm sure you won't forget this night any faster than me. However, we both had too much to drink and we didn't think straight about what we were getting into. I made you promises I shouldn't have, said things I shouldn't have and done things that I shouldn't have. We shouldn't have done this and I am sorry for my part in it. I think it is best we move on and pretend it didn't happen. Naruto, I urge you to let me go. Reach for your own future, for that is what I am doing with mine.

Farewell,

Sasuke Uchiha//

No reaction comes at first. No bawling, no screaming, no anger, no sadness, no confusion. There was nothing. Naruto stares at the note, just sitting there, barely breathing but breathing still though how he wouldn't know. His eyes skim over the words again, and again, and again. Faster and faster until he could recite the words and they all blur together on paper. His hand starts shaking again, his shoulders start to shock and for one inexplicable moment he feels like laughter is bubbling up his throat for some reason.

It comes out as a sob. The note falls to the floor as sob after sob rocks his body and then, finally, there come the tears. He doubles over and shouts to the floor, the pain and devastation in his heart so painful he feels like ripping it out so it would stop. So he could stop feeling again for, oh boy, there are so many and they hurt so much.

Anger, despair, overwhelming sadness, disappointment, frustration, self-blame and so, so much more. A tidal wave seems to flow over him of depressive emotions, cocooning him in a shell, a cage, that he wouldn't be able to break out of. There would be no fighting against it.

How he managed to crawl back under the blankets, Naruto doesn't know. The smell of their intimacy assails him, making his heart thunder all the more painfully as memories of last night get tarnished by this abandonment.

He fears he'll never be able to stop crying, to stop grieving, to stop feeling all these negative feelings. That the soul rendering hurt will never end. He cries and whimpers and only sleep steals him away from the heart ache for a moment before waking and the realization hitting him just as hard again. Round and round it goes as sleep and his broken heart steal the day away.

He had lost him. Again. After all these years, after all the searching, after all the defending, after all the arguments, after all the hard to hold onto faith. After having been so completely and perfectly one with him…